Fizbop's Vampire Journal

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Rammstein In the US!!!!
15:14 Sep 29 2010
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Rammstein to visit NYC OMG I want to go. Sadly can't afford to fly out to NYC just to go see them. No doubt they would be sold out being that this is the only show they are doing in the states.

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DestroyingAngel
21:40 Sep 29 2010

O M G!!!

That sucks serious balls! *has a fit*

BelovedxTwilight
01:17 Oct 02 2010

NYC is like an 8hr from me and I still wouldn't be able to make the trip LoL

BloodyJack
23:50 Oct 03 2010

Wow, that's awesome - unfortunately I cannot go as well. Damn.

I'm sure many will be enjoying a kick-ass concert though.

a 666 kinda day
03:46 Sep 28 2010
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So, I realized this morning when I wrote my journal yesterday that i'd be waking up at 6 am 3 days in a row.

6 6 6 . oddly enough I saw some smokes priced at 6.66 cents a pack. then passed by a motel 6 which i saw their logo 3 times 6 6 6 .

Then on my profile on myouterspace.com i had a visitor say he was the 666th person to view my profile.

I swear one more I'm going to lose it.

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BelovedxTwilight
03:52 Sep 28 2010

I would have been a little leery after the price of smokes LoL

eriklucifergarner
03:57 Sep 28 2010

That's awesome dude.

DestroyingAngel
04:07 Sep 28 2010

Stop pissing the devil off, Fiz. He's gettin' testy with you...lol. :P

shadowofmystry
03:41 Sep 29 2010

ok that is just weird and spooky

Laila696
15:55 Sep 29 2010

:o that's kinda cool though lol

bleh
19:49 Sep 26 2010
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Starting Monday morning threw wednesday morning I will be up at 6 am 3 days in a row. bleh

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DestroyingAngel
01:50 Sep 27 2010

Oh god ewww....

Im so sorry. *shivers*

XxTimaxX
00:06 Sep 28 2010

I hear ya. I am so not a morning person! I have to be up at 5 A.M. tomorrow. UGH!

Sorry.
22:14 Sep 25 2010
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It feels as though I have either said things taken out of context or misconstrued lately. Namine decided to end our relationship based on what other people have told her. What was said I have no idea, I just know now that she is no longer going to be with me no matter what.

I've said a lot of things based on what I was feeling at the time and maybe that was wrong of me. To any of you that feel I have I apologize for my mistakes.

I am human, I make mistakes. I error. I am imperfect. At this very moment I feel a part of me is dead.

As a friend I'm still here for you those of you that consider me one. I fucked up a lot and said things maybe I should not have said. To those of you that feel I have done this I apologize.

There's so much stress in my life right now. Now it's been even worse lately with half the shit I have to do.

If you forgive me for my errors my mistakes message me that you're still my friend if not then your free to go on your way.

We learn from our mistakes so it's said, maybe it's time that I learned from mine. Don't forget me.

I am truly deeply sorry you can take it as you want it I know that even me saying that may have very little merit for you. All I can say is it's true. It is your choice to believe it or not.

COMMENTS

LadyZombie
22:33 Sep 25 2010

*hugs Fiz* We zombies still gots love for you Fizzy

ladySnowStrixx
00:45 Sep 26 2010

we're find hun, if you can't blast your friends when needed then who can you ? besides if they were true friends they wouldn't take it seriously.

BrokenPixie
00:47 Sep 26 2010

The one winged pixie team is still on your side as well *hug*

SevenDeadlySinner
01:04 Sep 26 2010

every one makes mistakes and guess what??? I am not sorry for the mistakes i made, cause it made me who I am now. so live with no regrets unless you raped someone or killed with no reason of course :P

TheArtistRose
20:26 Sep 26 2010

aww Fizzy everyone makes mistakes. I'm still your friend along with these other comment posters.

DestroyingAngel
01:46 Sep 27 2010

*hugs*

Im sorry Fiz :(

XxTimaxX
00:07 Sep 28 2010

We will always be friends, Neil. I'm always here if you need to talk.

