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21:37 Sep 30 2007
Times Read: 680




I am SO EFFIN EXCITED ....

after years of my cousin Joey.. hounding and begging me, i finally went head first into his site and checked it out .. with prodding from him about how he has artists that make a living from their work there, and him showing me how simple some of the comics are...

i broke down (after he went in and MADE me an account lol) and started up a page.

My first .. just to get used to doing it and working with his site .. i was just one of my images and a lil blurb to go with it ..

And then alla sudden today .. a stupidly funny idea came to me about a comic ...

and i posted the first installment ... TODAY !!!

WHOOOOPPPPP !!!!

















This is the link to the ONE SHOT .. my "just experimenting" page...





And THIS .... is the link to what is going to be my series .. In The Dark



YAY !!!!

Submission And Pain (free verse waxing random profane)
18:00 Sep 30 2007
Times Read: 685

it has to hurt

in order for me to feel it

sometimes thats what i think

i cant even feel good

without it hurting

it has been such a part of me all my life

my submission

why do i sometimes now wish

that it would just go away

never forever .. just for a while

that which makes me who and what i am

is truly my biggest fault

what does that say about me

fear holds me back

pain holds me together

i like to think

that i dont bring it upon myself

but i keep it in

thats where it gains its strength

and thats how it tears me apart

is one pain "better" than any other

should the pain of letting my feelings be known

hurt worse than the pain the reaction will bring

fear

and pain

indecision

not knowing

and more pain

hold my peace and hurt from that

say my piece and hurt just as bad

my submission

my blessing

my curse

my beginning

my end

i let it hold my tongue

and i let it break my heart

i let it rule my life

i let it set me free

and i let it hold me down

am i so hard to read?

an entry from someone elses journal ..
17:32 Sep 30 2007
Times Read: 688

i wont name her ...

but this one really got me ..

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Do you ever just feel so dark, so ugly, so depressed that you dont care if you get hit by a mack truck? Ever wanted to just hit yourself in the face with a hammer, not because you enjoy pain, but because it will bring you one step closer to being six feet under? Do you close your eyes every night only to pray that you dont have to open them in the morning? Or open them in the morning only to curse god and say to yourself, "Oh shit, another fucking day"......



Have you ever picked a fight with someone twice your size or ten times stronger than you hoping that they will beat you into the form and mentality of a vegetable, then pray that your family will pull the plug? Even if they dont, you will be too gone to notice or care. Have you stocked up on so many pills that your bathroom looked like a pharmacy, then took them all, only to wake up three days later with a headache and a craving for vodka? Have you ever turned off all of the lights in your house and covered yourself with a blanket and pretended that you were buried in a really soft coffin?



When you accidentally cut yourself do you let it bleed with the wishful thinking that your platelets will forget their job? Remember, your mom telling you not to lean too far over the pond in case you fall in because you cant swim, and then you do it anyway? This is my daily mental train of thought. Welcome to my world, sorry I missed you. Come back soon.......



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yes ...



the answer is yes ...

OMG WHEW !!!!
22:11 Sep 25 2007
Times Read: 695




Your Status: Shaitan (Level 18)



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sssshhhhhhh .. look quietly .. its a very timid animal subject to RUN AWAY at the slightest movement !!!!!

UGH !!! lol stuck stuck stuck
21:03 Sep 25 2007
Times Read: 696




i dont think i am EVER gonna make it past 75% !!

of THIS LEVEL !!!!

one of mine
12:50 Sep 17 2007
Times Read: 743

i didnt make THIS one ...
12:28 Sep 17 2007
Times Read: 744

but i like it >;)

ugh
13:56 Sep 12 2007
Times Read: 748

i know .. some title huh? lol

i just .. felt the urge to write in here today and well.. i dont have shit to say really LOL !!!

I'm sitting here on my couch, with Emmy curled up beside me .. waiting on enuff time to roll by before calling my daughter... we are supposed to go to my Nannys today .. but i have mail coming in that i would much rather be home waiting on...



i seem to be in an imaging SLUMP .. i was asked to make a few stamps last night and i DO have good ideas for those .. but for myself .. just to be creating IMAGES .. im just stuck .. i hate when that happens lol



im still stuck at level 17 .. at a low percentage rate .. and i gotta tel yah lol i am beginning to think i dont even WANT to go any higher LOL !! .. i rate and view and spend more time on here than i prlly should ... and still .. i go back and forth . and the highest i get is 34% . UGH ! LOL



geesh... i need to hush lol

today
13:18 Sep 11 2007
Times Read: 751

is NOT gonna be a good day i dont think...

i sure wish i could get my "foreboding" feature turned off .. i swear this smothering feeling ... is gonna get me

all i can do is try
18:02 Sep 09 2007
Times Read: 761

three times today .i have written here .. and dumped it ..



there are just some things .. i am having a hard time dealing with



i cant help it