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You all are the greatest!17:32 Jan 29 2011
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Went back to the eye doc yesterday morning and he said the CT scan showed no sign of a real tumor but there was some type of inflamination or infection showing in the right eye orbit. He still felt confident that it was a psuedo turmor but he still wanted a second opinion so right in front of me and my sister who was with me he's calling up different opthmalogists that he felt had enough experience to make a call on it. Finally he found one actually working at the University of KY hospital and asked that doctor to stay in his clinic until I could get there. At no time did he bother asking me if it was a problem getting into the city but that's okay I knew either my sister would or I'd yell at Rat or Birdie and get there. :) Got to love sisters.
I got there just over 1 hour later and then the real fun began. It started with one of their fellows examining me again (what my doc had just done) once isn't so bad but it started getting painful and sore to keep it up. He ran through the whole shining lots of lights in my eyes (even though he was nice enough to apologize as it was very painful) It got worse when he rolled my eyelid upside down (even my sister turned a bit green) but finally he was done and said the Doctor would be in shortly, wherein he proceeded to do the whole exam all over again but added new even brighter lights to shine in my sore eyes. When he was done all I saw was a blue/green tint to everything for a few minutes but in the end he agreed that there was no evidence of a real tumor or an obvious infection so he agreed with my Doc that the best course of action was for me to continue on the big antiobiotics and add a very strong steriod.
The problem was that steriods would run my blood sugar out of this world so I'd need to raise my insulin pump infusion rate which I've done but also if it's actually an infection that isn't showing right the steriod will make it go wild. So my doctor gave me every phone number he had home, cell and even his wife's cell so that if it got any worse/different I had to call him immediately so he could meet me back in his "closed" office this weekend.
Lucky for me the very first dose of steriods brought enough of the swelling down for the intense pain to go away. My vision still is still off a bit and the eye not fully open but it's so much better painwise that I don't want to scream anymore. Yipee
So thank you for all the well wishes, prayers, phone calls and just being the greatest folks ever!
I lost the fight...01:14 Jan 28 2011
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Last couple of days my right eye has been bugging me, pain and swelling but I have a chronic condition wherein I develope episcleritis which hurts like the dickens and drives me to the doctor for drops to clear it up but isn't really dangerous to my sight. So it felt like another case of that coming on so I used the drops I still had from the last bout until this morning when I woke up with my right eye closed. That's never happened before nor any drainage from it, so I called my opthalmologist and they told me to come right in so I did and when Dr Jim came in he was grinning, but not for long, 5 minutes later he'd examined my eyes 3 times asked me 5 times if I was sure I didn't have double vision then ordered a cat scan immediately. It's either a psuedo-tumor or a real tumor.. so cross your fingers for psuedo please. It'll hurt just as bad as the real thing but won't require surgery.
My sister came and got me since the exam had robbed me of vision and I had 5 vials of blood pulled right away then down to enjoy a nice wait at the imaging center before the scan. It wasn't so bad, they got the IV in easy enough even if it was the same place the blood was drawn from lol Hey when you've only got one good spot to hit.. use it.
The scan itself only took about 5 minutes then they put the contrast dye through my IV and took the pictures again. I was cold until the dye went in then I warmed up right quick but the sudden urgent desire to run to the bathroom wasn't comfortable. lol
Anyway the doctor gave me his cell number just in case (of what I've no ideal) but he wants me in his office as soon as it opens tomorrow.
Myself I refuse to consider it's anything but a psuedo-tumor, I'll deal with the pain but I don't want to have to have any more surgery for a few years at least. So positive thoughts only for me tonight and Rat's agreed to leave the snow voodoo doll alone until at least tomorrow afternoon. :)
Hey do you know how strange folks look at you when you walk around with one eye closed but no bruising to tell it's a black eye? It was like some thought I was winking at them or something. lol
Oh WOW23:07 Jan 26 2011
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I am in total shock I just got a message telling me that my Portfolio was chosen by The House of Caomhnóir-an-Eolas, for September 2010 for their award. I have seen these awards here and there since I first joined VR and they always were on profiles and ports that I enjoyed as artistic and interesting. I never thought to see one for my own portfolio. Thank you to Daire and his House for something that pleases me greatly but also holds meaning from my first days on this site.
Not the best of days02:20 Jan 26 2011
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Been a bit of a rough day, started off this morning learning one of my uncles has died of cancer, it wasn't unexpected but we thought we'd have a bit more time. But as he was in extreme pain it would be very selfish to have wanted him to linger.
Tonight we're waiting to hear from my nephew 10 years old who's gone to the ER with, flu, strep throat and a stomach virus. He saw his doctor this morning and he warned his parents that if he started throwing up, he'd be put in the hospital, since he's a type 1 diabetic and very skinny to boot. He simply cannot stand to get too far dehydrated.
But our hospital is totally full with the full cases, so much that they didn't want to take my uncle who was screaming in pain but the doctor made them so he coud receive IV pain meds to die in peace. So not sure if Austin will actually be given a bed or kept sitting in the ER all night before being sent home in the morning. :( Either way it's going to be a long night.
