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This I wrote when i was in a deep depression.

09/05/2003

"Suicide"

I am so lonely, alone, no one is here with me,

it hurts very bad, it hurts all the time

and the pain has been with me for a while.

I think I’m dying inside;

I'm so alone, I wish I could be happy.

I have always been my own best friend;

no one likes the way I am among my kind

and the rest of the world.

I dwell upon my shattered dreams

I cry for that which can never be,

I lay here alone, so alone that tears are welcomed

by my eyes.

I know I am crazy; I have driven myself through

this alley of frozen guilt to these plains of sweet madness

what started out as a thought

has become an obsession with death and pain.

I'm so cold; I can't feel anything but pain,

my loneliness so dark is a rainbow in the night sky.

The stars smile at me behind the blank color

of my bloodshot eyes.. No more tears left.

Blood dripping to the carpet, death lurking inside me

a soft gasp, a moan of pain, the scarlet essence

of my life drifting off into space, eyes glazed,

My heart beats fade, as I sin to my death.

"Can you feel me"



I whisper in the night

"I love you.."

hoping you can hear me, I think of you

hoping you are thinking of me too,

I want you, I need you,

keep my secret :

I'll always need you, I love you,

for ever and always,

I love you. Can you feel me?

Can you hear me? I'm always there,

where ever you are,

I can feel you and

sometimes I can almost see you,

I keep inside all that can't be said,

oh, you are so amazing, sweet surrender, my love,

my friend, I love you!

you are everything I need.

I wish I could kiss you

but I’m not there,

it hurts, I wish. I wish I could have

just one, one more minute,

one more kiss,

one more look into your eyes,

you ask me if I love you??!! I adore you,

you are my life,

my madness, my world,

you own my heart.

Close your eyes my love

and just feel me caressing your soul,

feel me, feel my heart,

can't you feel me wanting you so bad?

I love you! so much

I would die for just one more night.

I love you, I want you, my lover, my friend,

my happiness, hear me cry for you

when the nights are cold

and i need your love, close your eyes

smile, be happy, kiss me,

I love you with all my heart,

need me feel me,

I’ll always stay by your side,

let me love you,

let me be all that you need,

let me drawn inside you eyes,

let me melt within your heart,

don’t ever forget that I'll always

love you, with all my heart.

Leticia Gallardo

Copyright ©2003 Leticia Gallardo

"Prayer"

I am lost,

Lost without You and your

Invisible smile.

I am enchanted,

Enchanted by your words alive in my memory.

I am all alone, and I miss You.

Because You are gone

I am forgetting Us.

Inside this house

That keeps me away

From the world.

I have no more tears left,

I feel naked, stripped of all innocence,

unkind and bitter.

Because you are gone,

My mind has become pure chaos,

Suicide my ultimate cry for help.

I wake up;

I breathe in life, and

my mind prays to You for mercy,

Don't leave me Here!

Drowning in doubt and misery

avoiding the treacherous road to Heaven and

The manipulative ways of the World!

Kiss me, with those sinful lips, so bittersweet!

See me, with the eyes of a Saint and

Resurrect my soul, guide me back to You

Through this cuts on my skin,

Through the blood, that drips and condemns me,

Through our slowing heartbeats, The Ghost of our Love

Feeding upon my warm, drink my deadly offering,

My ultimate sweet remedy.

“Echoes”



Stare into these mirrors of shadows

Lust dancing across my f ace

Love forgotten on our messy bed

Barely breathing, or feeling a thing.



Echoes trembling over my skin

Clothes left dirty on the floor

Kisses branded on my lips

And our blood dreams dying on the floor.



The sunset sets our sky on fire

Your words ripping me apart

Tears staining shattered glass

Your eyes look cold, without love or warmth.



Desolation, desperation, anger and love

Passion raging like a storm

Left behind this wall of memories

Charmed and trapped in a cage made of gold.



Here I sit and now you are gone

Left my life without a word

Took with you my innocence

And my last hope for true love.

"Blasphemous Love"

Tormented by your lips,

Desire burning my skin,

Kisses tattooed in the wind

Eyes tearing into me



Give me your sickness for me to drink,

Leave me your hands to shake me awake

Our hearts spilling on this cold marble floor

A crucifix bathed in our blood hanging on this dream walls



Blade against veins

Fist against face

Ropes against neck

Bullet against flesh



Weighed and judge by a hand of iron

For sins committed by our hearts,

Guilty of society’s top crimes

Delivered naked to the darkness beyond life.



Love has whipped raw

Salted my bleeding cuts

Ghosts biting leaving no marks

Bound to you by need and lust.



Existing only for my pain

Licking old wounds open

Thorns digging into my arms

Fire raindrops raining from the sky.



Desire, hunger for pain

Feeling my ultimate pleasure from your moans in the dark

Shaming our God by worshiping this pain,

Screaming naked on the church's white floor, drinking each other's blood.



Buried alive in a coffin of lies

Hiding in the darkest corner of our mind

Embracing the chance of eternal life

Weeping while more blood spills in the tub.



Tied down to your bedpost

Ripped clothes on the floor

Chanting your name like a spell

Bruised legs wrapped around your waist



Slap me , pin me down

Growl against my skin

Bite, tear, rape me until I bleed

Love me, allow me to relive my sins



My heart vibrates with pain

Sore lips whisper of faith

Skin burning with desire

Bruised flesh burning in Hell's fire



Oaths of love

Lustful thoughts

Mind numb with an ache for more

Scream now, scream of love,

I'm yours forever my one true love.