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Get up, start the coffee, shower, get dressed, drink the coffee while fucking around on the internet, go to work, drink the coffee while hoping I can get enough done before people start asking me for things, forget to take lunch with (no time for it anyhoo), work about 10-12 hours, go home. Gym some nights, no gym others.
Ok, so Jamie and I went to dinner last night at the Golden Corral. I had dead cow, a slice of dead pig and some veggies. He got all kinds of nummies I cannot have:
Mac n cheese
Breaded fried shrimp
Potatoes and cream gravy
Rolls with butter
Shrimp in linguini with scampi sauce
spinach in cream sauce
The ungovernable bastard.
However, he goaded me into what could have been embarrassing if I had any shame:
He got cherry pie with ice cream for dessert. We were talking, and I think he noticed I was watching every bite as it made its way to his mouth. He was waggling his spoon back and forth as we talked, the pie or ice cream falling off, and he'd put it back on and continue talking.
I could. Not. Handle. It. Anymore.
I hollered, "Eat the fucking pie already!"
>.o
He laughed so hard he spilled his tea. And that monkey-fucker did not eat the rest of his cherry pie a la mode!!! That, my friends, was the real tragedy.
Hello! who took ONE STEP into the hotel room at NOLA and made fun of me?! :-/
Oh baby, paybacks gonna be a bitch... (and yes, I do remember I had to buy a new bag to carry all my shoes home... in my defense the bag was CUTE! and so totally needed).
I slept for shit last night. I think I got about a half hour. I was tossing and turning and such, and when I finally did fall asleep, the nightmares started. The nun dream, and the dead children eating me and using bits of me t chink up the wholes in the bone wall they crawled out of.
I don't ask this question unless I want to hear the answer. However, society seems to think this is hello, and people expect the stock answer of, "Fine."
If someone asks me how I am, a complete stranger, I sometimes give the generic, "Fine," but I don't respond with "How are you?" I don't really care, and it's funny when they respond with "Fine thank you" even though the question was not asked. If I know you - and like you - then, yes, I'll want to know your kids have the sniffles, your lumbago is acting up, and I'll want to commiserate that the IRS are bloodsucking bastards.
It always amuses me when people look stymied when I honestly answer their question.
Them: "welcome to blahblahblah How are you?"
Me: "Well, my arthritis in my hips is hurting me today, and my guts are in knots, but other than that, ok, thanks."
Adopt me...please? I swear, you had to have given birth to me in another dimension- cause I KNOW smartass runs in families...lol
And I'm with Dr. C on that one- find one person who is 100% fine around here, and you'll see someone who is murdered in their sleep by the rest of us who are human...lol
It's early. I am very awake. And wearing red lipstick. Oh! Speaking of! I found some by L'Oreal, and it stays on ALL DAY through coffee, lunch, yelling at Ralph ... All day.
I knew that is what the stink was in the House... just knew it.
;)
Stunned ...
03:01 Sep 08 2010 Times Read: 1,556
Yes, like a board to the back of a head, I am stunned.
I got back from working out, chit chatted a bit with folks and took my shower. After my shower, I was putting my moisturizer on my face, and realized ... holy crap.
Hit San Antonio head on today. What does that mean? It means that I had to put my house back together somewhat today. Put siding back on, put what skirting could be found back on, tack down what shingles could be found and call the insurance company. It's livable, but not pretty. *sigh*
It could have been SO much worse. My neighbor - most shingles, gone, and the remaining ones were standing straight up. There were trees down everywhere.
I was very lucky - and I am learning, today, to cout the blessings where they are. =)
*trips Rat and wipes work out sweat off on her hair*
No matter how tortured you feel, someone still needs to do the laundry, wash the floors, scrub the bathrooms, clean the dishes, cook the food, take out the garbage and vacuum the carpets.
Or as Terry Pratchett says, no matter what wars or plagues are happening, someone still has to tip the wee out of the shoe.
Feh. Time to be sensible again and put all this crap on a shelf for another time. Answers are not. (No, there is no word missing from that last sentance.)
I hate that you feel this way right now but I'm so glad it's not just me that feels like this sometimes. I guess it's super selfish to think you're the only one that crap piles on top of but when you're on the bottom it's all you see.
PRIVATE ENTRY
21:51 Sep 05 2010 Times Read: 1,611
• • • • PRIVATE JOURNAL ENTRY • • • •
Warning: Melodrama cometh nigh
21:14 Sep 05 2010 Times Read: 1,620
I can't say anything right to anybody today.
I am getting that, "Time to go be by yourself" feeling again, only I don't want to. I think it might be lonely right now. I don't like, or understand, lonely.
I don't understand people - least of all me.
Everything and everyone is annoying me lately. Everyone. Everything.
Other peoples' troubles are just sounding like whiny wind through the branches of my thoughts, and I know they matter to them ... I think I matter to me. But nothing anybody, me also, is whining about, even this pointless fucking entry, seem to mean dick.
I should matter to me. At the very least, I, me, should matter to me. Meh. Dissatisfaction abounds. I don't know why everything is tilting sideways, is getting a little bit skewed, is becoming the strange prawn dip no one is very sure about, but are too polite to point out its suspicious nature to their host.
Because life happens. And we search. Sometimes we simply have to wallow in shit to see the flowers that eventually grow out of it. Up and down, both are needed to even SEE yourself. Knowing who you are and why- well my friend, that is a life's work. Let's wallow quietly knowing the others is there- and understanding it too will pass...
Today nothing is right. Nothing. Went to the gym - did the tri-suckta of cardio (stairs, elliptical and treadmill) and threw the bike in for good measure, then went and did the weights circuit. I feel ... blah and ick and just ... out of kilter today. Worthless kind of. I know I am not worthless, but today - everything is coated in grey blah.
xp Well I have him in my mentorship so I probably have problems as well. xD
12:25 Sep 01 2010 Times Read: 1,666
So it's September 1.
The year is winding closer to smelling like October.
I am winding closer to being a year older.
Charlotte's web is going through my head, something about Summer being over and gone, over and gone ... Only not in a sad way.
Life is turning the time into the ground and we'll see what we've sown as it bears fruit later. Fall always seems so positive to me - the waiting for completion, the dormancy coming ... Everything.
COMMENTS
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DrCullen
13:23 Sep 30 2010
Oh gosh. Envy Req, very strong envy.
BubbleGumClaudia
14:11 Sep 30 2010
Those are smexy!!
PAGAN
19:44 Sep 30 2010
oooh heels
Fizbop
01:16 Oct 02 2010
awesome shoes.