There was a thread in the sandbox a couple days ago that was asking for the names of free music downloading sites. I read it and thought about it being an illegal activity in every country I am aware of and then went and had another look at the TOS. It seemed to me that it was plainly not something that belonged so I RIA'd it on the basis it was an illegal activity and violated the TOS.
Now I notice there is a poll up asking for peoples feelings on illegal downloading. lol
I'll be interested to see how this goes but so far most either have no opinion or no answer.
But all in all it was a very polite way of taking out their disapointment in the thread being closed.
I have to say that as I've been doing this job, I have tried to do so in an unemotional and very polite manner and so far I have had mostly positive results even among those who disagreed with my stance. Seems the rule I always used with the drunks and other out of wack folks as a dispatcher still works. Treat them as politely as possible but do your job. :)
I warn you all now this is very very long entry. But for those of you who have heard me say I survived a man armed with an ax who tired to kill me, this is the rest of the story.
My niece asked me today who would win if Freddie Kruger fought Michael Myers; I just looked at her and said “get out of here.” She stared at me a moment not sure what set me off and then her Mom started laughing and said haven’t you ever noticed that your aunt never watches horror movies? The rest of the family loves them but I won’t even look at them. I used to love them too but as my sister told my niece that I quit watching them because of a guy trying to kill me with a double bladed ax and a very large machete. Mandy (my niece) turned big eyes to me and not really believing this wild tale asked me if that was true.
I said yes and then looked at my sis, “has she never heard this before?” My sister shrugged and said “she was probably too little to pay attention when we’ve told it in the past.” So she started asking all these questions and I ended up telling her my personal Halloween story.
In October of 89, I was working the overnight shift at the state police post where I’d been for 10 years, most of that spent on the midnight shift. On this particular night I was truly exhausted before I even got to work since I’d traded days off with my relief on the night shift so that I could go to the state capital and take a special test at 9am Wednesday, it lasted until 2pm and then I grabbed a burger and drove the 250 miles home. By the time I went on duty at 11pm I was tired and sleepy since this was the one night a week my body was used to sleeping at night. So I started my shift relieving one dispatcher at 11 and then at midnight the other second shift man left and I was alone for the night. It was a rural area but we covered 7 counties in southeaster KY having just shy of 200,000 people and just over 3200 square miles covered by my post, one of 16 that were spread across the state. On this particular night by 12:30 am I had only 2 troopers left on duty in counties adjacent to where I was working but both 20+minutes away from the post even at high speed. There was no actual state trooper on duty in the Post County where I was located but that wasn’t unusual since only a dispatcher was required to answer all calls and then contact a designated “on-call” officer if it was necessary.
It so happened that the 8 dispatchers that worked at the post had gone together and bought a 13inch television that we had sitting beside the very large radio console system so that we could catch the news or weather or more importantly the Wildcat basketball games. On this night I had it on for noise mostly since radio couldn’t be picked up inside the room with all the radio equipment we had there. But I flipped through the channels trying to find some music when I came upon a free week of a new television channel being offered in our area for the first time. It was a pay channel called Showtime and it was showing the movie Terminator, which I let run in the background while I worked filling out logs and reports from the previous day’s shifts. For some reason I was pushing myself to get all my paperwork finished very early since I usually spaced it out through the night so I’d have something to keep me busy. Rural area’s such as mine were mostly quiet during the late night well unless they were not and then it was usually a wild night.
I was inputting the day’s time sheets into a computer to send to HQ when Terminator went off and the next show they aired was The Shining. Having seen this movie many times I just wasn’t interested in listening to the screams and yelling. Heck that was too much like work! So I flipped the TV to a news station and went on doing my work. A couple hours and I was down to my last job of the night, filing away the hard paper copy of the timesheets I’d filled out. It was 2:40 in the morning when I saw headlights flashing in the front window of the post where I worked. As I watched the lights bounced around next to the building wildly and I realized the pickup had run up on the big sidewalk and guessed I needed to contact the local city police since the post was in the city limits. A new direct line had recently been installed to them in preparation for an enhanced 911 system that was being installed. I picked it up and their dispatcher picked up and I asked him to send one of his units to the post as it appeared I had another DUI on the parking lot. For some reason they were drawn to the post and I’d get on average of 1 a month that pulled right in like a drive in. Made it easy to ship them right on down to the county jail. But in this case I was quite wrong.
While I was still on the phone with the city police dispatcher I watched a very large man get out of the driver’s side of the truck and then lean back in and pick up something very long and start running toward the door.
