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Aaaaaaannnd of course it's storming. :'(

#ballisoutofmycourtnow

#gettingthesilenttreatment

Well today was eventful. I was in charge today because my department manager is on vacation and her temporary replacement had the day off. I kinda like being in charge. I don't think I'm ready to be in charge all the time but I do think I can handle being her temporary replacement next year for her vacation.



I had two nose bleeds at work so that sucked. Luckily the first one was on my lunch and the second one didn't last that long. So I think I lucked out there. It bled once more once I got off work.



I caught a wild Gloom on pokemon go today. I also got a Jolteon. So over all today was eventful like I said. Go me or something along those lines.

Fuck today. I'm over it. And I get to go back and do it all tomorrow bright and early at 7am. Go me.

So I've been laying here for the past two hours just thinking. About life about love about random things. I'm going to rant here so if you're not into that just pass by now and save yourself the snooze fest.



I've come to find out my life has literally flipflopped from a year ago. I went from having no job and no money but an amazing relationship to having a job to getting a promotion with two raises and a better working environment with a little money left over after bills and a car but no relationship. It's like when I was poor and had nothing but time it was magical but once I got a few responsibilities we just couldn't make it work. And honestly it sucks because I really wanted to share all aspects of my life with her. And I know 50% of that is me. I couldn't handle the work hours and the time difference our locations gave us. I couldn't handle stress from so many different angles and once and I wasn't as attentive as I should have been. I get that. I get my part. I could have handled it better. That's all on me. I'm equally to blame here but EQUALLY means the other way too. I'm not to blame for it all. Enough said.



I've been playing Pokemon GO like I'm sure a lot of you have been. I'm super stoked about my Jolteon tbh. I haven't purchased any of the micro transactions yet but I could see myself dropping maybe 20 bucks on getting some pokeballs as the 3 those shops give you every time are no where near enough if you want all eeveelutions. I don't live by any stops close enough to do rounds so blah to my town.



Bought 7 Days to Die on ps4. I actually preordered that game the day it was announced for ps4. My brother got it too and he's been playing it with me. We aren't amazeballs but we do alright and have a blast doing it. I got killed by a bear twice tonight cause I seem to love running off with meat on me at all times like aint no bear ever smelled raw meat and thought "I need to get me some of that" or anything. Hey though it's an awesome game.



I can't sleep. It's like I keep thinking and hearing music in my head. I was talking to my boss the other day about music and when I told her Blue October was my favorite band she recommended Kodaline since we have the same taste in music. They aren't as cool as Blue October or Skillet but they're pretty good. This song they have called Love Like This has been stuck in my head all day. The music video is weird yet fitting and honestly if my brother hadn't pointed out the knife at the end I would have missed it.



I'm not happy. Not by a long shot. There's a lot of things I wish I could change about the way my life is going right now. I wish things were perfect but maybe they aren't supposed to be. Maybe if we don't have something to challenge us throughout life maybe that's what causes it to get boring. Sure I'd like it to challenge me in different ways instead of always challenging me where my heart goes but meh. I'm luckier than most. I love her and i know it. If she can't see that then it's on her. I can only do so much. I can't make money appear out of thin air so my financials are where they are for the time being. I could end up moving up again though but I'm not sure yet. We will see what the future holds. I'm sure bears will end up being the least of my concerns on day 49 or whatever the worst zombie horde happens on and honestly if I end up not sleeping because of music stuck in my head I'm doing better than I could be. I guess I'm writing this to show myself my life isn't as good as I want it to be but it's not bad. It's far from bad and if it doesn't get any worse then I guess I can live with how it is now. I'll always love you. I've never stopped and I never will. Do I wish I could change certain things? Sure. Don't we all? But in the end it is what it is. And maybe that's okay.