Well I've done it now02:00 Jan 23 2011
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I have finally done something I've been thinking about for a while now. I've changed the way UO takes in new members. While I loved the democratic method we have used with the sheer number of societies all searching for active members, holding folks waiting for 3 days while a vote is conducted just doesn't give us much of a chance.
I've just done away with that process and we're going to induct and trade members as all the other societies do here. We will still be an 18+ only House I'm not even thinking of changing that part of UO.
I've also got a list of members that have been inactive for about 2 years or more, that I'm planning to release or sell off. Some of them were friends so it's not something I do lightly but it's time to get the blood moving around my house.
I've some great active members in UO, some who post in the house forums and others who never come near them but are active elsewhere on VR. I'm good with this as we've talked privately and understand where we stand.
But others have moved on for whatever reasons and yet only one messaged me and told me she was done and didn't want to come back to VR. That was 1 year ago and I've waited for her to change her mind but that's not happened so it's time for me to move on too.
It's hard to consider removing some of these folks who were once so active but all things change and so too must I.
I've other things in mind but haven't fully fleshed them out for now this is enough, don't want to scare folks off.
Birthday thoughts17:03 Jan 18 2011
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Today's the day, my birthday is here at last. It's funny but I can remember being a kid on the school bus, it was a 15 mile ride so I had time to ponder obscure things. I distinctly remember wondering what the world would be like if I lived to be 50 years old. Would there be peace? Flying cars, like the Jetsons? or Would the hippie ideal of free love and back to nature win out?
I do remember trying to figure out the math in my head as to what year it would be and 2011 seemed like something so far away as to be impossible. Heck just thinking about a new century was mind boggling to a kid. lol
But it's here and while some kind folks say I don't look my age, I'm kinda okay with it. It's been a hard road to get here with pain and fear and loss guiding me a lot of the time. But just to be here is one heck of an accomplishment to my mind. That kid who thought this year would never ever happen is finally here in a new century with a good family, great friends and many interests.
So maybe there's more than a few things I would do differently if I had the chance and I sure never accomplished all the things I used to dream about but who does?
And my biggest discovery is that it's not the end of the road. There's still many many things I want to do, see and try. So I guess I need to pick another day way off in the future to start my calculations with all over again, maybe 2050 that's a nice even number. :)
Random Thoughts16:12 Jan 11 2011
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I was returning rates today, yep I try and catch up every few days. I kinda miss rating like I did when I was working my way up to sire. Every profile new and old I came across I rated and enjoyed the glimpses into other members lives.
These days I tend to pick out higher level members on the who's online page that I don't know to rate and only visit the newest members if they come rate me first.
The reason for this is I don't like dropping their rate to the basement while they're still learning their way around and how to do the css here. Once you're down so low it's nearly impossible to work your way back out of that hole.
Well without changing your member name and I don't like making folks do that. I know it's popular among some here and that's their business but in the 4+ years I've been on here, people have come to know me with this name, like me or dislike me, trust me or think I'm a stooge but I'm still the same person.
Don't get me wrong, there's legitimate reasons for some folks to change their name and it's one of the things we pay for a premium membership to have access to do. But to have to give up the user name you really wanted just to try and get out of the rate basement before you learned your way around doesn't seem fun to me.
I can say this from experience, my first profile here was barely viewable, sparkletags and little text (though it was spelled correctly) lol but it took me a few weeks to figure my way around and work up the nerve to ask for help to "pimp out" my profile.
Luckily most folks will come and re-rate you if you ask nicely after you fix your profile up.
Now to buck the system, yes rates do matter when you've put a lot of work into your profile and someone downrates you without any reason given, just being an arse. Not everyone likes my style and I don't like others sometimes but I also take into account the amout of work put into a profile and rate accordingly.
Call me old fashioned but I try to be fair in all things.
Huh?14:17 Jan 05 2011
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Was driving this morning and the vehicle in front of me had one of those "In Memory of" decals put on the vehicle window. I don't like the things myself ,but anyway this one took the cake:
In memory of xxxx xxxx
He's not dead yet
but the way things are looking
it won't be long now.
I laughed the rest of the drive home.
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COMMENTS
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Selkie
17:45 Jan 29 2011
oh wow that sounds painful. *hugs*
Vampirewitch39
18:04 Jan 29 2011
You kicked that damn ghost tumor... BE GONE! and leave her alone, I say. *in my best TV peacher voice*
;)
NocturnalMistress
03:47 Jan 30 2011
I am glad for you that it is starting to get better!
*hugs*
faeriemoon
11:42 Jan 30 2011
YAY to no tumor! :) BOO to painful eyes. :( Hope you're feeling all better soon. Sounds like you've got an amazing doc.
LadyChordewa
23:25 Jan 30 2011
PhoenicianDream
17:50 Jan 31 2011
Hahaha Rat the televangelist.