One of my biggest complaints about working alone was that I wasn’t allowed to lock the door, it was required then that as a public building we were open 24hours 7 days a week. I cannot tell you how many times I’d slip into the bathroom only to walk out a minute later to find a strange person standing 5 feet away from me. Real reassuring for your personal safety I can tell you. But those were the rules, so I stood watching at the guy ran into the building which had concrete block walls up about 2 feet then the rest was plate glass between me and the guy. He could only see my head since I was seated behind the large radio console. He hefted the stick over his head and for an instance I was so relieved it wasn’t a shotgun or rifle that it took a second for me to register it was a double bladed ax, he was holding so threateningly. He screamed out “I’ll kill you, fat Jew boy!” and I screamed then and dropped the phone. I watched as he started running down the hallway to my office door and I pulled the plug on the headset I was wired into the radio with and heard him yell as he entered the outer office, “I’ll kill you, fat Jew bitch!” Before you ask, I wasn’t allowed to have a gun. If I had, I would have killed him. Instead I had to run.
I didn’t bother trying to explain I was not even close to being a member of the Jewish faith; I just turned and ran for the back door of my office as he came after me. Down the back hallway I ran with him closing behind me and I could hear him still screaming and yelling, though I have no ideal what he was saying I was concentrating only on putting one foot in front of the other as fast as possible. I made it to the back door that lead to a short covered walkway then the open parking lot. It was pitch black as the light was constantly burnt out and only replaced when an inspection was coming. It was a good thing since it prevented my assailant from seeing which direction I ran into the parking lot. I had only a few seconds head start while he found his own way out of the walkway to the parking lot but I made the most of them.
I ran hard across the parking lot sliding down fast to the blacktop parking lot and crawling behind a Jeep Cherokee, there I crouched watching as he came out screaming for me to come out where he could see me and then he started searching around the lot for me. I was moving around the jeep using the tired to keep my feet hidden when he would crouch down to look at the ground. Eventually I had to move to the rear end of jeep to stay out of his sight which made me loose sight of him too.
I remember standing behind that jeep, praying that when I peeked out the other side I’d see him off from me. I know the smart thing would have been to look behind me but it was physically impossible to look behind me for that would have meant he had me and I was dead. So I peeked out like every stupid victim in every horror movie ever made. Luckily for me he’d decided I had somehow gotten back into the post and so he went to his truck and removed a very large machete and then headed right back in the front door.
I watched from the shadows, the glass giving me perfect sight into the building as he screamed a bit in the post apparently at me though I couldn’t hear him, luckily. Then he began swinging his ax at everything he could find. I watched as he took out a special trophy our post had won for recovering stolen vehicles, and every desk phone in the office. He then went to my desk and like a pro baseball batter swing his ax at the television and the glass and sparks flew wildly. Then he lay into the radio which was made of steel sheet and lots of colored plastic buttons since it was a microwave radio system with 7 towers so there were a total of 20 rows of 9 buttons and he was determined to lay waste to every singe one of those little evil things.
He destroyed the single large IBM computer that we had on a turntable so both dispatchers could use it. Then he moved to the second dispatch console and played woodcutter with it too. I slowly realized when he finished he’d might come back out and hunt me again plus I wanted this SOB caught, so I began running up a large hill behind the post to an old office building that I knew had a security guard on duty.
Okay ya’ll know that I was in no physically fit shape for running much less doing it straight up a large hill at a steep pitch. Halfway up that hill I finally heard sirens coming and remembered calling the city police for my “DUI”. Oh shit was my thought for I knew their habit was to just walk right into my building figuring I had the drunk either sitting talking or resting by then. I knew they’d walk right into this armed nut so I turned and began running back down the hill.
The first city police cruiser swung into the parking lot and the officer got out and I stood frozen across the street too out of breath to run any farther or to yell much so all I could come out with was “HELP”. He stopped and looked around to see me waving my arms like crazy right across the road and paused long enough for me to scream he’s armed. I watched as the city officer hit the radio mike on his shoulder to call for backup and unsnap his firearm. Then we both looked up as the nut case started back out the front door toward the officer. He wasn’t screaming now nor running just seemed in his own little world finally. But as he approached the city officer he was ordered to put down the weapons he still carried and he paid no attention and the officer finally fired a warning shot.
I don’t know if you’ve ever heard a gunshot from 20feet away at 3AM in a small town but let me tell you its crazy loud! But my nutcase paid no attention, even as another police car came screaming up behind the first with that officer getting out and demanding he put down the weapons, instead he turned toward this officer and took another step then they both fired another warning shot. I jumped 2 feet in the air but nutcase just ignored them and turned toward his open truck door. Another police car came tearing in from the other side of the building, it was a sheriff’s deputy that had heard the call for backup and rolled out since he was close by. The nutcase ignored him too and reached his open door, laying his weapons down on the seat. At this point the officers all jumped him and pulled him to the ground where a full scale free for all was fought by the 4 of them.
