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Gone for awhile
13:12 May 28 2009
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Ok all, it's time to get serious with the packing and what not. I won't be on very much for the next month or so. I'm in the midst of moving and need to close up my house. Take care.

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sahahria
13:25 May 28 2009

We'll still be here when you return... just don't take all the crab cakes with you or Otter will hunt you down! :) I hope it all goes smoothly!

Building a story
13:51 May 27 2009
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I'm trying a new approach to my writing. Instead of just letting the story aimlessly flow, I'm trying to construct the story. Interesting process and a bit of a stretch for my brain to be honest. However, in theory it seems like a very good way to write a book.

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Who are we?
03:34 May 27 2009
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How define who we are? Is it by who and what is most important to us? Is it by the things we love? Is it the things we do? Maybe it is what we believe?

So much of that is fluid for most of us. Does that reflect our ever changing natures, and if so than how can we say people don't change?

Everything changes, it's a fact of life. There is no such thing as forever.

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LifesHermit
04:18 May 27 2009

Perhaps the real question is WHO defines who we are? Who defines YOU?

My reoccuring dream
03:17 May 26 2009
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I dream of you sometimes. Different dreams, different faces, but it's still you. I wake up with an aching emptiness in my chest. Drowning in a sorrow I can not explain and crying tears... tears that won't come at any other time.

When I write of the scream that just won't come or the pain that can not heal...

It's too intense to feel... to feel this loss, for what? For an illusion? For a fantasy? For a dream, nothing but a dream.

But the dream comforts me even while it drowns me in despair. As long as I dream of you, there is still hope that maybe somewhere... you are there.

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vampchica4
03:20 May 26 2009

I can directly relate to this one. I go through the same thing for my love.

Never lose the hope, hun.

IcyRayne
06:26 Jun 01 2009

Nope never lose it,it makes it unbearable inside.

I have the same dream but I am awake

Scattered
13:17 May 25 2009
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My mind is so scattered lately, it's hard to form a cohesive thought. The only thing that seems to flow is poetry, which is all well and good, but a body only has so much angst and wit to write the prose.

Maybe I need a long hike in the mountains, but with packing to move in a few weeks, who has the time. As I walk to work each morning ideas and stories swirl around in my head, but I'm not the babble into a tape recorder type.

Oh well, there's my whine for the morning, and yes I would like some cheese with it. ;-)

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The tools
03:04 May 25 2009
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They (those who have gone before us and succeeded) say if you are an "artist" you should always strive to practice your craft and carry the tools to do so at all times, that way if inspiration should strike you are prepared.

So if you're a writer always have a pen and paper, photographers should always have some sort of camera on them, and those who paint and draw should always have a sketch pad and pencil on them.

It is also said we should practice our craft everyday. So everyday I write, even if it's just a two line journal entry. I take a picture every day, even if it is just of my foot. Most of all I'm thankful for the creativity that flows through me everyday, and hope that I can remember to always nurture it so it continues to grow.

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Treasures
01:30 May 21 2009
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I just discovered the recipe portion of the DB!!! My son's Halloween Birthday Party is going to rock this year. I'm so excited I may just start making some of those recipes for "practice", lol.

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Guilty
22:39 May 20 2009
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I know better than anyone that forewarning is no escape from the responsibility of hurting someone. So ya... I'm guilty... again.

Here's the thing, I don't do monogamy, and I don't do long term and I can not do intense or deep.

It's no excuse, I know, but I am who I am, and unfortunately chastity just isn't my thing.

Take me or leave me, love me or hate me, do what you have to do.

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LifesHermit
22:58 May 20 2009

If someone knows who you are - knows that your desires and beliefs are a part of you that will not change for them - and they accept that, then they are they ones that take a chance, and thus have to accept the consequences of making that decision. It may not take away the hurt for them, but if they knew what they were getting into they cannot blame you for that hurt... And under those circumstances, neither you should you...

birra
03:24 May 25 2009

Most guys would probably think you're ideal...

Boys you don't want to read this one... really you don't.
14:44 May 19 2009
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OMG!!! I just found a vampire tampon case on the DB, LMAO. Do vampire's even need tampons?

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ThothLestat
17:33 May 19 2009

I think I gave it a 10, but I'm afraid to go back and check. It's just too weird.

vampchica4
20:19 May 20 2009

waite, what?!

vampire tampons? Please explain! (sorry guys)

Musings on vampires
13:55 May 18 2009
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As much as I love all things vampire, as I sit and watch the sun rise over the mountains, I think about the stories of vampires and sunlight. If such things were true, it would be terribly sad to never enjoy the wonder of the sunrise and the warmth of the sun's rays.

