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feeling like my worlds crashing down

no relief in sight

trying to keep my family a float

slowly sinking below

bobbing up and down

choking on the water called life

but i will survive as there is land in sight

slowly making my way

as things keep trying to pull me back

i will make it one way or another

as nothing will stop my determination

asking others for help is a waste of time

as for cant depend on no one

no matter how hard i try

it gonna be me against the world

til the end of time

i will make it

make my family proud

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ClippedWingedVampire
12:00 Aug 30 2012

This is really good! My friend and I are making a band, and I was wondering if I could use this? I'd give you full credit of course. :)

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SinfulSeduction
05:55 Oct 11 2012

sure y not :-)

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a lot of ups and downs lately but just taking it day by day depression kicking it in to high gear lately....cant believe jayjay will be one month old tomorrow man where has the time went hes growing so fast can roll over from stomach to back, full of smiles and now starting to notice he has a voice so hes been giggling and trying to talk he says ma da and na oh and he is now teething :-( oh and starting to sleep more at night now almost all the way threw the night from like 11pm til 5 or 6 am so nice length find out next week whats going on with my son and when he gets to come home :-) in the process of picking my minor in school might end up choosing 2 lol have one class left in my major than on to my electives which is what my minors will be i have 38 credits to do than its graduation baby lol my family and i will be traveling down to iowa for my graduation so i can walk across the stage shit i earned it :-) cant wait in the next few weeks ill be having a vehicle again damn bout time tired of depending on ppl damn just realized 2 more wks and the kids go back to school gonna be watching jayjay until his daycare stuff goes threw than he will be going to school with his mommy :-) get time alone during the day :-) lets see what else oh ive lost 35 lbs :-) cutting back smoking and trying to be more mobile which is hard with the pain im in 24/7 but hey still trying gonna be scheduling my surgery soon :) cant wait to be able to get up and do more with the kids hopefully wont be in as much pain after wards gonna be a life altering thing but hey if that means i will be around more for my kids and grandson than so be it i would do anything for them

wow where to start i havent been on in a few weeks well my daughter gave birth a health 10lb 22inch long baby boy names Jayvonte James David on july 23rd 2012 at 9:02 pm there were some complications during delivery almost lost both of them his shoulders got stuck and the nurses had to push on my stomach to help her deliver him than she hemorrhaged for almost 2 hours and lost almost 2 pints of blood but both are doing great now my daughter started suffering from postpartum depression and is now getting help for that but b4 she did he and i went to a friends house for the weekend and man was that a long week end not used to getting up every 4 hours to feed a baby and he thought it was funny to stay up at 530 am and play he is a lil over a wk old now and is full of smiles and just learned to make noises lol found out today my grandson will be a baby model and his first photo shoot is this week end :-) had some issues with my son not only did he crash my van he also hit 3 cars took out a dumpster and fence before my van ended up resting flipped on its side he escaped thank goodness with only bruises had to admit him to a mental health clinic for a 35-45 day extensive psych eval missing him like crazy can visit him as much as i like as well as talk to him often after doing some tests they fear he has bipolar and is showing signs of autism as well as ADHD and ODD i was just recently at the hospital with a major asthma attack again damn weather falling behind in school with everything going on so need to start busting my ass to get caught up again urgh found out just recently i have court for my son cuz of the car incident if i dont show i my license will be taken away forget all that noise as of right now that is pretty much all that has gone on