All I could think was my post was abandoned and I still had 2 troopers out in other counties so I ran past the wrestling match and into the post. I actually entered my office and tried to plug my headset back into the radio console when I froze. There was not a radio left there and then I smelled it. The damn thing was burning even.
I went to the back of the room where on a high shelf nearly hidden sat a small radio that appeared as nothing more than a CB radio. It was actually our emergency radio and only worked when the microwave system was shut down. I turned it on and dragged down it’s hand held microphone.
Still gasping for air, I radioed for 660 and 448, the two troopers I had out, asking them if they were okay.
448 radioed back everything was fine but 660, an older trooper that had been there when I began working at the post right out of high school, just said, “What’s wrong London?” Dispatchers didn’t use their name or numbers on the radio we just answered to the post name. All I could think to say was a guy just attacked the post and the place was wrecked. Both troopers started demanding to know if I was okay then and I told them yes I’d run. 448 had a call to clear before he could respond but 660 said he’d be there ASAP.
By now the city officer and deputy had managed to cuff the nutcase and had drug him inside the building and he was sitting in the outer office from me. I had to go to the back end of the building to find a phone he hadn’t destroyed. I called our Headquarters radio room and the old jokester that answered said what’s up?
I told him a nut had come in armed with an ax and machete and chased me from the building before returning and destroying the radio, telephones and computer. He said “nice try now pull the other one!”
I said “No Murph, I swear my radio is burning up right now and tore to pieces. I’ve got emergency radio only.” He cursed real good then asked me what I needed: I told him I needed him to put my computer on monitor so that HQ could intercept any messages or wanted/stolen hits that might come in and need immediate responses. Also I’d need the emergency telephone lines transferred to the two closest posts to me since my radio room was wrecked.”
He took care of that and lucky for me he got to call the Major, the Colonel and the Commissioner who then got to call the Governor’s office. See I could have had it worse!
I’d just got this done when my Captain, the post commander came walking in and I stared since I knew I hadn’t called him yet! But turns out when I screamed and dropped the phone the city police dispatcher was still on the line and heard it. He tried calling me back but got no answer and when that happened twice he called the captain who also lived in the city. The captain tried calling the post and when I didn’t answer he called a couple of the detectives who lived nearby and started them rolling in. He also called the second shift dispatcher who was the asst supervisor, and the guy who’d left me there at midnight. He lives less than a mile away and he was told to wait 5 minutes then report to the post too.
So by 30 minutes after it all began with the lights flashing in my eyes, I was sitting in the Lieutenant’s office writing the report on it all. The Captain was on the phone with the Major and lots of other brass while the other dispatcher was dealing with calling ever radio tech the state police had in Eastern KY to respond with every spare part they had. Seems I was right he had completely destroyed both of our radio consoles to the tune of 1 million dollars worth of radio gone.
I didn’t get off duty at 7am instead I was still writing reports and giving statements at 10am even though I was feeling half dead. I did get to slip out and call home at 8 so my family wouldn’t hear it on the news and freak out. All they said was come home soon.
By 9am the press was everywhere with satellite trucks from Lexington, Louisville and Knoxville, TN parked all around the post. I refused all interviews with the press; I didn’t want my 15 seconds of fame. Though they still managed to catch me on camera with those long distance lenses and powerful mikes while I was talking to my Dispatch Supervisor who came in as soon as they reached him on his day off.
The nutcase turns out was a Vietnam vet with mental problems and an addiction to marijuana and other drugs. He was being treated by the VA and hadn’t bothered to follow their instructions not to mix their meds with illegal drugs. He’d sat in his home, watching Showtime don’t you know (it was still on when the officers got there to execute a search warrant) and worked up a crazy mad about a gun that had been taken from him 20 years earlier and not returned on order of the Judge. He decided he’d kill whoever was at the post and take it back himself. I’d never seen or talked to the man in my life.
In the job there was always people that would get mad at me for things not going the way they wanted them to or mad because their son or friend had been put in jail, for no good reason according to them and it was always my fault. We all knew of the possibility of angry people showing up mad or catching us out in public and starting trouble. It was just another part of the job and we went on about our business. But I had always figured anyone that might try and kill me would at least be mad at me for something I’d done or said. But it’s just now how it worked out.
