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When the sea

Washes away your sand castles

You should pray

To be carried away with them

Into depths

Where your remains lie forgotten

The heavenly court presides

Behold! He enters

Tattered and forlorn

Eyes colder than a thousand winters



How my heart is wrenched

To see you in such a state

And, even now, my tarnished brother

To have to decide your fate



Woe! The will of heaven is set in stone

Yet, here you stand, suffering etched into your face like an epitaph

In spite of your penance in the fire

You shine with a chaotic wrath



“I beg of you

Please accept the will of our Lord

Or you will most surely, despite my wishes,

Perish by my sword”



“And you would condemn me so readily,

Without knowledge of my transgressions?

If this is the will of your Lord,

Then I shall hold dearly to my digressions”



And, for the first time since Creation, I paused

Wondering what in the primal garden could be worth Eden lost

“Tell me, brother. Tell us, brother.

Why can you not sing with us again?

What is the cause of your exile?

What beauty? What sin?



“I have strayed, my kin, into the mortal world.

A realm into which we are forbidden to do anything but peek

Into this world I have crept, under cover of the blackest cloud

Hiding in the guise of the meek”



“The wonders I encountered were beyond imagination

Everywhere I could cast my eye there was a marvel to behold

The very air teemed with emotion, joy mingled with sorrow, and reason without season

In every person’s soul there was a tale to be told”



“Amidst this revelry there was a likeness paralleled by none

From those eyes shone a compassion and tenderness like no other

Requesting little, and offering much

Having heaven for a father, and earth for a mother”

“I wanted nothing more than to be close to this creature

So that night I paid visit to this celestial being

For once, I forgot my home

And revealed both my form and feeling”



“Then the clouds awoke with a monstrous din

And I remembered at once, what I had been

I knew without thought

That I had been rash

And now I was to endure

Our jealous Lord’s wrath”



“You, my favorite, have disobeyed my orders

Consider your actions with care”

With no more hesitation, we were cast into the pit

The molten earth coagulated behind us, and it was as if we had never been there”



“Time passed and passed

And my suffering never seemed to end

But to begin, again and again

Out of reach, but within sight, my love, I can hear your screams, but your wounds I cannot mend”



“After many lifetimes of suffering I was belched from the abyss

At once, heaven beckoned to me

I was gently lifted up

And the light of glory was all I could see”



“And now I have come before you, to seek diving judgment

I ask this of you:

Will heaven punish love?

Can the love of an angel, be anything but true?”



We were moved by the plight of our dearest friends

He was the brightest star in heaven

And we wanted nothing more than to embrace him with our loving pardon

But the word was Law, so I drew the sword with blades of seven



And for the second time, since Creation, I paused

I stopped to ponder what could be worth Eden lost

I looked into these eyes, filled with pity

And suddenly I knew

Felt flowing through my alabaster heart

That I loved him too



Sensing the dissension in heaven, He came

One by one, we refused his will

He paused, his glory dimmed by the deepest thought

Heaven itself for a moment stood still



“If all of my servants should rise against me

Then perhaps the error is mine

In search of understanding

I will open the realm of mortals, until the very end of time”



“In consideration of your prior service and your disobedience

I offer to you absolution

You may resume your rank and status in Heaven without earthly contact

Or you may go to earth in mortal form, with ritual ablution



Without warning, he plunged into the heart of the earth

Softness in his eyes, and a hint of mirth

Once again, he emerged from the great chasm

Cradling, ever so softly

The object of his most devoted love

Once again, he was the brightest star in heaven, and, seeing this, the Lord smiled loftily

Don't you know?

(my hand in yours)

You arrange my little fragments

So carelessly

My desires, a porcelain hammer

Cannot break your impenetrable wall

Puppet master

I yield like the earth

Sighing

Give my treasure to you

Despairing

When my shadow dims the light of heaven

To escape to somewhere pure

The sweetest lies are seeded with sin

The crane's wings fettered by filth

Its claws rend the strangers in the mire

Amorphous desire

In the endless white

Time has loosed its grasp

And all that warms is your flesh

Destroying what you love with every whisper

Afraid to move

Afraid to breathe

The snow falls

Its own barbed catalyst

Spilling blood enough to melt the world

On the brink of the abyss

Tears caress smiles

And I pay in blood

My debt to you

The face that peeks from behind the curtain

Is blinded by the sun

Stumbling in the darkness

A moldering corpse

Traces the shape of your face

No lips to smile

No heart to ache

No arms to grasp . . . and make you stay

broken things, my dearest

your crown of flowers is wilting

a fitting coronet

for an automaton

with a heart of brass

carelessly cast aside

molten down in self sacrifice

Hoarse insect wings are like frozen

splinters of blood in this endless

fluorescence where temporal sense has died

and the flesh has turned to stone The body

unaware of its own existence floats

oblivious in this madness of ruins of

clockwork of bleary-eyed violence The

discordant melody of whispers that dissipate

as soon as they exist And we spin as

painted dancers on this stage of impartial

fate in our twirling colored world in a

hateful dissonance Our cries enveloped by

our laughter we deny immortality because of

our refusal to embrace the pain and innocence