18:24 Oct 02 2024
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When I was younger, I thought quantity over quality was the way to go. I thought the more people I surrounded myself with, the more I would be. The more people that liked me would then make me like myself.
As I've gotten older, I realize that isn't the case.
Now, I prefer quality over quantity. It's helped me realize a few things. One is that not everyone deserves to see all of you. It's okay for them to catch certain glimpses, but they don't deserve all of you laid bare before them. Another thing is, if you spread yourself too thin by trying to please everyone, then you miss out on those who really, truly matter. Those people that would hold you up when you needed it, walk with you even when you didn't and just be there when it felt like the world was caving in around you- those types of people. They are rare jewels that sometimes are placed in your path on a journey. To discard those, walk by them, leave them lying there for a fleeting moment of whatever is.... well... sad.
I see it like this- You come across those rare jewels. You see them. You touch them. You have them near you. Then you come across a chest of beaded glass. As time passes, you put those rare jewels in with the beaded glass. The chest shifts and shakes causing them all to be mixed. Therefore, causing the real jewels to be shifted and hidden getting lost within the false beauty. In time you may start to realize that the other beads are not true, not like those jewels. But will you ever find those rare jewels that have shifted? Maybe fallen through a crack in the chest you didn't notice? Didn't see? Left behind for a 'falseness' to take their place.. to fill some empty spot.
And if they didn't fall out maybe, just maybe, the glass beads have moved against them so much, that it has caused them to fracture, break off, and erode over time; leaving them nothing more than dust that you might remember when the time is right.
You didn't realize that not only did those jewels shine for you, but you also shined for them; enriching them, making them stronger, fortifying each other to make that shine extra, extra special. Those special rare jewels, including you, form something so breathtaking that not everyone can look at it and understand.
That is why I've chosen quality over quantity. That is why I won't allow myself to be spread so thin I cannot give what I receive, or even receive what I give. There is something special in being able to give and take and not just give give give or take take take. There is a beauty in this type of balance- a connection.
It's one thing to get lost in those moments. It's another thing to lose who you are in them too.
COMMENTS
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LunarTides
19:10 Oct 02 2024
It’s like stones being put in a tumbler. They rub against each other and the grit and they go through all that shaping and come out polished and smooth. You’re a jewel to me.
MooniePie
19:14 Oct 02 2024
You're a jewel to me too, doll.