He was charged with all kinds of crimes including attempted murder since they found a perfect imprint of where his ax got caught on the doorframe of the office beside mine where he was chasing me and swung. They had me stand beside it and it was just perfect for my neck so he was trying for my head. Oh well, I really liked that doorframe after that, even though it would be 5+years before it’d be repaired and painted.
The guy pled guilty of lesser charges after several months of mental evaluation that determined him sane even though when the reporters interviewed him after the attack he claimed to be Jesus Christ and doing God’s work. He spent a couple of months in the local jail then before being probated and released.
For him it was over, for me it was months of nightmares, a fear of the dark that had always been my favorite time before and some really wacky gray hair that suddenly showed up. I finally got to go home that morning walking in around 10:30 to find dozens of my family there waiting for me. Brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts and uncles and friends too. Seems the news was running the story like crazy and CNN had picked it up and was showing it nationwide. I ended up with my 15 seconds of fame anyway but I would have traded it in a moment to have avoided the fears that ate at me. I was allowed one night off work to eliminate the overtime then reported right back to the midnight shift. Though it would be a very long time before I could sit outside and just enjoy the night sky as I had always enjoyed doing before he made me look for monsters around every corner.
14 years later he died alone at home, still crazy and pretty much friendless of a heart attack. Many people called me to make sure I knew about it but I had moved on long ago. I made friends with my fears and embraced my love of the night again.
The following is the headline from the Lexington Herald Leader Newspaper, page 1 news don’t you know!
Lexington Herald-Leader (KY) - October 6, 1989
MAN STORMS POLICE POST WITH AX, RUINS GEAR LONDON -- A man claiming to be Jesus Christ stormed into the Kentucky State Police post in London yesterday morning, smashing thousands of dollars in equipment with a double-bladed ax and a machete. Police arrested Kenneth Ray Smith, 43, of Bill George Road in Laurel County, and charged him with criminal attempt to commit murder, first-degree criminal mischief and resisting arrest. He was held in the Laurel County Jail in lieu of a $50,000 bond. In an interview at the jail...
So now you understand why I don't watch horror movies anymore. They just can't compare to the real thing.
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*faints*
Holy god... I'm glad you're okay.
*WOW* thats incredible, you even went back to work, damn girl .....
Your very own horror movie *hugs*.
HOLY SHIT WOMAN!
I'm glad you made it through that... there are a lot of people who would be permanently traumatized by something like that.
That is sis- she is never going to let him have control of her or her life.
You know how I feel about this so..
*hugs*
I honestly have to question the sanity of an advertising person to come up with this for an ad and even more the drug company that bought into it but the ad for Cialis where a man and woman are sitting side by side at the beach sitting in their very own claw foot bathtub sitting up on a little dias so they can plan their next "romantic" contact while soaking in a bubble bath. The whole point was supposed to be that it wasn't necessary to plan out the contact since the drug lasts for several hours.
Who would ever find that to be sexy or inspiring?
They are dragging the bottom of the barrel here.
Then near the end of it that special little warning comes about the dangers of a 4 hour erection. That ought to make you really want to get into that bath tub right?
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I blame the Baby Boomers.
It's bad enough they're killing all the cool music from the 60s by using it in ads for everything from home equity loans to retirement plans (damn you, Dennis Hopper!) and now they're using it as the soundtrack to cram their sexuality in our faces. Though I kinda like the sadistic irony of using Elvis' Viva Las Vegas to sell E.D. drugs to his own fans. Viva Viagra! *ugh*
My parents are baby boomers & i don't WANT to think about them having sex. At all.
I'd like to think that my generation will have the decency to avoid this sort of thing. but I have my doubts. So, when Pearl Jam's Alive is used for a drug that reduces cholesterol or for a hip new retirement plan -- kill me. Just kill me.
Rat was teasing me this evening while we waited for Trueblood to come on. I could hear they smothered giggles and she was very busy on the laptop, finally I asked her what she was up to and got the dreaded "nothing"! Said in the tone of someone up to a lot. Finally after many many minutes of teasing me with repeated "nothings" she finally says It won't get you suspended- I hope!
Finally when she had wrung the last nervousness from me she could she shows me my Samhain gift of the most awesome stamp! Thanks sis but what a way to be a meanie!
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Wait,,,does that read that I can be mean more often? lol
:)
Heh, you two rub of each other so well... no wonder you and Rat are great friends :)
^.^ Rat is awesome.
I know that Rat's been anxious to get to answer an Acolyte question ever since she passed the test but everyone kept being faster than her at doing it. This evening I've answered 2 and they were both of the type she could have handled quite easily. Oh well I'm sure she'll get her chance.
