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Making plots and plans for re-doing my kitchen. ♥

Dude. I missed DB, Morri and Khay drunk on cam.



Dee = failure.

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birra
14:08 Nov 29 2010

I'm sure it won't be the last time....

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Khayman
16:35 Nov 29 2010

My cranial capillaries disagreed with you, Birra... VEHEMENTLY. o.O

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sPerAnZa
20:24 Nov 29 2010

I was stuck in a camper with 7 people.... :(

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RedQueen
22:45 Nov 29 2010

I was watching while at work, but I missed the fun stuff, and I had no sound.. :(

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DarknessBound
12:01 Nov 30 2010

ahahahaha

we;ll do it again soon!!! ....if bri's cranial capillaries man up?? =X lol ♥

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LadyKowe
21:01 Nov 30 2010

I missed it too :(

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Khayman
23:32 Nov 30 2010

If anyone offers me Yellow Tail Shiraz in the next six months - FALL OFF AND DIE.



Just saying.

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Do you know how good it felt to tell everyone to go get out of the friggin' house for three hours, go play somewhere, and work with my bubba to completely tear apart my kitchen and put it back together?





It felt fucking amazing.

Jaguar was sold. *cries*



But - Owner of a new 2011 Kia Soul (YES the Hamstermobile) in denim blue.



Fit 5 people, 4 of them over 6 foot, and two weeks worth of groceries for said crew.



So ... Yep.



Oh - and house-guests through mid-December.



I'll be sparsely attending VR and face book.

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sahahria
01:45 Nov 27 2010

Nooooooo *cries*

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RedQueen
04:10 Nov 27 2010

I sorry- maybe Santa bring you one for Christmas?

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PhoenicianDream
23:07 Nov 27 2010

Pic?

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Just ... every time I see "Journals shown in multiples of 10" ... for some reason my brain automatically jumps ... to multiple orgasms.







Yep. Journals are awesome. They give you multiples of TEN.

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King`Tarquin
16:27 Nov 25 2010

Couldn't have said it better myself!

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sPerAnZa
16:50 Nov 25 2010

Now that's what you call a dedicated lover! :) No wonder there are so many females are on VR.

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LadyKowe
17:49 Nov 25 2010

You too? LOL. We're total pervs, aren't we?

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sahahria
20:48 Nov 25 2010

PLUS you use ten fingers to access them... or two if you're finger challenged :P

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DrCullen
15:16 Nov 26 2010

I can't help if the wording was supposed to inspire such thoughts... :P

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I found a car today - I'll find out Friday if it is really being bought by someone ... If it is NOT ... I'll have a 2006 Jaguar in good condition for only $11,000.





God. Damn.

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sahahria
20:49 Nov 25 2010

*lust*



you know that means...





ROAD TRIP!!!!!

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I am making a complete jackass of myself on webcam. ♥

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MooniePie
01:38 Nov 25 2010

I so totally adore you, you jackass. :D

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Requiem
01:51 Nov 25 2010

Likewise, mami. =) ♣

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PhoenicianDream
08:53 Nov 25 2010

I missed it! =(

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PhoenicianDream
09:01 Nov 25 2010

I missed it! =(

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TheArtistRose
00:48 Nov 26 2010

I loved the kitty. :o

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Artist: King Missile

Song: Detatchable Penis

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DrCullen
12:42 Nov 24 2010

Now I want one. D:



And, I wonder what he's doing, if it's a pain in the ass. I don't really want to know the answer to that.



... No sir-ee.

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TheArtistRose
12:45 Nov 24 2010

Sodomy?

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I really need a rubber monkey.



Honestly.



Anyone who helps me find a smallish rubber monkey (about 6" - small enough to scuba with) - gets a cookie.





Thank you!





(Do not question the need for a rubber monkey.)

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DrCullen
12:46 Nov 24 2010

I can give you a rubber band to tame the monkey. o_O

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I am trying to decide whether I should feel bad about decimating most of a rotisserie chicken.







I have been STARVING today. My stomach has been growling angrily all damn day long, and I had breakfast!





Goddamn this chicken is good.

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RedQueen
00:07 Nov 24 2010

I love those things- I can be stuffed to the gills, be in the grocery store for some reason, and when I see one I WANT

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chrysanthemia
00:29 Nov 24 2010

Oh man. I have shake'n'bake chicken in the oven, but it's just not the same.



Jealous.

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It is 71*F outside right now.



What. The. Shit.

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LadyDarkRayne
15:05 Nov 22 2010

=P It's about 60 and climbing here as well. you will get no complaint from me though...Well as long as it is not Snow.

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Catharsis
15:29 Nov 22 2010

... We got snow last night.

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I can't post this in our house thread. I feel weird chiming in there, for whatever reason.





