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Don't cry for

me don't dare

shied one tear



Because I don't

deserve it



Don't give me

your sorrow



Because I don't

want it



Don't try to

help me



Because the

pain will increase



I don't want

to shied tears

and show my

weakness



I want to

control the emotions

I hold within



Things you

don't know

I do



The pain

increases

each time



Each time

I try to

breath



I try to

think



Think of

you and

your troubles



To forget about

the past and

start new



The little girl

I know has

faded way to

a young women



Just like silver's

shine fading into

a dull gray



I try to control



I try to hide



Nothing works



I'll hide

myself

away from

this world



Hide the

pain and

hide the

sorrow



So you

don't know



So you

will never

know

I can't help

but cry when

I look into

the mirror

and see

the monstrosity

I have become



Those who

ridicule

me every

day are there



I try to push

the pain and

the sorrow

and the anger

away but I just

end up exploding

in the end



Pushing away friends

pushing away family

i can't handle it

any more i just

want to get away



Who is that girl

I see staring

straight back at me?



who is she that

freak the one

people point and

fear at



that girl is

me the freak

the evil twin

the monstrosity

the one people fear



the one people

don't see as good

only as bad

the one who is the

problem child



the freak



the evil twin



the monstrosity



the abnormal



the one who is not real



the girl who stands before

you in school and seems like

nothing is wrong but

when she goes home she cries

she hides her pain, her sorrow

and her hatred her anger



you never knew and

now you know



and now that you

do know what are

you going to do

next time you see her

in the hallways?



are you still going to

ridicule her?



are you still going to

criticize her?



are you going to call

her names and make

her push everyone away?



or are you going to change?



change for the better to

treat others like how they

should be treated?



that is my question to you

what are you going to do

will you criticize her call

her a monstrosity



or will you change and

learn that though she is

different she is just the

same as everyone else?



Well? Make your Choice

Click

by Lady Danica

2-14-06

(dark,personal,sad)



A call on

the phone



I missed it



a voice-mail



"hey it's me

I won't be at

school tomorrow

don't worry I'll talk

to you later but

i just wanted to

say I love you"



click he hung up



sleeping as

the night

goes on i

wake up to

my phone

ringing



"hello?" saying half awake



"Help me."

click he

hung up



It was him

the same as the

voice-mail



questioned and worried

i can't call back its

to late at night



Uneasily i go back

to bed and try

to sleep



Next morning

walk downstairs



father sits on the

couch TV isn't on

he's just looking down



"whats wrong dad?"

I ask



"theresa, your friend

you know the one

over yesterday?"



"yea." i smiled

a good friend he

really is



"Honey he

passed away

last night." he

committed suicide"



dropping my books

i fall to my knees



"no this can't be."



tears swell up in

my eyes. they

fall greatly



"why didn't

I call him

back last night

when he asked

for help?"



"i could have

saved him."



'its all my

fault"



"he warned

me"



"he's dead

because of

me."



screaming

tears fall

over and over



"Why GOD WHY?!"



Holding myself

tight i stand and

run out the

front door



cold i can see

my breath



I just keep running



in and out of the

middle of morning

traffic



running away



this didn't happen



my phone rings



i look down



a voice-mail



"theresa don't cry over

me the tears you sheid I

don't deserve. I love you

and I could never have you."



he sighed and went on



"hear my

words my

love will always

be yours

I am looking

down upon you

even now as you

hear my voice

for the last time."



"I will always

love you"



click.



tears swell

they fall

he's truely

gone. the

phone rings

i pick up



"i love you

and i always

will" click

it was him



but how he passed

away last night

how?



beyond the grave

he called to say

good bye

for the last time



tears fall and

i collapse on

the ground



gone, his spirit

is in the heavens

he's free



free fom the

pain and the sorrow

of the life he left

behind



even now i

can see his

face in my

mind and in

the sky above



I love you to

I truely will miss

you my love



but why

did you

have to

leave?



Make up

smudging



as the tears

drag it

lower and

lower down

my cheeks



why did you leave?

I loved you

and you left



but that is the

way and the

path you choose



I can understand

I love you

good bye



this is just

good bye

my love



click.