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i used to love you

oh so silent a shadow

a vision in blackness

you stole my everything

and now you are nothing

you used to love me

my confused angel

they say you wanted tyranny

they say you were only lonely

but i knew you planned to betray me

i ruined you and now you are nothing

no one holds the shadow of this pain

except me,

no one knows what its like to wake up

and to see lies believed

and angels falling

to see secrets told unwillingly

to bleed against my wall

i know you were lieing

but now you are nothing at all

and what now

left here bleeding and open

left here quiet and sick

left here with nothing

in the dark room of my heart

where everthing is a shadow

and what have you done to me?

Nothing

what have i done...

i have killed you

because now you are nothing...



©Rane 2005

As I lay in the dark

and drift to sleep

Thoughts of you

Flow through my troubled mind.



I'm in white

It's all I see

What has become of me?

Ame I dead?

Or alive?

where am i, or should i be?



Wha'ts become of the world i knew?

Full of

Hatred,

Pain,

Sadness,

Dispare



In this land

The pain's abundent

My scars swell...as if to explode



The first crimson tear

Peers through the swollen flesh

What am I to do?

My blood is flowing through.



I rip my clothes

To form bandages..no use

Crimson rivers flow...

From head to toe...



I scream for help...

but no replies



Am I to die here...

Alone?

In a world unknown?



I collapse to the ground

Feeling weaker

Seeing fainter

It's dark and cold

I lay here dying

feeling alone...

worthless...



What's my purpose in life?

To die of wounds so long healed?

What caused my scars,

to swell and cry?



One thing comes to mind...

YOU!

You tortured my soul,

caused the scars

I HATE YOU!



I put a smile on my face,

and take in my final breath.

I close my eyes

and exhale



I'm dead,

No longer in pain

I feel not one thing,

but hear the cries of many



My sould has left my body

Floating away

Over the crowd



There you are

Weeping with the others

Holding a single black rose

Over my dried,

Lifeless corpse

Whispering...

"I love you...

I'm sorry for ruining your life.



I drifted to your side

and kissed your tear soaked cheek

"I love you too" I murmered



You look around,

As if this were a joke,

Waiting for me to arise and say

"Got you"

but then it hits you...

The love of your life is...

Gone.....



©Rane 2005

Out in the dark...a perfect night...

I awaken to the beautiful stars above,

As well as the heavenly crickets and bats.

Gazing towards the heavens...I sense something nearing...

A star...shooting towards me... landing ever so close...

Though its not a star...Its a Dark Angel...

Who hasth heard thy call....and read thy thoughts...

His beauty...unbearable...anyone who would see him would be in love...

That astounding gaze...so pulchritudinous...

Having raven hair which blends with the night...

Seeing him...made me smile for the first time...in what seems ages...

My day had been hard...my skin had been swollen and crying...

My Angel...healed the wounds and held me close...

The voice possessing so much beauty...calmed me and made the tears stop...

Nobody has ever done so...the tears have never been stopped before...

My Dark Angel blending with the night...I felt liberated...no pain...

No emotions...they were gone...so glad

He said he found interest in me and my life...

Been waching me for some time...knew the time to come was now...

Cleared my mind...I didn't think of death any longer...

Time went on, we grew closer...I began to love him.

His feelings were the same..I didn't deserve him...

Such beauty deserves to be with beauty.

Though I can't cry any longer...there are days I feel I should.

My Angel...Dark and Handsome rescuse me.

Sweeps me off my feet...warms my sould

Makes me happy once again.

I wish we could be together...Me and My Dark Beautiful Angel...

Though we cant, he can just comfort me...show affection...

I could be the happiest person in the world if we could be together...

But I know we can't...I feel like a zombie.

Dead and confused...there are times I think I have actually died.

My Angel said thats because I have him...

The Dark Angel...hasth saved me from ending myself...

The hope we can be together keeps me going...

I love this life...then things drasticaly change

I awake from this beautiful dream...There was no Angel

No perfect life...only the imagination of a lonely girl...

I wander the world...along...

Then see him

The Angel in my dreams...soon to find...thy werne't really dreams.

but memories he put there, so when I found him once again

I would know...

It was my love...

My Dark Angel...

The Savior of my World...and Dreams.



© Rane 2005