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cant sleep

as long as i am sitting up, i am fine.

but as soon as i lay down and get comfy ...

HACK HACK COUGH COUGH



okay

im done whining

thank GAWD we dont have to work tomorrow!

well, haha JIMMY does, but Julia and i dont have to.



tonight, the two of them have gone to a cookout at our bosses place, JP. He's frying catfish and fries and such. I was invited, but i just didnt wanna go. It's gonna be ALL couples, or young pretty teens and twenties kids, and i just didnt think i would feel very comfortable there, yanno?? SO, im sitting here in my nice cool hotel room, enjoying the FUCK outta the fact that i am NOT on my feet lolol



The cough is still bad, but it HAS eased up some on me when i am sitting or standing, and i am seriously thinking about a trip to Walmart when they get back from JP's, to buy me a fucking bean bag, or a lounge chair or something... something i can sit up in and get COMFY enough to fucking sleep! I am soooo tired, and its more from lack of sleep than it is the work and walking. When i came in from work today, i hadnt had a coughing spell in hours, so, thinking i might catch a nap, i didnt even shower first, i just kicked off my boots and collapsed onto the bed without even turning the covers down. I dozed off, and was JUST slipping into a really stupid dream, when the barking began lol.. cough cough cough cough cough ACK !



i HATE this shit.. and i REALLY need a good nights sleep.. if i could get comfy sitting in this dang hotel room chair haha i would sleep here .. but . alas i cant...

i miss Bunka and Melly ... GOD how i miss them ... i just keep telling myself that i a doing this FOR THEM.. its like my mantra now.. "Its for the babies .. Its for the babies .. Its for the babies"



and its just til September

that isnt a that far away

right?



i miss my girlies

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Sinora
10:59 Jun 29 2008

I never could sleep sitting up, hopefully you will be so tired today you will just crash.



Your children are lucky to have a mother like you....just keep thinking how great that first hug from them will be in September...which as you say is not very far away.

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ugh

no fucking sleep last night

coughed and coughed and FUCKING coughed



hopefully today will go like yesterday, and Jerry Paul said we'd probably get off a little early, (like maybe an hour or two)



Tonight is the cook out at Jerry Pauls... i doubt im gonna go .... i mean.. its gonna be ALL couples and young folks, and i just dont think ima be very comfortable there, yanno??



id rather just sit here at the hotel, nuke me up some supper, an watch my movies... i still havent watched Sweeney Todd (fell asleep the other night watching it lol) and i have The Mist also, and i really wanna see that!



Yesterday i got my first check. for 34 hours i MADE 612, and brought home 547.. that AINT SHABBY folks!!.. my next check (in two weeks) will be for 80 regular hours (18/hour) and somewhere around 40 over time hours(27/hour) and THAT my friends. KICKS SOME MAJOR ASS!!!



but i miss my babies SO much...



but the money is soooooo good....



my feet are still hurting lol and my legs DAMN at the walking and standing i gotta do ... and the fact that i am NOT sleeping worth a FUCK isnt helping at ALL.. i feel like i could pass out right now...quite easily actually, but.. its time to put my socks and pants on and slide into those DAMN steel toed boots lol



i have to do laundry tomorrow ACK.. but thats all.. we did a lil grocery shopping yesterday, so i have lunch stuff to last me a while...



GAWD i feel like shit...

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ladygoddessaries
15:23 Jun 28 2008

Hang in there woman~

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Sinora
15:46 Jun 28 2008

I know this is probably an obvious question, but have you seen a doc about that cough ?



Unless you have a cold, a cough that keeps you awake for more than a couple of nights maybe should be investigated ?



Hope you enjoy Sweeney Todd.

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KamarillaKaine
02:14 Jun 29 2008

im trying to hang in there aries lol *hugs*



and yes Sinora hun, i have seen a Doc.. i have had this cough all my life, in fact, they thought i had whooping cough as a chilld. its some sort of allergy they THINK, and i have taken every med known to MAN for aergies and hayfever... nothing works for very long, my body adapts to the meds and eventually becomes allergic to the med, bad on occassion. I cant take penicillin now as i am deathly allergic to it after taking so much when i was younger..



so.. i try to deal with it and wait it out... sometimes it lasts a few days, sometimes a few weeks.. sometimes i go MONTHS or even a year or two without a spell of it, but it always eventually comes back..



*hugs to you both*

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omfg my feet hurt lol

I didnt get to work with Cody today, but i did get to hang out with Julia and TJ so that was cool, but OMFG we waked up and down a FUCKING steep hill a BAJILLION times hahahha



Tomorrow is payday, and i get a three day check :)

then it will be two weeks before i get a full check, but OMFG..80 hours @ 18/hour, then 40 hours @ 27/hour, that check is gonna KICK SOME major ASS!!



and OMG i miss my babies :(

its getting harder to talk to them on the fone, Bunka tunes up and nearly cries every time now... bless her heart.... i miss her so much... i find myself wondering if the money is worth it.. in some ways it really is... and in others.. not so much..



ugh

i want my babies :(

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xxEmaeraldxx
00:41 Jun 27 2008

wow, kickass monies! Cool, that will go a long way ..what is you do whilst you walk up and down hills?