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Has she been on? I just answered one myself! lol
Nope she has an early work call tomorrow so had to go to bed... can we say you snooze you lose :)
I heard that! lol
I answered the one about the jello and the mororcyclist
Back home from the doctor, the proceedure I had done was called a medial branch block and it worked as far as easing the pain in my cervical disc which let my neck & shoulder muscles relax so that was good.
There was one or two problems though, it was supposed to be 2-10 needles on either side of my spine and they origionally told me 4 should do it. um huh well 8 was what I got... yes they did give me sedation via a shot that went into the IV 10 seconds before the first needle was stuck in my back. I don't know about ya'll but it takes a bit longer than that for me to feel good about it all. lol Yes it did hurt quite a lot but I managed to keep still and only bit my lip twice and made noise once, yipee me. Yep I could have yelled loudly or screamed but I didn't want to make his hand jerk with that long needle stuck in me. 0-o
Now I'm just sore as all get out as they warned me I'd be from the shots. I've got a pain patch covering the area where the shots went in but it's not helping that much. I suspect I'll be taking something nice and strong very shortly so that I can sleep like a baby. They did warn me it'll be a couple of days of pain like this from the test.
The bad news is I have to do this same test again in about 2 weeks, the good news is that's the last time before they can do the actual burning proceedure. (wait is that good news?)
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Ooooh errrr ouch
When you say you just made a sound once, that sound did last for the whole thing right ?
hehehehe
sorry you're going through all that, it always happens to the nicest people
Take the pills and sleep till the pain is gone. Good luck with the nerve burning. Just thinking about it sends shivers down my spine.
Rat sneaks into Cat's lair to change her pic.
"Dang it... we want to see those eyes bigger then that thumb size."
Rat puts the picture up...then logs off... sneaking away...
lol
:P
Here's what happens to Rats that are mean to friendly cats.
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HAHAHAHA you wicked woman :P
Good thing there is a Deer to make sure that doesn't happen ;)
hahahahahahahaha
I forgot to say thanks LadyC for my new pretty :)
Gosh.... you are so mean. :P
LOL
Oh my lol
Went out with Rat for a small celebration dinner, since she made Senatorian. It's very cool and she'll do an awesome job. She's always loved reading profiles and looking at portfolios. She can remember so many things from profiles that I pass right over. lol It's drove me crazy forever now. With her eye for pictures (unlike my own) she'll have those beady little rat eyes peeled for any violations. (just kidding her eyes are nice and big)
Dinner was awesome, went to a new italian place and she had the huge plate of spagetti and lasgana of which more than half got to go home for tomorrow. I had the pizza, not being much on eating lots of tomato or spicy foods. It too was great and 1/2 got to come home with me.
Then we had desert, Rat had this big piece of chocolate cake called (death by chocolate) I had Baklava and we each got to taste the others. Man it was so good but I liked my baklava better than the chocolate *ducks the trash Rat throws* It's just the taste of the nuts and honey and filling oh my! lol
I really like all the new members of the admin teams. Most of them are folks I know or consider friends already and the others I know from their good reputations around the site. It's going to be fun learning to work together and seeing the Dark Network develop even more.
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I am happy for Vw, I know she'll make a good sentoran. And that Death by Chocolate cake sounds delicious.
It is more than awesome... it ROCKS
Ahh thanks sis. And to thank,,, you was my first suspension. lol
I'm stoked, too!
Decided to use one of the pictures Rat took after she did me a goth makeup look including wig. That white/black hair look is so wicked looking but Birdy and Rat both have forbidden me from dyeing my hair black ever again since the last time I did it (first time too) I walked into Rat's place they nearly got myself shot or arrested since they had no ideal who I was... lol
The hanging in my eyes part wasn't a problem at least since my own hair has grown down to my shoulders or longer and I no longer have bangs so it spends lots of time hanging in my eyes but it's just red not black or white. lol
Thank Rat it makes an awesome avatar!
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Sure thing. I think you should let me dress you up as a elf for Xmas. lol
Kidding.....
WOW...who's THAT mysterious temptress?...:P
Looking good! ME next you know!
My weekend visitors arrived quite early like 1am this morning instead of late Friday night. lol I was sound asleep when the key in the lock woke me. Then 45 minutes of carrying in luggage and the teenager's computer that he just must have to continue playing his online game over the weekend. (you thought I had it bad)
Finally everyone gets to bed and I go back to sleep only to be woke by my brother's alarm clock 1 and 1/2 hours before my own is going off and it takes 10 minutes before my brother wakes up and shuts it off. I doze off again and 15 minutes later the alarm on his cell phone begins going off. *I didn't even know cell phones had alarm clocks in them* But since the phone is plugged up to recharge in my dining room and everyone else is behind closed doors I'm the one up trying to figure out what the heck is going off. Finally I do and shut it off and by now I'm just too awake to even try to get more sleep. So up, dressed and in a foul mood what a way to start a Friday.
