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It's 9:30 AM and I've baked two red velvet cakes which I layered with cream cheese frosting between them. Then I poured hot red Jello over them to make the red even red, the cake sweeter, and the gory effect even more pronounced. It's sitting in the fridge to set for another couple of hours and then I'll frost the whole thing with cream cheese frosting and attempt to decorate it. We've also made mini haunted house out of cardboard and painted it, made some paper mache' pumpkins, and now we've got to clean up and decorate. t-4hrs till party time.

Oh gawd! I shot my first wedding in over a year... man am I in sore need of another stint in boot camp. I'm so weak these days compared to what I once was. My feet, knees, and hips are killing me from being on my feet all day. I loved taking pictures though and it was soooo worth the pain.



I can't wait to get started working on making the photos into art. This is definitely a motivation to get in shape though. No way do I want to hobble around in pain after photoshoots.

I must be getting used to the southern weather because I'm FREEZING!!!! I hate trying to sleep when I'm hot, but trying to sleep when you're shivering beneath a thin blanket is no picnic either. I miss all my blankets! Stupid fire! Oh well, I guess I'll just have to turn up the heat.

My life is essentially boring and I'm not sure why anyone but me would want to read this, luckily I write this crap for myself. I try to write at least five times a week on here. Mostly just as a matter of keeping in a writing habit. I figure as long as I'm consistent about something maybe I'll eventually finish one of my projects. Problem is I just can't think of what to write. So here's my day. Up at 5:15 AM. Walk about a mile. Make sure the kid is getting ready for school. Drink Coffee. Eat Oatmeal. Drive kid to bus stop. 6:55 AM Jump in the shower. Bake muffins. Mess around on the internet. 10:00 AM Clock-in to work. Work, work, work, work. 6:15 PM Head home. Make vegetable beef soup. Write about my boring day for all of the rave to read.

Does anyone here do hub pages? I just started one for my poetry... not sure if it will pan out but what the heck, right?

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Angelus
15:55 Oct 30 2010

Looking Good in my Underwear



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a good piece



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a meaning, ever so clear.

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So I'm a little slow on the pop culture these days but I just watched the Runaways! First I thought these girls are too young for this shit... then I realized, minus the rock legend status and musical talent that was me at 15... shit I'm getting old. 15 year olds should not be living that lifestyle... I shouldn't have lived that lifestyle. I still fucking love Joan Jett, though!

Dear Mind,



I'm not sure what I did to make you leave. I don't even really remember a time when you were here... but somehow I just know that once... once you were here with me.



I just want to say I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you leave and I'm begging you to come back to me. If you don't get here soon I'm pretty sure they're gonna make me put on the strappy white jacket, and white is NOT my color.



Always,



Me

Here's the stitch... I'm never really me. Not in the real world, not here, not on any other plain. I can't be the "real" me there are too many sides of me to fill up one person, so I separate them out into masks. Masks of who I'd like to be, sides of me that don't work together with the others, different faucets of my personality, stuff like that. So when I say I'm not interested in on-line romance, don't get pissy. You don't know me, or anything about me, how can you possibly have faith in a facade... and I assure you it is a facade. I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings, but I can't really do anything about that except be honest. This isn't the real me, it's just a small part of me I choose to share here.

I've always chosen the personality over the package. The people I have loved have not usually been hot on the outside, but they've been unbelievably striking on the inside. I've never regretted passing on hot and going with not. The only time I let hot win... that's the one I regret.

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PandorasBx
03:26 Oct 24 2010

Wise choice :)

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xxBlueFairyxx
22:46 Oct 24 2010

you are a most genuine and sincere person. I have always noticed a person becomes more attactive as I get to know them.

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So here I go... drifting into insanity. I'm waiting for those dudes in the white coats to show up. Too bad I have so much to be sane for. I'd love to go all mad hatter and spend my life in a perpetual wonderland tea party.

Sometimes thats what having faith feels like, and there's razor wire and spike waiting for you to fall on them. I try not to stress, its a waste of time and energy. I try to stay positive because I believe that we get what we expect out of life. I really try not to let fear or worry win, but there are days when it's just hard, so hard.

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PandorasBx
21:44 Oct 21 2010

*Hugs*

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I sometimes wonder why women don't rule the world and then I'm reminded what emotional creatures we are. We might have all the right tools, but love, hate, anger, joy, sadness these are our Achilles heal. They're also what make us so lovely both inside and out. Now if we would all just learn to love ourselves, respect ourselves and not settle for less than we deserve than this world would be a better place. Be kind boys and girls... especially to yourselves.

Why is it easier for me to remain chipper and upbeat in the midst of a crisis and then when things are going somewhat smoothly, I start to spiral into depression. You'd think an associates in physc would help me to understand these things, but nope. I'm such a freak.

Well I was going to go to Leesville, LA and see my brother for the first time in a few years for Thanksgiving. However, they've decided to move... again. So now what shall I do with my little four days off? I'm thinking of taking my son to New Orleans so he can see where he was born and all that. Maybe to D.C. if my grandma is still alive. I wasn't allowed to see her last time I was there, but maybe it will be different this time. I'd say New York to see a friend, but she's newly engaged and madly in love so that's out. Oh well, choices, choices.

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imagesinwords
20:20 Oct 18 2010

Yeah, come here for Thanksgiving, eat with us, and take home a laptop! :D You can stay here for free too :)

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imagesinwords
20:34 Oct 18 2010

Stay free/eat free- all you need to do is pay for the gas here and back :D If you have other friends here to visit we can babysit while you go out. I am sure Christopher and Patrick can have fun here.

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Went to the local gay pride festival today. Good times. Small turn out but it was still fun. Good music. Crazy outfits. So proud of my kid. He said some amazingly wise and insightful things on the way home.

I was blessed with a car today. I paid a whopping $1 for it. I may not have alot of luck when it comes to gambling, but when it comes to the people in my life... I'm not sure I could get any luckier!

Life is good today. I have some tasty coffee. Just enjoyed a nice fried egg sandwich. The sun is shining, but the weather is cool. The leaves are changing. My son is sleeping peacefully. Most importantly i don't feel like killing myself or anyone else. Who could ask for me?

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Vampirewitch39
14:36 Oct 13 2010

:) Such simple things make you happy...like not wanting to kill someone. lol

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ImageMaker
15:00 Oct 13 2010

lol, any day that I'm not in danger of committing murder is a good one!

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Any of you watch The Ellen Show? It comes on at six in the morning here, which is just when I'm getting ready for the day. I've always admired Ellen's charitable endeavors and efforts. I was especially touched today.



She's been a driving force behind starting a foundation to help children who are the victims of bullying, and has raised $300,000 for the campaign so far. Awesome!!!



It breaks my heart that children are taking their lives because of the torment suffered at the hands of their peers. What are we teaching our children that they are so cruel to one another?

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PandorasBx
17:11 Oct 13 2010

I love her show, Ellen is amazing. I often think children can be more cruel than the adults, of course we know where they learned it from...sad.

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So I've only had a laptop for three days now and my house has already completely fallen apart... hmmm... can you say VR addiction?

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TheArtistRose
12:28 Oct 12 2010

Addicts! Aren't we all?

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Extreme weather changes; lots of pollen, dust and hay in the air; along with level orange (don't ask me I'm just repeating the weather dude) equals allergy hell for me! Somebody pass my the benedryl!