I can identify with both ends of the spectrum, self esteem wise. When I was larger, at my 300 pound weight at 5'1 and change ... I had LOADS more self confidence. I *knew* I was a sexy woman, and my walk, my talk, my attitude showed this.



Now ... I am at 172, in a size 12, and I am so much less confident. I am healthier, but my strut has a limp. When I look in the mirror I see the 300 pound woman still, but I no longer see the sexy I once saw.





I have moments when I'll catch a glimpse of me and wonder, "Who is that skinny bint? Jeez." and moments when I catch a glimpse and think, "Wow ..."



My self image has not equalized. There is no way I can take part in the self affirmation of posting pictures, etc., of myself. I have nothing, at present, to affirm.

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LadyChordewa
20:34 Nov 21 2010

Congrats on the weight loss. Just remember, for so many years, you saw yourself and lived with yourself at 300.....it takes time, to like your new self. I think posting before and after will help you.....to reaffirm to yourself, you are beautiful. Like everyone on here knows you are.

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Blackstaff
03:46 Nov 22 2010

Funny but this really makes sense. Funny because I am a guy. I KNOW that women think differently on some aspect of self esteem than men do. I do want to say congrats though on the weight loss.



I read a book fairly recently by Jon Gabriel called "The Gabriel Method". In there he talks about the psychology of weight. He used to be enormous then he changed his mind and how he thought about weight and lost the weight with dietary changes and some exercise. Now he is kind of like Tony Robbins and Richard Simmons rolled up into a Dr. Phil mentality.



Well, in the book he talks about how when we are heavy that we have the mindset that the weight creates space from those problems in our lives, kind of like armour or insulation. We feel safe because it is in our animal nature that big means safe. I am not a psychologist but I think that the confidence you had might have been that feeling safe layer that was lost. Now that you are thin, that safety barrier is gone.



BUT like any new pair of shoes (for the gals anyway) take a bit to stretch out and get comfortable, this new body will too. Before long you will be confident in this new skin, this new look and the new health gained as a result.



I am proud of you and know you can cope with the temporary time period it takes to adjust. Well, that is my .02 ;)

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King`Tarquin
09:39 Nov 22 2010

You've always been a sexy woman - hands down!

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sahahria
15:15 Nov 22 2010

We all face this at some point- which is why I think it's important to be honest about you. Nothing else matters

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I have discovered I do not like the taste of paint, although it does make interesting speckle-freckle patterns on my face.

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TheArtistRose
23:50 Nov 20 2010

O.o Be careful with that paint.

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DrCullen
12:54 Nov 22 2010

Please don't lick my avatar... o_o

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Looked at cars today.



Turns out - my car is totaled. I loved that thing. PAID OFF, 2001 Isuzu trooper. It did what I needed. ANd it was paid off. I hate debt.



In no particular order, I liked the following cars I looked at today: GMC Terrain, Mazda CX7, Nissan Juke, Nissa Versa hatchback, and - surprisingly enough - the KIA Soul (aka Hamster-mobile). I did NOT expect to like the Soul.



I'll decide in a week or so what I am actually getting. I don't want an effin' car payment., *sigh*

WHY do I insist upon making yummies I cannot eat? Earlier in the week ... this weekend? I made cranberry orange bread and banananananana bread.



Tonight ... I made cherry cobbler and blackberry cobbler.



>.o

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Sognare
01:00 Nov 19 2010

Well, think of your food groups:

Fruits are very important, like berries. :)

The pie is made from a crust, which is bread, which is super important according to "them." Annnddd sugar is at the tippy top, which means its the ruler of the food groups.



So take a nibble of a slice..... or two. Its the holidays and Thanksgiving is a holiday about eating. :)

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RedQueen
22:27 Nov 19 2010

So you can have the pleasure of watching everybody gorge on your fabulous food?



Naw, doesn't work for me either...

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Cannot stop thinking about a man 19 years in his grave.



Goddamn I miss him, like an aching hole in my gut filled with ice.



I miss the could-have-beens. I miss the way his eyes crinkled when he laughed. I miss him teasing me about silly things.



I miss the chance to hear the question he said he was going to ask when he got back from England.



I miss the way I actually let him far enough in to miss him this damn badly. No one else has been allowed so far, and I doubt they will be again.



I miss the Moon.

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DrCullen
12:23 Nov 16 2010

This entry made me quite sad.

Requiem, you're beautiful.

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RedQueen
23:07 Nov 16 2010

I understand, honey.

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Where do I want to go in my life? This question, on so many levels, has been circling ad nauseum in my brain pan.



I have a fabulous job, as irritated as I some times get with it, I have a good family support system, brothers and sisters, and the few people I have allowed close enough to become truly friends - I treasure them as much as I am able.