Okay in his defense it was all set for his usual workday needs and he doesn't get up very well. Heck I've known of us throwing water on him to make him get up in the mornings. I'm really glad I can wake up anytime and get moving fast. But I'm sure it's going to be a long weekend.
Went over to Rat's last night and watched her do a sexy witch makeup she'd seen on youtube and though she didn't have all the shades of green the woman used I thought her improvisations came out awesome. Now she did make the comment that it was awfully quiet in there which I now realize means she was expecting me to actually talk while I watched her. lol ooops!
I found it fascinating enough that when she was done I got brave and let her do me up in the gothic look I so liked from her recent pictures.
I must admit I didn't know myself long before we got halfway done. What she did to my eyes simply blew me away! The dirty brown I'm used to actually looked more like a topaz color. Wicked :)
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:) It was great fun.
And for those who don't come to my journal....
Loving that look lol
Oh wow... that Rat seems pretty talented with the make up. You look great :)
Awesome! ♥
We never really do grow out of playing dress up do we? lol
I love playing around with makeup!
I have told you before that your eyes are amber colored. :)
Just got back in from my apt with the Pain Management specialist which was completely different from what I even imagined.
It began with them taking the medical question sheet they'd mailed me to fill out 8 sheets worth and I did fill it out completely but we went over each answer (the nurse and I) instead of the typical doctors exam room we're in a small hospital type room with hospital bed and a bunch of the machines they always have in there. She then goes to a cabinet and gets out a clean folded sheet and tosses it onto the bed and says I'll be right back with a gown for you.
Say what!!!
In just a moment she's back and says to take off my clothes and put on the gown opening in the back (no kidding) and she and the doctor will be in shortly, she starts out and I asked Do I have to take off everything? she comes back with Oh no you can keep your underclothes on... gee thanks for almost forgetting that little important note!
So I'm now sitting there in my bvd's and one of those stiff itchy hospital gowns that unless you're twiggy do not meet in the back, not that I could reach around and tie it anyway, since I'm there because I'm loosing mobility in my neck and arms from the disc problem... yipee how nice and uncomfortable a first visit this is turning out to be.
After more than enough time for me to reconsider the while visit twice, they finally knock and come in the room. The doc spoke good English and was understandable always a plus and often a surprise around here. Nice looking fellow too was wearing scrubs and didn't treat me like I couldn't understand my own health issues. Another plus for me. Then he begins going over the paperwork stopping to ask me if it's right that I'm 47. Moron here pops out yep that's me, with a big grin. He just blinks and says "you sure don't look that age" I managed to bite my tongue on "you are too hot to be a doctor of mine too" but I didn't say it out loud.
By the end of the exam (yes I did end up on that dang hospital bed) but between his exam (I hate rubber hammers) and the MRI results he told me that one disc in particular seemed to be causing my pain and I've got 10 days to change my mind and cancel a test where they will use needles to go in with a numbing agent on both sides of that disc's nerve (twice) to see if by numbing that particular nerve my pain will pretty much go away they said.
If that does take away the pain then a few days later it has to be repeated to ensure that is the correct nerve and if that is the case then they go in with another type of needle and burn that nerve which will relieve the pain up to a year or more.
So I'm going to do some research about the proceedure and see how it works and the safety issues involved but I know it's much safer for me than surgery would be.
Now I have to admit the ideal of sitting or laying still while folks stick needles in the back of my neck doesn't sit that well with me and I kept waiting for them to say it was just a small needle (they didn't) but before I left I asked the nurse to verify that was exactly what was going to happen.... then after I'd already signed up for the test and I'm dressed and ready to leave then she gives me the instructions because I'm going to be sedated. Well damn I wish they'd have told me that much earlier in the discussion. lol
When this is all done I think I'll write that on the customer satisfaction card they gave me to fill out. It would go a long way to making the worry for those of us who don't like needles in strange places.
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10 days....ok.....so next week...good......not THIS week...got it....so WHEN is it?
The whole ordeal sounds painful, but hopefully everything will work out for the best.
I also hope it goes for the best :)
Rat came over and watched Trueblood with me and we both agree it's an awesome show. Just keeps getting better and better and the scenes they tease you with about future episodes just about make a body drool. Okay maybe not after that last vampire bite I saw. Birdie would have complained big time it was way too bloody and realistic. lol Too bad she didn't make it here to watch with us... she's such fun when things get gory!
