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The Theory of Love.



I think that is very suiting for what I am about to describe to you. It is through my personal experiances, and through my desires that I have decided upon this years ago. Love is not just one emotion, but a combination of many. This is how I feel bests describes such a feeling. The levels of love are so vast and seemingly boundless. For example, you would not love you mother the same way you love your pet, but you do love them, correct?



Let me elaborate on this thought for a moment. Now lets say that love was only on one level, and could not be seporated throughout all of this. Then love would be a one dimentional emotion, but its not, like every emotion, it has its levels.



Now, the best way I can explain love, is that it is feelings of want, need, passion, and desire all mixed into one word. With all those feelings, no wonder it can be set to so many diffrent levels. Think of the vast number of combinations that these feelings could be arranged in, the diffrent proportions of which each one could be assertained.



Maybe I feel this way because I have not yet found true love. Like I said this is my beliefes, from my experiances.

This morning, I changed my usual habit. I would usually hold off and Iron my clothes and shine my boots between morning exercises and breakfast, instead I did those things last night, in order to allow for a little personal exploration. I sat down after getting dressed with a pad of paper and a pen. I have done this only once before, but the outcome was much diffrent. Today, after this twenty minuet session, I had two seporate poems, showing what was truely going through my head. Now I said I would never post one of my poems on this site, but I have grown to be more open with everyone here, you're like a family to me, so I will be putting them up over the course of this online session for me....

Greetings everyone, and welcome to my next entry, and I know it's been a while. So the news from then till now.



Yep, I'm still in Korea with the Army. I uess you can say I'm doign ok, but I'll get to that in a minuet, at least I'm alive. Where should I start. Ok, well I've been working hard on vehicles lately, trying to get them ready for where ever they are going, but things are starting to slow down in my motor pool. I'm still waiting or news on what my next unit will be, its sounds like I'm wither going to a Field Artillery unit or a Cavilry unit, I hope nither is true.



My status is changing constantly I am now a shade (for those of you who care, but didnt bother to check before reading this) and I have also been promoted again in the Army it always seems to be at the same time...



My mental state....thats a bit tougher of an issue. For those of you who knew I was dating someone and talked to her one here, she ;eft me a message via rate and a journal entry, it was "the hardest thing she had to do" and I was the one it pertained to. I'm not mad at her, I completely understand what she was going through with us, but there was nothing I could do, change is the only constant in this world, so instead of having a girlfriend, I had a girlfreind and am currently grieving over her, but driving on. I sent her an email and said something to her, hopefully I can send this package out to her soon so she can get something else that I want to tell her.......



Anyway, a lot of goings one here this month for recreation. I got to see and meet Skid Row and Quiet Riot last night at a free USO show here on my base, and even got to hang out with them after the autograph session and meet their families and what not, they are all some really cool guys, a little old ow, but still really cool. And nw Iget to make my sister mad cuz she's the one who sparked my interest in them. :-P Next weekend is a Mark Wills and Jolie Edwards concert, also a free USO show here on post. I am very much looking forward to that one as well.



For an update on reading material, I am missing only one book from the Vampire Chronicals of Anne Rice, but have only just started the fourth book (Tale Of The Body Thief) I hope that I will be able to start the other Series or at least be able to purchase them before I leave.



Well thats all I have for now. To those who took the time to read this, take care, and enjoy your life.