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Well, it's been awhile since I've done an entry. You see I just haven't been in the mood for it, nor for continuing my story, poetry or taking quizes. Why you ask? Well I'll tell you. By the way, if you haven't ask and you aren't interested in knowing then you may as well stop here.



Without going into too much detail a friend of mine is going through a terrible time. I try to be there for her, but I feel that I'm just not doing enough. She's over half way across the country so I can only talk to her on the phone and I feel that it's just not helping as much as I would like.



Add to that the fact that my mother is dying of cancer. She doesn't have a great deal of time left as she's fading very quickly. She was my confidant and my friend when I had no one else. She was full of gentle wisdom, compassion and the knowledge that sometimes I had to make mistakes to learn by them. So she was always there to offer advice and pick up the pieces when I didn't take it. She was the type of person that everyone called mom, no matter how old they were or what thier particular interests or tastes were. She was a gentle, guiding force in my life and though we walked very different paths she was always there to console and point the way when night spread her wings over my life. She will be sorely missed and the pain now is minimal compared to what will come when she is finally gone.



Also, my ex has not allowed me to see my children for about 3 months now and she says she's going to move to Florida with them. I had to learn about this second hand because she hasn't bothered to speak to me for some time now.



Then last month, in changing managers at work, my pay got all messed up and I wound up getting 2 weeks of pay in about 5 weeks. It's finally straightened up but it wasn't a very good time to happen with everything else going on.



During that time a collection agency contacted me. They wanted 1,589 dollars in about 2 weeks because of credit card I hadn't paid. A credit card that my ex was supposed to finish paying off. She had overdrawn my bank account by 2,000 and ran the major credit card up to about the same amount. Even a gas credit card up to 500 dollars, that one still boggles the mind. Keep in mind she did this WHILE she was cheating on me. I paid off the bank and half the major card. She was supposed to pay the other half and the gas card. She didn't.



Finally, now, I had some sort of attack. A stabbing pain just below the belly button. Understand that I don't complain of pain typically, but those literally drove me to my knees. My first set of tests was today. Thurseday is the next set and then I see my doctor next monday.



So there is my life recently.