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My grateful hatred bites your neck,

and rips out your heart

with the mercy I never got.

You knew this was my fear.

You know just what it does to me.

And even, now,

my bloody fingernails

can say so much about the nothingness

in my slowing heart.

I’m suffocating

on the blood that chokes me,

and I’m screaming,

screaming!

But you refuse to listen.

And no one else can hear me in the silence. Silence.

A memorable shiver reminds me

that I’m alone.

A resounding tick, tick, tick

describes my fled sanity.

Don’t talk;

Don’t breathe.

Don’t talk;

Don’t breathe.

Let the ignorance do its work.

You will be in some form of company soon. Broken glass shatters reopening old wounds

that are impossible, now to stitch.

I am an ugly little girl

when there’s no one to tell me otherwise.

I am an ugly little girl,

I am an ugly little girl.

Each time I find myself alone,

I sink farther,

farther.

Yet his music fills me up.

Is it happiness?

Is it companionship? No.

It is solely a feeling.

I had forgotten such a thing existed.

He’s not a well man.

I am not a well woman.

Silently we destroy one another.

Too bad he isn’t real.

This psychotic silence is tearing me apart.

The emptiness will cut the air that’s choking me, but I won’t fade forever.

I’ll only be alone.

The creaking door alerts me

that there’s nothing

outside this numb closet I live in.

Don’t you hear me stare?

Can’t you see me scream?

Do you know I’m scared to death?

My tear-sparkled eyes will tell you so much. They’ve been through hell

and they’ve witnessed death.

These tear-sparkled eyes need to finally rest. They’ve seen plenty of no one.

One day I’m determined to dance through death. My feet know the steps.

They will lead the way.

One giant leap.

And they will rest forever.