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check out this pic of my view on the way to work in the mornings ...





and DAYUM, i am sooo tired when i come in, in the evenings, most times all i do is eat a bite, take a shower, and collapse lol. im going to bed before the sun goes down !! *faints*



BUT... im NOT sleeping too good, the coughing thing is still going on, and i have to get up at 4:30 am to start getting ready . right now its 4:12, i woke up early coughing (imagine that)



So, they fired my original operator, Monty, and i was really surprised that i wasnt sent home when he was haha... but now i am working with Cody. He's really nice. 30, married, three kids, and a DECENT guy. how rare is THAT? lol



got my 1400 bucks per diem Monday evening, and having done SOME shopping and paying for my own hotel room, i am damn near broke now lol BUT... i get my first paycheck this Friday, and then on Monday i get the 700 per diem :)



i sent a package home to the babies yesterday.. i got Melly and Bunka one of those horse statues that we have been looking at for a couple years in the catalogs that Laura gives us, but we have never been able to afford..... and i bought myself an AWESOME watch with KoKoPelli's all around the watch band!!.... its getting adjusted, and i am picking it up after work today... i'll get a pic and post it :)



heres another shot of the sunrise on the way to work ...





time to get dressed ....

ugh

this "Colorado Crud" is gonna EFFIN kill me i swear....



didnt sleep for SHIT last night, coughing all day (wheres muh smokes??)... im fucking miserable, and i miss my kids soooooo bad ... i just keep "KEEPING Y EYES ON THE PRIZE" as Julia says. and sometimes it helps lol



i got the room again for the night.. and i told them that i will be paying for it again tomorrow after work, its nice to be able to spread out when i want, get half nekkid when i want, and not feel like i hafta go when i dont wanna cuz i dont wanna stay at the hotel with jimmy hahahahah



but i GOTTA say, i am enjoying getting to hang with Julia SO MUCH... i KNEW i missed her but didnt realize just how much til i got to be around her again.



FUCK i am soooo sore from coughing, my sides hurt, my throat hurts, and its a MUSCLE sore, not a sore throat sore, if that makes sense, even my damn tongue is sore from coughing

im just fucking miserable and i am getting DAMN tired of people telli9ng me its my smoking!!



yesh yesh i KNOW the cigarettes are PART of the problem, but people, i wasnt smoking when i was three years old and had this persistant cough, when the DRs thought i had whooping cough, when i was fed penicillin like most kids were fed M&M's until I became DEATHLY allergic to it..nope i WASN'T smoking back then.... I PROMISE!!



smoking is my ONE vice lol and i AINT ready to quit



ok



rant over



i still hate coughing my guts up and not being able to sleep



wow.. went off into left field there :P



work tomorrow at 6am... prollly gonna be one of those "hurry up and wait" days again, but HEY... for 18/hour, i can do it :)



i miss my babies :(

oops

went to sleep before i could write this entry earlier :D



yesterday (since its 3:15 am now! yikes haha) was a boring ass day at work... but hey, i dont mind being bored for 18/hour lol but DAYUM that day seemed to last forEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!



I got my own room for the weekend, i needed some alone time and i KNOW J&J needed some NO T time lol



i got set up in my room, got the laptop out and chatted a few minutes, took a shower.. and DIED lol



now, im wide awake at 3:25 am...ack!!



we might be going to the Strawberry Days Festival in Glenwood SPrings some time this weekend, and theres a small possibility that we will be meeting up with friends there, which would be awesome, im looking forward to seeing both of them again.



i miss my babies... i talk to the girlies everyday, and usually Holly too, and JonChase every couple of days, but its not the same.. and hearing Bunkas lil voice... just tears me UP... i miss them so much, and with the new things in Bunkas life, i feel like SHIT for not being there for her.... but i aso know that me working here and making the money that i am is good for them, i am gonna be able to do so much for them.. i just fucking HATE that i am sooooo fucking far from them...



im watching MOTLEY CRUE on Larry King Live. gawd the boys are still HAWT! :)



okay i think ima go back to bed lol

ack


o sleep at night

all i could do was doze between coughing spells

i am so tired right now that i CANT sleep, but of course the cough wouldnt let me any way...



talked to all four kids today ...

bunka... my baby bunka.. is NOT a baby any more :(

she started. at ELEVEN years old :(

and i HATE that i am not there for her.... she seems ok.... a tad freaked out and REALLY missing me now though.. part of me REALLY wants to take that Saturday flight home..

i KNEW i was gonna miss my babies but this is ALOT worse than i thought it was gonna be..



work today was CRAZY!

i have thanked the goddess a million times that my dad isnt an operator in the pipeline.. as i sat and watched men LITERALLY HANGING offa the side of a c death i was about t o see one go tumbling...



i even CALLED my dad and told him that i am glad he isnt an operator... man it was some scary shit i tell yah...



