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Disclosure- I tried talking to her about it but she didn't want to hear it so I'm going to write it here to get it off my chest. She'll still give me shit even though I tried talking to her first. Meh I got shit today for nothing so yeah.



Woke up in a good mood but that didn't last long. I didn't get much sleep the night before last cause I was at my aunts and some shit went down. Long story and this entry isn't about that. So I slept a lot today since I slept so shitty then. Woke up late but I figured it wouldn't be a problem. I spent the day texting my girl. Good for me because I like days where I just text her all day. It makes me happy, usually. Not today so much though because about half way through the evening she starts acting weird. (Side note, I have straight talk cell service. It's not a super awesome service but the prices are within my budget so I manage. Especially since I not only need long distance but unlimited minutes as well so for $45 bucks it's worth it to me but it's far from reliable. Sometimes I get bad reception and sometimes especially during storms (much like it's doing now but I'll get to that) the texting goes awiry. She'll not get mine or I won't get hers. Or I get nothing from her only to get all of hers all at once ect it's not the best (she's giving me shit as we speak cause she has my name on her phone thingy and she says I'm choosing vr over her when I totally don't do that as I tried talking to her to begin with) by far) anyway she starts saying I'm taking forever to reply to her texts. Now that would be okay if I were taking forever. On MY end I was replying right away but I guess on hers it was taking longer and it seemed like I was doing something else (which I certainly wasn't) instead of texting her. I've had straight talk cell service for over 3 years now so you'd think she'd be used to how it acts and at the very least ask me (which she did) if I was busy (which I honestly replied that I was NOT busy.) So she starts giving me shit saying I had to be busy and basically that there was no other option then my having to be busy. I thought this was a silly thing to start arguing over so I promptly told her I wasn't going to fight about small shit and that I wasn't going to let her make me get to that point. Well she responded that I should get a new phone (which I can't afford) or a new carrier (which I also can't afford) I told her that I needed the unlimited minutes to talk to her and that she shouldn't attempt to solve a minutes problem by suggesting we talk less because I wasn't going to do that. Her response? Maybe if I talked less I'd care more about her. Uh.. Wtf? I practically worship this girl. Not like "Oh she's my goddess and fuck the rest of the world" but I really care about her. I've put things I've needed off to talk to her, I've stayed up comforting her when she has a headache even though I only slept two hours the night before and I've put up with a lot of stuff just like she's put up with a lot of my stuff. I'm not complaining as a matter of fact I enjoy putting up with her shit. She's an awesome girl and she makes me happy when she's not trying to fight over silly stuff. So she hangs up on me when I told her that it kinda pissed me off that she would say I don't care about her. After she hangs up I call back only to have her basically say I'm a liar and that I only wanted to talk to her because she was in a certain mood and that I always respond with a quick text when she mentions that mood and if it wasn't for that mood I'd have taken longer this time which just wasn't true at all. Which is what sucks about this evening. I don't put her off just because she's not in that mood. I don't talk to her more often when she's in that mood. That mood to me is a plus and if she never gets in that mood fine with me I'll deal with it. So now I've got all that off my chest. She's been texting me this whole time saying I suck that I'm an asshole and that I probably hope they make a mistake at her dental appointment and she bleeds to death. That comment really bugs me. She knows how I am about death and how much it bothers me. She's just trying to hurt me and I guess I should give her what she wants and say it right here, that did hurt. Then she tells me she had a guy hit on her at work and maybe he'll ask her out again tomorrow and maybe he'll take her to the dentist because I can't and again how much I apparently suck. Then she says "oh you pick vr over me so now I'm going to go find someone who will give her what she deserves because I don't and she suggests I do the same. *sighs* I'm just really disappointed with this evening. I may or may not have a girlfriend now, I don't know. Which sucks because in the 6 years we've been together I've never once broken up with her. Ever. She's the one for me and apparently she's saying I'm not the one for her which sucks majorly. My head is killing me and I'm going to lay down. Maybe the rain will help me sleep. I don't know. I doubt I'll get sleep again tonight and when I get cranky that'll be my fault too. Ugh. *sighs again* I hope she has an awesome day tomorrow and if she goes out with that guy I don't know what I'll do. *sighs again and rubs his eyes* I love you baby. I really do. I hope you remember that.