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00:18 Jan 25 2011
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Things aren't feeling right. Maybe I am just feeling insecure right now. At any rate I just feel sad when I should be happy.

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02:20 Jan 18 2011
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He is on a roll I tell ya or maybe it's just because he is such a smart ass, either way it went something like this:

While discussing how he will have to watch the movies I abhor that he currently owns in the "Man Cave" when he moves in..

Pan: Gee I wish I had a man cave, I think women should have one too..

Pin: You do.....it's called the bathroom.

*sighs*

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ThePinja
06:22 Jan 18 2011

You love meh.

Fale
10:05 Jan 18 2011

Bathroom?

Strong misconception

Its in teh fucking kitchen, if you're not there, GTFIT

PandorasBx
19:15 Jan 18 2011

Nope, that IS Pinjas Man Cave, he just doesn't know it yet lol

I don't cook :P

Poopie Pinja
19:05 Jan 16 2011
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This is the message I woke up this morning to on my Messenger, this is what I have to deal with folks *shakes head and mutters*, and he's all mine lol:

Xxxx Xxxxxx (1/16/2011 9:36:11 AM): So I want to take our relationship to the next level. Admit you poop!!!!!

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Nightgame
19:49 Jan 16 2011

There's absolutely nothing that springs to mind that isn't dirty here! :)

Isis101
22:11 Jan 16 2011

Why admit that you poop so he won't have anything to fantasize about...the poop perv!

ladySnowStrixx
01:03 Jan 17 2011

ok this could only lead to worst things to come .he is a sick sick man, guess you better but him out of his misery

PandorasBx
02:41 Jan 17 2011

Ahhhhh, do not be fooled my friends. It is just a clever ploy so that he can do gross things like stink up my house without feeling bad about it lolol!

ThePinja
04:06 Jan 17 2011

Oh I'm sticking up the place regardless. And if you're not comfortable enough to tell me I'll just talk to you at the door while you go :D

xxKontradictionxx
02:38 Jan 18 2011

ugh, my man tries to talk to ME over shitting too.

klassless.

: /

Just a joke......or is it?
22:41 Jan 13 2011
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Oh and the next time you pair me up with guys, please chose some that aren't married or taken, unlike you I have clear boundaries and respect for those in a relationship.

Oh and maybe they will have a cute sister for ya ;)

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08:17 Jan 13 2011
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There is no one that I can...
07:58 Jan 13 2011
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Trust.

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Ezio
08:02 Jan 13 2011

There is only one person you can trust.

Yourself

PandorasBx
08:03 Jan 13 2011

You'd think I would of learned that by now.

HerBadKitty
08:07 Jan 13 2011

Trust is a hard thing to come by these days. At the end of the day we only have one person to answer for and that is ourselves, and if we can not trust ourselves who are we to really trust then ?

18:50 Jan 09 2011
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"Life is brutal that way..........the loss of irrevocable moments amid trivia and distraction." Those words hit me pretty hard as I read them, I started to cry and really haven't stopped since. That last chapter kind of tore me up inside because in some ways it seemed so parallel to my life right now, our life. I dread tomorrow morning and yet wish for it to be over with. The axe that hangs over my head, over our life and future together. I've even found myself praying and begging to a God that I struggle daily to believe in.

I'm so scared and I feel raw with emotions. I know you are too. Please let her be merciful ...

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xxEmaeraldxx
19:31 Jan 09 2011

I'm routing for you honey.. take care *hugs*

23:46 Jan 08 2011
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I seriously feel sick to my stomach right now. I don't understand how even after a year and a half that man can get to me.

I was in my Covens Graveyard Forum looking through/deleting some old threads and came across one called Online Relationships. In it were comments by myself of course and then some from ...UrielArnauld. Dylan. WOW, just WOW...Of course he was going on in the positive, about me and his love for me etc...Funny thing was in my comments I mentioned "how can you know they are who they say they are?". FUCK.

Then I came across his welcoming thread. It still had the power to hurt me. He was good. Really good. Looking back there were really no outward signs. He sounded and behaved like a man truly in love.

How I hate him. Still. Really, really HATE him.

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MooniePie
00:18 Jan 09 2011

I am sure it's hard. It's hard for me to see the pain you have to go through even as you write this. I send you strength and love, darling. ♥

PandorasBx
00:25 Jan 09 2011

Thanks Lainey :)

LadyKrystalynDarkstar
18:53 Jan 09 2011

It's weird that you write about this because I was just remembering the money that was sent to "him" by a few people - myself included - that was "repaid immediately and in the mail". The drama I've been through on this site doesn't hold a candle to the drama and hurt and pain this person caused so many people here. *hugs*

PandorasBx
18:57 Jan 09 2011

You know I remember that. Several people had sent him money and one person consistently. Strangely enough he never once asked me for a dime during the 6 or so months we were "together". Money would of been better than my heart. Heh.

HerBadKitty
08:12 Jan 13 2011

It's taking that blind leap, and Praying to the Gods that when you land all is as it was said it would be. We are blinded by the signs, because not for a second do we want to believe that this person that we love, could be anything but what they have told us. - And when we realize they are not it is too late and the damage is already done, we tell ourselves never again.