Tomorrow I'm headed into the city to see this doctor my regular doc is wanting me to see. A pain management specialist which I have to admit I'm not quite sure about the whole ideal. I did ask my doc if this was just someone to dope me up on pain meds as that isn't what I want and he said no, this guy does something with the nerves to deaden the pain so that I can keep on moving. Degenerative Disc Disease just sounds to me like a fancy name for your shit's wearing out, dummy!
But it won't hurt me to see what the guy says if it sounds too good to be true I won't be going back since I know better than that. This all started over a year ago now and I've just kept pushing with the pain in my neck and shoulders but it's growing worse and so I asked him if maybe a chiropractor or some therapy might help instead of taking meds or should I see a spinal specialist to check into it. He said no really fast he did not want me seeing anyone that might suggest surgery on my spine. Luckily we both agree on that point. But he felt this guy was my best bet so I guess I'm off to see the wizard (in the morning) Wish me luck :)
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Trueblood does indeed rock.
Good luck with the doc.
Got lots of work to do this evening planning to clean out the kitchen cupboards and clear out more junk. There's more kettles and pans in there than 5 families could need. I've got 3 pressure cookers, 3 big chili/soup kettles and like 5 baking sheets and so much more than I can list. It's like being surrounded by kettles and cups in my kitchen right now and I'm neither a big cook nor one who throws parties. So it's time to pare it down some I think.
Went to the doctor this morning and he told me the problem with my elbow is tendonitis and gave me something for the inflamation and suggested getting some type of a band to strap around my arm to ease the problem. Huh? lol
Now I've taken the first of the medicine and hopefully in a couple hours I'll be able to start working. I tried a bit ago and since I had to use my right arm only to reach into the corner cupboards and lift things out and it just didn't like me for that at all. So took the meds going to rest while it takes effect and then get my jobs done.
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Take it easy with that elbow... Maybe get yoursel an ace wrap to keep it a little bit more stable as you work...
my kitchen is missing a pressure cooker and kettle ... if they need a home.
Don't do too much at once, just because you don't feel the pain does'nt mean the injury is gone...but then you know that anyway.
HEHEHEH so much for working.....we got her to go to dinner and movies with us....:)
Oh yes a very evil birdie and rat drug me out kicking and screaming to a wonderful dinner of grilled chicken (mmm) then watched a couple of movies before dragging off to bed. Got no work done at all but had so much fun it was so worth it :)
Now for tomorrow....
Well I'm back home after one long day. Did the whole drive in pouring rain, so I had to keep to the speed limit since it's been so dry for so long and I know the roads were not to be trusted. But other than ruining a set of windshield wipers from clearing off all the sludge thrown on it from passing tractor-trailers it was problem free.
The hospital has some really awesome folks so much happier to help you and more concerned than the small hospital I'm used to locally. No one was grouchy or made us feel helping us was too much effort for them.
Adam completed the Autism assessment first off then had a speech assessment which was better than the last time since he's been in speech thearpy for a while now. It's made a big difference and preschool has helped immensely.
The little dog had to go and show off by saying his pledge of allegience in full to the lady. lol He does that cause he knows I can never remember the whole thing.
In the afternoon apt he went through the occupational threapy assessment and while he did some of it great, they did say there was some definate problems that he needed assistance with but that we should be able to find a therapist for locally. Yipee...
Bad thing was we pulled out of downtown Cincinnatti right in rush hour. F*** was it a pain in the butt. Took an extra hour just to get through that and back out of the northern Ky traffic. But at least most of the rain was done for the ride home.
Now I'm fixing to hit the bed myself as soon as I take some more advil. lol
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Glad to know you are home sis. Call you in the AM
I won't be around much tomorrow Have to take my nephew to Cincinnati Childrens Hospital for a couple more rounds of testing. It'll be an all day thing and I'm sure Adam will get angry and being around all those strangers. ah well nothing can be done about it. We'll just have to deal and try and keep him calm enough to do the tests. It's not really a hard drive just a long one. Better take the advil with me. lol
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Good luck and safe driving, advil or no advil!
Have a safe and uneventful trip. :)
Hugs
Michael
Went out to lunch with my favorite Rat today and we went to a new local resturant sitting right beside the runway at the airport. We enjoyed a Sunday brunch watching a few planes take off and land. Since the place is pretty new there wasn't a huge crowd there and we could talk and relax while there.
