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At one point, I'll freely admit I complained about the ads here on VR. I bitched and moaned and griped, but then found out Cancer was awesome enough to take the ads out for premium members. BTW mucho props to Cancer for that, as soon as I have the spare funds for "Fun things" I plan on getting premium.



Now back on course, I went to several other websites and online services recently, with more ads then content. Some website require you to have upwards of two gigs of ram, just to go to, mainly because of all of the ads. I have an older computer, it's gets done what I need it too (most of the time), though after going to one or two sites, my computer should not run out of memory and crash.



For those in the know, I run adobe photoshop, microsoft word and a host of other larger programs on my comp, a website shouldn't require more ram to run then them!



At it's worse, VR would stall my computer for a second or two, but always worked. Those websites which crashed my system from it's 9,000,000,000 ads, shall remain nameless, but for those bitching about the ads on vr, get a premium or check around the internet, you'll find hundreds far worse then here!

Ah...an asshole by any other name wouldn't smell as sweet. I am not a nice guy to a lot of people, nor do I fain kindness for others emotional well being. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I am an asshole!



I am a very busy individual, I am always working or working on something, therefore time spent on the inept and worthless, is wasted time and money. Some would call me pretentious or an elitist and I really don't give a shit to be honest. I'm too busy being ACTIVE in the REAL world, making money from what I love doing and spending time with loved ones and friends, then to worry about some losers opinion of me.



I'm not concerned with others feelings, unless it is someone I care about, and especially online (Where grand magus and superior god creatures roam freely but can't control their lives) individuals. You are nothing in the real world, nothing to society and nothing of value to humanity, don't bother criticizing or expecting much from me. I am an asshole, I make no qualms about it!



I don't desire acceptance or friendship online, nor do I feel like many individuals are even peers. I don't want or desire a group to fit into, because the truth is, I have all of that already and haven't had to "search" since I was a child. I see so many 30 nothings today, with nothing in their life, searching and acting as though they were sixteen years old.



Screw it, I hate therefore I am...I can't even find it within myself to continue writing for most plebeian untermensche.

I'm often asked what it is that I do for a living, so I decided to post it here a bit. I am not shy about my accomplishements, nor is humility a strong point of my character. I'm involved in a plethora of ventures, which all have amassed a degree of success and accolades.



I believe in doing what you love, honining your craft and giving 110% of yourself to it, that therein is a modicum of success. Some may take this post as bragging, but I guarentee those whom do, do so out of jealousy. Consider this article motivation to do something with your life, to be or become something more then a person in the crowd. In the end words of the movie wanted, "What in the fuck have you done lately?"



I am hardly ever slothful, always working on something, even when chatting online or on Vampire Rave. I believe firmly that stagnation equates to death and there are plenty of dead shells walking around in humanity. Being active and taking an active role in your personal progression is pivotal, or else you end up with regrets and a pathetic half-life.



Do, be, live and enjoy!



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*Martial Arts - I started taking lessons when I was around nine or ten years old and by thirteen I was involved in three different systems. I am still a student, hoping to achieve more advanced degrees in Jiu Jitsu and Muay Thai in the future.



1st degree black belt Tae Kwon Do (WTF)

1st degree black belt Uechi-Ryu Karate-Do (WKDA)

2nd degree black belt Back Sil Lum Quan (Northern Shaolin Fist) (WKFF)

Blue belt 1st stripe Brazilian Jiu Jitsu (Gracie International)

PA State Grand Champion (Free fighting) from 1995-1997 (WTF)

MMA record (amateur, professional and NHB Vale Tudo combined) 76-6-1

Internationally recognized 4th dan Associate Master (ISJDA, WBBB, WBBC)

WSC licensed as a legally operating Soke

Soke Gui Quan Gung Fu (Ghost Fist kung fu)

Soke M.A.C.S. (Modern American Combat Sciences)

Soke Nagash-Ryu Shinobi-Do

ISJDA hall of fame inductee 2006

ISSA hall of fame inductee 2009

President AMMAC (American Modern Martial Arts Council)

Owner/Head master of T-Town Tigers Dojo/FC (Fight club)

Founder of the Progressive Repetition teaching method



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*Writing - I have been a writer for most of my life, much like the other professions I have listed herein. In the last decade I have seriously devoted myself to the written word, working hard at my craft.



Published five times over

Signed to largest independent publisher in the world

Published one fantasy novel for teens and young adults

Published four times with Serial Killers Magazine (Recognized Cannibal expert)



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*Art - I seriously committed myself to art in nearly all mediums, since I was about thirteen years old. I have over the course of about five years, created around 300 glyphcs for use in an art style I created called modern glyphic art. In my MGA art style, I can tell entire stories, lessons etc... through pictoral representations.



Creator of the Modern Glyphic Art style

Creator of "Da En Tymes" comic strip

I've sold two pieces of my art, both glyphic art pieces, to two galleries.