Oceanne
23:42 Jan 13 2011

:( wow.I didnt know any of this.sure hope you feel better about things someday.

QueenxMorbid
19:44 Jan 16 2011

We got through this, Jadee! We were better than that jackass and he didn't beat us!

I am the one she mentioned that consistently sent him money, stupid of me yes, cause I was so "in love" with someone I thought was really in love with me. Instead he ended up playing me and Jadee against each other, trying to cause us to no longer be friends, but until me and Jadee both got smart and talked about what was really going on, we believed him. He nearly damaged a friendship, but what he failed to realize was it made it stronger.

Now, I look back when he was a part of my life, I am glad it is over with and he is gone from VR, gone from my heart. I can't believe we ever wasted our time on him, especially since we already knew all the rumors surrounding him - and knowing all he spouted were lies.

Isis101
22:19 Jan 16 2011

Hate will help in a way...and who in the hell was this guy? Damn! He deserves to have a hot poker shoved up his ass.

PandorasBx
02:39 Jan 17 2011

Yes, yes he does ;)

22:20 Jan 08 2011
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Pinja and I are both moody, stubborn and possess a volatile nature. Much to our own detriment. And I'll just add here that strangely enough in my twisted mind those are the same qualities that attract me to him. We both tend to spew before we think whether he wants to cop to that or not hehe and it usually ends up in our Journals.

We have been disrespectful to one another in this sense, often saying cruel, unfair and/or hurtful things. Saying too much. Saying it with so much anger. It's not the right way that two people that love one another as much as we do should speak about or to the other. It's wrong and it's damaging to the relationship. I feel ashamed.

We have talked about this. I for one am going to try never to do this again. I'm not saying I won't discuss things here or our relationship but I am going to make a sincere effort to handle it better and my temper.

Being an adult really sucks sometimes lol

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MooniePie
22:22 Jan 08 2011

It's really hard sometimes. But I do know that you two will take off your anger panties and talk it out every time. ;) ♥

PandorasBx
22:31 Jan 08 2011

Panties? What are those? ;)

16:50 Jan 07 2011
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And that's how you talk about someone you supposedly love? I've been a fool. I should of known of how little importance I was to you when on my last day that I visited you you consciously chose to play a video game online with friends for 4 1/2 hours instead of spending it with me. I spent it crying quietly in your bed alone.

I'm really just kind of speechless right now.

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MyArmyLife
18:03 Jan 07 2011

O_O

01:46 Jan 06 2011
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I have never dated anyone with children before until Pinja. How I got this far not doing so is beyond me, I have always been the one with the munchkins. It's proving to be more than I bargained for. His son is not the problem, I can handle that and in fact look forward to being his step-mom someday but it's the mother that is giving me hell. She is a controlling cunt. Yes, I said the C word. I don't want to make things difficult for Pinja but there is no way in hell I am going to play by her rules if I don't think they are reasonable and so far they are not. I by no means am trying to replace her as his mother, he already has one but she needs to just accept that I am here to stay. I think I am a pretty good mother, he could do a lot worse...So yeah, this is going to be a challenge *takes a deep breath*.

And for the record, Pinja is a wonderful father, I have so much respect for him as a parent.

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Isis101
02:49 Jan 06 2011

Whew...for a moment, I thought that you were speaking of Pinja's mother...!

Anyway, I hope everything works out and goes well for you!

PandorasBx
02:51 Jan 06 2011

She might as well be lol

PAGAN
08:12 Jan 06 2011

ach some women are just bitches. I hope that it all works for you :)

Grow Some Fucking Balls
05:04 Jan 05 2011
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Your ex has a problem with my age? Seriously? Why would an ex even have a say in who you date let alone one that is older than the both of you!?! Fuck it. I'm not playing the games you two play with each other. She want's to have a talk with me LOL. Because of my age, I just don't get it and what's worse you don't understand why it pisses me off. And because it does you say that it's "all about me", my attitude.

The truth is that I won't put up with the BS. And you really hurt me this time. If that's what you think of me then fuck it...I can't deal with this shit right now and I refuse to play her childish controlling games.

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CosmicSerpentGuru
05:22 Jan 05 2011

she sounds more like his mommy than a ex lol

i think age is nothing after all these days everyone wants a cougar :P

PandorasBx
05:32 Jan 05 2011

Haha, yep she sure does. And thanks, I think she is just jealous and is trying to find something against me. Stupid little girl that she is...

xxKontradictionxx
05:48 Jan 05 2011

That's when you School her ass O-G Style.

It's *children* like that that give our Sex a bad Name.

Mystic
10:34 Jan 05 2011

haha and just for some laughs - my ex's new gf looks so much like his mother that his brother had to ask if she was related lol --- that is all.

ThePinja
06:19 Jan 07 2011

You didn't actually listen to what I had said in this situation, only heard what you wanted to hear. Its amazing how much you do that, yet i can't do it myself. I she mentioned it, I told her its her problem, not mine. You blew up without actually hearing the part where I told her to get over it.

20:18 Jan 02 2011
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Whoever said you lose your sex drive as you get older clearly did not do their homework. It's a damned good thing Pinja is 20 or so years younger than me, as it is I wear the poor boy out. Hmmmmm...I wonder if he can be cloned?

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