Then to make a good day better Rat came over and watched some videos with me and caught up on the series Trueblood and stayed and watched the newest episode. That show is darned good and I'm enjoying it a lot. But it does make us both want to roleplay. Hmmm maybe a trip to Versailles can be worked out soon. :) Girls check your calendars!
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What is the connection between Versailles and vampires? Do you ladies break into the castle or just pillage the towns people?
:P
Our oh so evil Game Master lives up in Versailles, KY
yes it is worth driving 125 miles to role play :)
And to see out friend of many many years.
lol
You forgot to say that Cat.
;)
Ah shoot I'm always forgetting the important (polite) parts 0-o
It is a kewl new restaurant eh? As for D...I have news...she called me and talked for like 30 minutes. Will tell ya when I see you.
This made me laugh so much because at first I was thinking France, as in ver-sai...but then I realized it was Kentucky as in, ver-sales. I didn't believe Meeper at first when she told me the name of the town was "Ver-sales, dammit, not ver-sai...people will correct you if you say ver-sai" oh, god that makes me laugh...
*looks around nervously* uhhhh, not AT you...at the damn yankess...yeah, that...
Yep us folks south of the Mason-Dixon line not only speak differently but we can argue you to death on how to pronounce our city names ie...Versailles (ver-sales) and Lousiville (lou-e-vil) and them thare Yankees just don't usually git it! rofl
Hmm, how do you pronounce Versailles in American? Snickers, is it a bit like the tomato(e) v tomaato?
Came on this morning and it was rather quiet, nothing pending in the Queues and the forum seemed in pretty good shape too. Guess everyone's keeping busy. Then I noticied something in the box that kind of bugged me. Up to this point I've not really tried to interrupt the conversations there and haven't run across any that were too mean or nasty to allow to continue.
But this morning someone that I normally enjoy listening to the opinions of since he's most definatly opinionated and outspoken and quite often right on the money about many things but today he seemed to be more than a little off center and was quite nasty even though no one else in the box was participating or instigating it. One person even very politely asked him to calm down and be reasonable and for his trouble was disrespected nastily.
This person was an admin but without the power to clear the box. I didn't feel this was at all correct and so cleared the box. I'm sure it angered the protagonist but honestly I don't care. If he wishes to message me and discuss why I felt his comments needed removed I have no problem with talking to him but just being mean to others for a kick doesn't do it for me.
Something that's always been weird about me is I get angry easier over someone else than I do when it's myself being attacked. Guess it was just one of those mornings when that part of me was dominant. lol
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Talk to him? See- you are way to nice. I say screw him- he knows what he did.
--.-- See- that is why you are an Admin. lol
Way to go sis- keep the site clean for us.
very true
i totally agree with vampwitch
youre doing your job love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I would normally say that you don't have to explain yourself, you are accredited to a position of trust and that is that. However, you have completely bowled me over with this show of compassion in as much as you want to explain your actions.
I just wish more Doms would take a leaf out your book!
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deathnitegrl
17:54 Oct 30 2008
Indeed ;)
xxEmaeraldxx
18:26 Oct 30 2008
That worked for me too - long may you hold a position here NG :)
LordVlkodlak
02:23 Nov 01 2008
Here's my perspective on the whole music downloading thing (and I'm not going to say you are wrong; nor am I going to encourage any illegal activity).
Why is it illegal to download music from swapping sites? This was a great idea until Metallica decided that they needed more money; and instead of putting out more albums; releasing new songs; or going on tour ... they were going to pick on us music loving folks.
What was the claim to this? That people like me were getting their music without them getting paid for it. They were losing their dimes because I didn't go down to the local music store and shell out $18.00 for a CD with only 2 songs that I wanted to hear.
Well ... here's the flaw. I did go down to the local music store; where I use to pick up CDs ... for $3 - $5 each. It was a resale store; a place where you could bring the music you no longer wanted and I could buy the music that I did want. Guess what ... the bands don't see a single thin dime from those stores.
So, how is free music swapping an illegal activity? Because the record labels decided that they were not making money off of it? If the music is out there ... somebody paid for it; and the bands got their cut.
*sorry for the rant*
As for being the big, bad Dom ... excellent work. I don't know if I would have caught that one. =)
Nightgame
04:24 Nov 01 2008
LordV, I don't disagree with you, I don't believe it is any of the music companies business since they no longer make it possible for us to purchase just the single songs that are worth anything. As you say most of the release is 2nd rate filler. But as you know my background, I've often had to follow laws and rules with which I didn't personally agree. I decided to approach it as a "could this in some way damage or implicate VR"? While we both know it wasn't meant to be encouraging illegal activity, I didn't think it worth the chance it could be construed that way.