ONE MORE DAY

at east i HOPE its just one more day .... theres always the chance that we will work the weekend.. but SO FAR they havent said anything more abut it



im hoping to get to hang out with WC and PD again soon, but i wanna wait til i get a good paycheck under muh belt :D my first check, not tomorrow but the NEXT, but it will only be for one week, then the next pay period (2 weeks later) i will get a full two weeks pay ..



im tired

im making plans for my return trip already lol

all i can say ish



LOOK OUT MICHIGAN !!!!



*evil, WICKED grin*

first day real work

*flops onto hotel bed and tries to die*



no seriously, I got to work with Monty, an older guy that hired in the same day we did, and get this he is from Bama!! lol but no where near me. He's nice though, and the work today wasnt hard... and my boss?? is a peach.... we call him JP, and hes cool, and Monty is MUCH nicer than the Steve Dude from Wyoming.



Talked to ALL FOUR of my kids today, and my Nanny, and my mom cuz its her birthday. Bunka is still kinda upset, but it helps her that i call her when i can.. They were at Nannys today, so that worked out good since i havent taked to her sincei left Bama...



im tired... but when i sit here and think that i earned (12x18=216? +100= CLOSE TO 300)

DAMN NEAR 300 dollars today.. i can handle the tired :)

maybe

lol



julia just ogt outta the shower

i think ima get in there before jimmy can

haha

we cant decide what to do for supper

i know i needa do SOMETHING soon hahah

jimmy is just .. procrastinating lol

HE doesnt wanna hafta go get it i think

and i am typing pure bullshit

so

ima shut up :)

welp, i have spent a nice relaxing day piled up in the hotel room hahahah

Julia and Jimmy went house hunting today, we're hoping to rent something since the company hotel is full :(



with 300/day coming in between the three of us for living expenses, we can afford something pretty DAMN nice, the problem is, nothings furnished, and we didnt exactly come here with furniture and pots and pans lolol



julia and jimmy are getting ready to go out to eat, i think ima stay here and let them bring me something back... i have been stuck up their BUTTS since i got here lol so i think letting them hang out WITHOUT the Kami third wheel is a good idea lol



PLUS... honestly, im enjoying just being by myself some too haha



my "Colorado Crud" isnt getting much better.. i think my body is allergic to fresh mountain air LMFAO.... seems all i can do is cough cough cough UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH



so.. since they are headed to the OUTLAW RIBS restaurant, I'm thinking about baby backs and a nice big baked potato :)



ni ni VR

so, here i am in Colorado now....

we took our drug tests today, and we cant start work until the results come in, and of course al three of us will pass.... cool thing is we will be getting our 100 a day per diem for these three days :D.... and we also found out that, NEXT Monday we will be getting two weeks per diem.. CASH MONEY.... peeps, that means 1400 dollars, cash money!! all at one time !! *faints*



Colorado is beautiful.... the fucking mountains are amazing.. even prettier than Wyoming.. and THATS saying alot !



Julia and I went and got our nails one today :D and those who know me WONT be surprised to learn that i had mine done a little odd lol.. its a KAMI version of the french manicure... the nail base is BACK and the tips are white, and theres a silver strip(very thin) between the two colors lol.



Sandy turned out to be the usual male CROCK OF SHIT... seems i have no better luck in real life than i do over the internet.. liars, cheaters, and bullshitters.. if it has BALLS, and its mouth moves.. dont trust it lol



Meeting WC and PD was AWESOME... what a fucking great couple they make.... might just have to ask permission to post up the pic i have of the two of them together.. so cute.. and *ahem* i NEVER thought I would like ANY man in a kilt better than Axl Rose.. hehehe.. but WC topped the scale lol



its ten pm here as i write this... this is the latest I have stayed up since I came west.... Julias snoozing..well.. lemme rephrase that... SNORING away over there lol... and Jimmy is sleeping quietly... hopefully soon we will get into the company payed hotel rooms, that way I will have a room all to myself.. not that i dont love these two, or that there have been any problems, cuz they are GREAT... we just need some elbow room hahaha



taked to my Dad on Sunday ... he wasnt as upset as i expected him to be.. he was more worried about me being so far from home... also talked to the babies... hearing Bunka, and her ASKING why i hadda go so far away ... hurts my heart.. i just have to keep reminding myself that its THEM i am doing it for in the long run.



Here in Colorado, I will be making 18 FUCKING DOLLARS AN HOUR !! and thats NOT one of my infamous typos people!! thats ALMOST twice what i was making in Wyoming!!.. easier to understand the move now huh?? lol... right now the per diem is the 100 a day, but once we get into the companies hotel, it drops to 50 a day since they are paying the motel bill... i think i can live with that lol



well, i think ima turn in.. i cant promise an entry every day once we start working regularly.. as it may be seven days a week for a little while.. eventually going to five days/12 hours a day and getting paid for 7 days per diem (350 a week if they are paying the motel bill woot !!! CASH on Monday evenings !! thats like getting a small check at the beginning of the week and a HUGE check at the end of the week !!!!!!)



okay... wasnt i signing off??





KK