Why, then, am I dissatisfied?



I want ... more something.



No, it does not have to have a dick attached. No, it does not have to have boobs attached. Just thought I'd clear that one up.



There is something missing, and I do not know what that may be. I have been changing the things about myself I do not like: non smoker for about 4 months (lost count), I've lost an ungodly amount of weight (although I have been at a plateau for a while, afraid to shed the last of that "armor"), I have forced myself to face several of my phobias. They are still there, but ... I managed to get out to Arizona and back on a plane without having to take anti-anxiety drugs, I did not gouge out anyone's eyes in public who crowded me (yay me for controlling my violent impulses! It's a far cry from Jason A. having to restrain me from punching some RUDE jackass in the back of the head at the airport the LAST time I went to Arizona), and I WENT out in public surrounded by strangers. Granted there were friends there - one of them, one of my very best friends. They had my back, and I know this. It helped.



(Side note - my phone keeps making weird trilling beeping noises, like it did right now, and I have NO clue what, if anything, they signify. Weird.)



Anyhoo.





Normally, if I cannot have what I want, I am able to change my mind until I am happy with what I have ... But, there is something missing.



I just don't know what it is. I'd like to buy a vowel, please.

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Requiem
19:03 Nov 13 2010

As soon, however, as I do know what I am missing, may all the odd gods of the galaxy help whoever happens to be standing in my way. I am going all steam ahead toward it.

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KattrinaK
19:09 Nov 13 2010

Hmmm....I know how you feel.





Are the batteries low in your phone?

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Requiem
19:21 Nov 13 2010

Nah, is on the charger, and it is not fully charged. That make a different dingle.

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Morrigon
19:48 Nov 13 2010

Hey man, you could not know that you feel as if something is missing and be adrift in a galaxy of your own confusion.



Knowing what you don't know is great.

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JustinV
17:06 Nov 14 2010

I know how irritating that unsettled feeling can be. For what it's worth - rather than 'fight' it, I say relish it. It usually means, for me anyway, that something crazy is right around the corner. May it be something wonderful!

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This comes under the heading of TMI, so, if you read further and are offended - so not my fault. If you're intrigued, so not my business.







...







That being said ... I could really go for some amazingly rough sex - where neither person is sure they're coming out the other side whole - right now. That would just about fit the bill. Being in a horny, angry, violent mood ... Well. Damn. Sucks to be the only one at the table, so to speak.









....







On a different note, I've been thinking a great deal lately. I am not sure where my introspection is taking me. The only thing of which I am sure, is that my thoughts aren't for public consumption, not yet. Maybe soon.

I'd rather be in Cancun. Or fishing.



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Or fishing in Cancun.





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Dammit, one of them had better bring me back a friggin' cabana boy this time!

Juny's various avatars, with the spider in her crotch, just really freak me out.



Had to be said.



*shudder*

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MyArmyLife
22:27 Nov 11 2010

Agreed.

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DrCullen
00:23 Nov 12 2010

They kinda make me want to be sick everywhere.

Just... ewww.

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JustinV
02:38 Nov 12 2010

Haha, glad it's not just me!

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JunyCrist
05:45 Nov 12 2010

Awww... no one likes my spidergina... I guess I'll keep it!!!!

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DrCullen
06:00 Nov 12 2010

That would explain the banning...

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JunyCrist
06:05 Nov 12 2010

Awwwww Cullen misses me. :)

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JunyCrist
06:05 Nov 12 2010

Awwwww Cullen misses me. :)

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TheDarkWolfman
18:23 Nov 12 2010

Juny is awesome like that

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RedQueen
06:41 Nov 13 2010

Damn, I missed it...*shrugs*

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Through The Dark (lyrics)





As I walk away

I look over my shoulder

To see what I'm leaving behind



Pieces of puzzles

And

Wishes on eyelashes fail



Oooooh!

How do I show all the love

Inside my heart



Well this is all new

And I'm feeling my way through the dark



And I used to talk

With honest conviction

Of how I predicted my world

I'm gonna leave it to to star gazers

Tell me what your telescope says



Oh what is in store for me now?

It's coming apart



I know that it's true

'cause I'm feeling my way through the dark



Try to find a light on somewhere

Try to find a light on somewhere

I'm finding I'm falling in love with the dark over here



Oh oh what do I know I don't care

Where I start



For my troubles are few

As I'm feeling my way through the dark

Through the dark

I'm feeling my way through the dark

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DrCullen
10:59 Nov 11 2010

Lovely indeed, Req.

Through The Dark = ♥♥♥

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I feel all introspective and philosophical today, however, my language skills seem to have devolved to about a 3rd grade level.