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IcyRayne
14:06 May 18 2009

I totally see you doing that.

Under the cover of night mischief reigns,it's when all come out to play.

Car Fire
23:57 May 17 2009
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My car caught fire today. Yep you read that right, my car caught fire. Managed to put it out, but burned myself in the process, then I got to walk three miles in a black suit and heels.

I'm hot, I'm tired, my blisters had baby blisters and those blisters had more blisters, now I'm gonna drink a gallon of water and sit on the floor and cry.

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twoforme
00:20 May 18 2009

sorry hun. my car did that once but I couldn't put it out. we had to call the fire department. damn insurance doesn't cover for it either.

good luck with car hunting

sahahria
00:25 May 18 2009

So very sorry :(

vampchica4
00:42 May 18 2009

just remember- at least you are still with us. it could have been worse

NocturnalMistress
07:56 May 18 2009

holy shit, you really okay Cacee???

birra
14:25 May 18 2009

Happy Sunday... hope you're ok.

Suprises
13:47 May 14 2009
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Just found out that Lawrence Fishburne is an incredible poet. Just saw him perform some on the Craig Ferguson Show. Must see if he has a book of it out somewhere.

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vampchica4
23:15 May 15 2009

tell me if he does!!!

One down a lifetime to go.
13:37 May 11 2009
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Yesterday was my first Mother's Day estranged from my mother. It was hard, still is. I wanted to honor her and let her know I still love her, but to do so would open the door on a relationship that is nothing but abusive and destructive. *sigh*

I wish things were different. I'm glad I made it through this first test and hope the rest will get easier.

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vampchica4
02:43 May 12 2009

stay strong. sounds like you passed.

IcyRayne
21:00 May 12 2009

I understand you on this doll,I never have to worry about Mother's Day and my mother,I can't find her,yet here I am all these years later and thankful.

You must go with what you feel no matter the heartache and I need to read these words myself.

Much love.

Ouch
16:07 May 07 2009
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My heart hurts. I let go of some people I loved dearly. It was for the best and I should have done it years ago. But it still hurts. When you spend your whole life trying to be whatever it takes to make something work, giving up and walking away is sweet release, but there is still a grieving process.

I just pray I have the strength to walk through it and not turn around.

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IcyRayne
13:31 May 08 2009

It hurts,you will get over it and be stronger for it.I am living proof of that trust me and as for strength,whelp doll I would go back in a instance to this certain someone so I can't advise you in the department.Just smile and do your thing.

Musings
14:08 May 07 2009
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Is the price of sanity or normalcy worth the price of creativity and authenticity?

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IcyRayne
13:32 May 08 2009

Nope it isn't..who wants to be sane and normal?

Now accepting cash donations!!!
14:38 May 05 2009
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Stupid car is gonna be the end of me. After all the money I've put into the damn thing I could have bought a brand new one. Off to drop it off at the shop again, then walk home. At least it's sunny and warm, nice day for a walk.

I'm accepting cash donations if anybody wants to give away their money.

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Knowing when to walk away.
04:14 May 04 2009
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The problem with abusive relationships is that they don't always leave bruises. They aren't always romantic partners. Sometimes it's family, sometimes it's friends. I think once you become an adult family may be the hardest to recognize, especially for the victim.

It gets so hard to walk away. There is a co-dependence involved with abusive relationships. A feeling that you can't possibly survive without those people in your life. If there wasn't then nobody would ever tolerate abuse.

The hardest part isn't know when to walk away, it's believing you can and live to tell the tale.

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Blackheresy
11:08 May 04 2009

Get a book called "the rules"

IcyRayne
01:56 May 06 2009

Sounds familiar

It's all gooood.
16:34 May 03 2009
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The sun is actually out, the grass is green, I'm feeling slightly better than death, and back to back reruns of America's Best Dance crew are on MTV2 today. Even if I can't have a sale to get rid of the rest of my junk today, I guess it's not all bad.

Time to curl back up in my jumbo bean bag with my blanket and some more hot chocolate.

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vampchica4
03:40 May 04 2009

Sounds fun!!

Flu bug
04:25 May 03 2009
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Gots the flu, not the piggy flu, don't worry even if I did I'm pretty sure you can't catch it from my journal.

Sucking down the chicken broth, water, and juice.

I hate being sick, unfortunately I have some health problems that make my immune system most uncooperative. Oh well at least I can watch spider man cartoons with my kiddo.

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Adventures in garage saling
23:22 May 01 2009
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So I'm going through my garage and opening boxes that have literally been through three moves with me. Now the point is to get rid of stuff, but as I open these boxes it's like Christmas and I'm finding all this stuff, I clearly don't need, but suddenly can't life with out.

gahhh, I'm such a dork.

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