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*Music - I am D-Lux, the goth/industrial singer and musician. http://d-lux.yolasite.com/



five albums released, 4 full length and one split album with the nine(9) project

(Had) and incredibly deep following on myspace, with over 6,000 fans and friends

Owner and operator of the independent label "Ravens Eye Records"

Currently working on album number six, a two disc release entitled (Genesis)



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*The Occult - I have been an occultist since I was around twelve years old. I first found my way into the Church of Satan's fold and later became a devout Luciferian and Yezidi. Unlike dabblers or oath breakers (warlocks), I am a learned occult scholar, tought by a master in a lineage. I didn't read a few books and then "have it down!"



Recognized Hellenic Luciferian Priest

Recognized Baba-Sheik of a Yezidi tribe

I am the retired high Priest of the now defunct Church of Lucifer

I currently sit on the council of eighteen in the Order of the 18 Demons.

FIRST American member of Le Dragon Rouge

Silverback of WolfPack 18 (US South)

Household name in the left hand path



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LadyErzebet
23:06 Oct 16 2009

And He's all mine. hehe

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Lolita
08:24 Oct 21 2009

You are a busy little bee. Your list is inspiring.

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IronHeart
12:28 Oct 21 2009

thats a hell of a MMA record there, I am impressed.

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I see the term "Darkness" thrown around today more then upskirt photos of less then reputable celebrities. In fact, darkness is a concept very few fit the mold of, regardless of their blood drinking. Darkness and light are not aesthetics, not music choices, love of night over day, dress etc... instead darkness, genuine darkness comes from religious, philosophical and moral choices.



Organizations delving into concepts of darkness, marriage, child rearing etc...are in fact religious institutions, or playing religion. The concepts of the right-hand-path and left-hand-path are definitive. There is no such thing as a bad wiccan, christian, buddhist etc...you either are and live the tenets or you don't, period!



Religions of the right-hand-path are in fact religions of LIGHT, not darkness and infact are diametrically opposed to aspects of genuine darkness. There is no such thing as a dark buddhist, wiccan, christian, atheist with satanic Muslim tendencies.



One cannot be dark and care for the plight of humanity or what happens to the lot-lice. One cannot be dark and live by a set of imposed morals, either via book or higher up. I'm not aiming this article at anyone or anything either, just stating fact!

Here is a brief list of some of my favorite things;



Art

Music

Poetry

Order of the 18 Demons

Reading

Writing

Mexican food

Martial Arts

Intelligence

Animals

Video games

Movies

Chinese Food

Mixed Martial Arts

BLOOD and ENERGY

Tattoos

Der Volven Brood 18

My Lady

Italian Food

ZOMBIES

Working Out - Gotta be fit for Z-Day ;)

Museums (History, military, art and science)

The Occult (wow, hard to guess)

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LadyErzebet
11:29 Oct 09 2009

awww, rhank you hunni. you're one of my favs too.

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Here is a brief list of things that I absolutely hate;



Stupidity

The inept

Ignorance

Mayonnaise

Liars

Cowards

Weakness

Faux Intellectualism

Racists

Animal abuse

Abuse of children

Male on woman abuse

Jello

Irresponsibility

The useless

Apathy

Non-Sport violence

Fire when it burns me, though I love it when it burns others.

Dabblers

Wastrels

Pretentious arsehats

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LadyErzebet
11:27 Oct 09 2009

aww hunni, jello really? Firstborn will be so disappointed. He loves sharing a bowl of jello.

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Success is an element of life, that many can hardly grasp, let alone attain. Success is where our happiness lies, genuine, lasting happiness not the temporary happiness we all feel off and on. Success is doing what we want to do, making a good living at it, being surrounded by loved ones and generally being at a point in life, where little is desired.



I've found hundreds, literally hundreds, of supposed occultists and "Superior" beings, who can barely sustain themselves and their life. Shouldn't superior beings and occultists be the last ones who have to constantly struggle and who fail at life goals that they set?



YES!



Success is NOT measured in monetary gains or material possessions either, it is measured in the manifestation of genuine desire, dreams and will.



I am in my early thirties right now and would be hard-pressed to find a handful of individuals even twice my age, who have accomplished as much. I am successful in that I do what I love, make a living from it, am happy as can be and recently even found the love of my life.



I have five albums out in music, have sold two pieces of art to a major gallerie, developed my own art style, am a recognized occult master, an internationally recognized associate master forth degree black belt and founder of my own martial arts school, a retired MMA fighter, a published author five times over and a ton more...



I am not bragging in the slightest either, I could have added tons more above, plus there is a more life left for me to excell at! So if I'm not bragging, why am I stating all of this?



Simple, next time someone says they are a superior being, a living god, a master occultist to be feared blah blah blah...yakkity smackitty, look at their accomplishments in life, what have they done, what are they doing and varify EVERYTHING that they tell you. Question all things...period, end of story. See where they are in life and if it seems as though they have achieved any valid dreams to any success whatsoever.



