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I feel good,but kinda sad.I find the spirituality in all things good and bad.Only I'm lonley.I mean I can see it in a good light as: I have time to myself and to make my oils and inscense,talk to the goddess and Anupu but my heart is hurting.It's not going to kill me,spiritualy it makes me stronger.but lonely isn't any fun.I have never really felt Love,with animals yes but not the kind I believe there is between my Mate and Me.I'm starting to feel there is no one out there for me.Yes I have Loved,but never been in Love.I have my friends and family but it's not the same.I think I don't want to be any stronger if I have to be lonley to achieve it.Hell in mortal years I'm 48,you wouldn't believe me if I told you how old I really am.Well this is rambleing.So I'll end with this



I want to believe you are out there,but my expierence so far says you'r not.