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Yeah. Not a good mix for self expression. I said, "And stuff," about eight times today. And seriously expected people to know to which specific stuff I referred.



o_0

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Jenova
00:29 Nov 11 2010

There is nothing worse than when your mind betrays you and turns you from an expressive, literate individual to a blithering fool. Ive experienced that and i hate it. To me there is little worse in my corporate environment than being unable to express myself in a way that matches my intelligence level.

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I have fingerprints.



And a cherry lime slushie.



As it is home-made, my fingerprints are cherry-lime stained.

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Bones
02:09 Nov 09 2010

Can I lick them.... Please? ;)

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Requiem
12:35 Nov 09 2010

o.o Yes. Contact! IT COUNTS!

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Molly is home. =) I heard the LOUD meows from the front porch. ♥

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TheArtistRose
20:54 Nov 06 2010

YAY! Glad you found your kitty! I would have been crying if that had happened to one of my own. I respect animals way more than humans.

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RedQueen
21:16 Nov 06 2010

Now maybe you can get some kitty love and stop ogling my bewbies.



Mad woman..lol

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Requiem
22:34 Nov 06 2010

Umm. I'll always ogle your bewbs. Even when you're 90 and they hit yer knees.

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RedQueen
08:46 Nov 09 2010

Shit, you may not have to wait that long, sugar...lol

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One of my cats got out and ran off. =/ Molly, my black and white cow print kitty. We can't find her. There are coyotes here.



=/

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JustinV
18:26 Nov 06 2010

Ugh - you're just getting banged on from all sides, aren't you? Well, here's some + thoughts your way.

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PhoenicianDream
18:50 Nov 06 2010

Aaaaw I'm so sorry! I hope she's ok.

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TheArtistRose
19:44 Nov 06 2010

Awwws how you get to find her soon.

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So, yesterday while attempting to go grocery shopping I threw up. At the grocery store. I made it to a garbage can.



Go. Me.



My brother went back later and got cat food.



I feel like hell. Like seven different kinds of hammered hell. Jamie's outside painting the house because the world swims when I stand up. I feel like a lazy shit-heel.



‎... Kill me. 'kay? thanks. Just ... You know, I don't even care if you drag it out. Just eventually end me. I feel like absolute SHITE. =( Tomorrow I may feel better, but that does NOT mean I want to go through today to get there. Blergh. And stuff.

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Nedra
17:40 Nov 06 2010

Oh you poor thing.



When I was pregnant I once threw up all over the bathroom of a restaurant. I have never gone back there.



Feel better

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I have a sore throat.





... I hope it's just from being dry with brand new heater action going down.

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BubbleGumClaudia
13:41 Nov 04 2010

Sore Throats=Suckage!

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RedQueen
21:20 Nov 04 2010

Scott's had a cold for over a week now- and I have been waiting on him hand and foot. I just hope I don't get it in time to go to work Saturday night...



Bartender's remedy is Jack, honey and lemon juice, wamred in the microwave or with hot water. But since you can't drink anymore, I would say Lemon Zinger with lemon and honey.

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Hopped on the scale .. 12 pounds up from yesterday.



TWELVE. POUNDS.



I am retaining enough water to fill a ... well, probably a big container. I have no idea how much water weighs.





I HATE YOU HORMONE FLUCTUATIONS!



I. Fucking. HATES. You.



So there.

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Joli
06:00 Nov 03 2010

1 gallon=8.35 lbs



Water is relatively heavy.

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Requiem
10:56 Nov 03 2010

So if I pee a gallon and a half I should be good. >.o Yargh!

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My hands aren't working right today.



On a up note, the shutters and outbuildings look fucking amazing.



This coming weekends, I'll get the decks and railings done and the house will be complete.

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RedQueen
03:19 Nov 02 2010

Will you PLEASE come up here and do something aobut the jungle that is my front and back yard???



Better yet, MARRY ME...lol

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Requiem
11:08 Nov 02 2010

... Only if you do windows and the potty scrubbing. If you do - we're golden and your husband has another competitor. :P



Let him know, the home repair war is on - and everyone wins. Hehe.





I'll be replacing all the flooring in my house over the next year, too, with hardwood flooring.

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RedQueen
20:53 Nov 02 2010

I'm good with the floors.



But I need the bathroom re tiled- you in?

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Requiem
23:12 Nov 02 2010

Yep. You want a decorative pattern carried over to the tub walls and the back-splash behind the sink?

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RedQueen
03:11 Nov 03 2010

*falls in love*



My house is going to be in black and bone. The bathroom has a bisque paint on the walls temporarily to cover up the turkey turd tan/baby shit yellow/georgia mud rust colors that were on the walls.



I want a certain amount of charcoal tile in the bathroom...



Marry me.

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