Also, see if they are responsible, responsibility in taking care of obligations is one key facet to ALL true occultism, that no supposed superior being or master occultist would ignore. Responsibility is the right and obligation of the strong!

Let me start off by saying I don't hate Christians or anyone on the right hand path at all, I hate zealots. I couldn't give a rats ass about other religions or other peoples religious choices, I don't bash them "religiously." Many in the left-hand-path spend a great deal and expend a great deal of energy and time bashing the right, I couldn't care less.



I grew up a Catholic, I still to this day know all of the prayers and saints. I learned to sing in church choir and was one of the proverbial "faithful."



Then I turned ten years old and developed a million questions, wanting to learn about the religion on a deeper level. I was brought to my local church so I could ask my questions a Priest and when I did, I received a "wow" and half of the answers seemed convoluted to me, while the others I got no answer. Needless to say I was a bit discouraged and disheartened.



My family took me to several more churches, in hopes to rekindle Catholicism in me. The results were the same over and over until someone told me that it was about faith. Faith, blind and absolute faith was the pivotal element, the glue that bound the religion together and it wasn't enough for me.



I left the Catholic religion at around eleven years old and began searching for a path that suited me better, something that had what I was looking for.



I first found Laveyan Satanism, which was a jumping point for me really, though it was my first exposure in the left hand path. Then on South Street in Philadelphia I met an older gentleman who noticed a baphomet medallion around my neck. I spoke to him for several hours, to find out that he was an occult master.



I studied under him after being adopted (Grew up without a father) by him and when he died I took over an organization he'd run in the occult.



Since about age twelve I have been involved with the occult, many a full moon ago. I am not a Catholic, but understand the religion a great deal more and have indeed read the bible from cover to cover several times. I am not a Catholic or Christian, because I do understand the religion and know I am not one.



The occult has helped me in ways inconceivable, much like how sometimes prayer works for those on the right hand path. The unfathomable truth that most don't seem to understand, is that not everyone fits into the mold of the right hand path. Some individuals have self-imposed morality, not religion enforced morality.



Some people I know have said that they are "bad Christians" but there is no such thing! You either are a Christian and live by the tenets which dictate one as such, or you are not and don't!



Individuals from Wicca are Wiccan why? Because they follow and live by the wiccan rede and three fold law. Take the rede and three fold law away and you have something else entirely. Satanists believe in loving and hating equally, take away the hate and you have a right hand path religion, something completely different.



The occult was merely the right choice for me, it's certainly not for everyone.

I was recently asked not to long ago, if I could go back and change one thing about my life, what would it be? My reply left the four or five people around me absolutely shocked, when without hesitation I'd replied, "nothing!"



People didn't believe me, it was as if they all seemed to wish their life was somehow changed or different. One person outright called me a liar, thinking that because I've had a lot of bad things happen in my past, that I wouldn't change it. But in changing the bad times and decisions of the past, we change and lose some good times and we also lose something in the future...our selves.



It is our past that helps define us in our future incarnates.



No one's past is rosey, peachy keen perfect. perfection is an unattainable goal. Though one should strive for personal perfection, it is our flaws that indelibly make us, us!



We learn life lessons and move on, we grow and change and mutate into who we will be. It's only those who are unhappy with themselves, those who didn't learn from those lessons, who would change their past. It's those who let their past consume and control their future, that would change it.



The me today, who I am and what I am, comes from my past. My every success in life has come from me learning lessons from hardships and bad choices. I was at one time an embarrassing writer, now I am a multi-time published author, with the largest independent publisher in the world.



I became a better author, from quite literally, "sucking," at it. I learned how to become a better writer and worked at it, much like learning from a mistake and moving on.



Those who live a life of regret, do so because they do not learn from mistakes, they don't let adversity motivate them, instead they held themselves back.



If you're happy with who you are, right now, the next time someone asks you what would you change in life, tell them to piss off, you're fine as yourself now. If you live a life of regret, don't assume everyone else does, retrace your life's steps and find where yours turned to shit, then work from there.

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adarklust4blood
11:04 Oct 06 2009

Very well said! I have had to learn the hard way to not live my life with regrets. So many people become engrossed in their past and how they could have fixed something to make their present better. I had to realize even the most horrible things that occur whether it be death or severe emotional scars....there's a reason for it all..We all have to go through screwed up things to reach our present day destination. Without the bad..we could not have the good.



Wonderful post. :)

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LadyErzebet
12:20 Oct 06 2009

Couldn't agree more, hunni. This is why I wouldn't wish I never met my the father of my children. Yes I would have been spared a lot of pain and hard times; however, I wouldn't be the person you love today. Experiences shape and define us. Most importantly, i wouldn't have my children and our family would not be complete.

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