BelovedxTwilight
03:55 Sep 28 2010

I am sorry to hear you are going through a rough time; I do hope that things look up for you and yep, last I checked...we are still friends! :)

AVGN the MOVIE!!!!
21:19 Sep 24 2010
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Taste of things to come
06:15 Sep 20 2010
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So the avatar is something new and to tide you over until October 1st when a better avatar will take it's place what could it be who knows but me brahahaha. Just a taste of what I have in mind for my profile It will be glorious.

COMMENTS

MDLIVE13
07:31 Sep 20 2010

Thats great bro. ;)

ladySnowStrixx
15:59 Sep 20 2010

Wow, Cool it looks almost real no fair , I can't do that.

CrimsonShadowFox
04:28 Sep 22 2010

EPIC!!!! I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT IS COMING NEXT!!! Awesome

jaggedxtears
14:49 Sep 22 2010

Well, October 1st does mean the beginning of my count down to the best day ever! Can't wait to see what you got in store for us vr ppl!

Hurricane Igor why on earth pick that name.
01:34 Sep 20 2010
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Ok so is it bad that I love the name of one of the hurricanes Igor.

When I think of Igor my mind goes to this

Wonder if they will ever have a hurricane Neal.

COMMENTS

Laila696
04:16 Sep 22 2010

that's what i think of when they say Igor lol

jaggedxtears
14:50 Sep 22 2010

I don't mind the name but God I LOVE this movie!!!! Young Frankenstein!!!! I have it on DVD

BrokenPixie
00:43 Sep 26 2010

But that guy's name was "Igor" (said like "eye-gore) LoL Besides I have a Polar bear named Igor... I think they have had a Neal actually... Well I Googled it and they said Hurricane Neal was a Category 5 (Like Katrina) but the article was about some kind of tax loophole. Sorry man.

October plans.
16:52 Sep 15 2010
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Doing something with my profile starting October 1st.

Prepare for something Halloweeny.

"cuz that's the way I roll"

COMMENTS

CrimsonShadowWolf
17:52 Sep 15 2010

Cant wait to see it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KattrinaK
19:36 Sep 15 2010

Nice, I cheated and Halloween'd mine up already. : )

DestroyingAngel
09:29 Sep 16 2010

How about a nice pumpkin patch.....?

*giggles* :P

Something that's on my mind.
23:16 Sep 13 2010
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It's one of those days where I ain't feeling all that well about myself. Today I asked my mom "This may come off as dumb but am I stupid when it comes to the rest of the family." My baby sister 26 now. That shocks me even more I thought she just turned 22 . Time flies. Anyways, I look back at the collection of journal entries I have written. Go over some of the conversations that I have had with others. I really seem to find my self not as smart as many people think I am.

So the reason I state this is when my sister was a bit younger it seemed like she was talking over my level of comprehension. You're talking to a man that had remedial classes in High School . Took me 16 years just to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. From when I got out of High School. Funny thing about that is that I moved to Minnesota when i was 15 years old. So Half my life that I currently am living I been searching for that one thing that I'm extremely good at.

Yet I feel because I failed 1 class that it may not be what I'm extremely good at. I can barely model as it is. I'm barely good at doing textures. My artwork doesn't get much noticed I feel like asking myself why do I bother doing it.

Time and Time again, I'm told by a lot of people that I am smart. Now my mom texted me back and just stated "You're Not Stupid!" Then "What's your question?" I answered back "That was my question, Sorry that's how I feel."

Ten bucks says she calls me. Anyone want to wager against that? Ok so she called and reminded me "That I am smart just not the way other people conceive what smart is. It's not only what is based on what you know but by what you say and do."

That's my mom for you. She stated I'm sorry you feel that way but I love you. Think she's going to have a long ass talk with me about why I am feeling such lack of intelligence. My mom has no idea I failed a class which I did a lot of in high school.

Fact is I have an 8th grade understanding of the English Language. Fact is that I only I know very little about things. HTML, 3ds max, Torque, flash, photoshop, Csharp C Plus plus .

Things I do know about worthless TV trivia that no one really cares about.

I employ you if you think I am smart what is it that I'm smart at?

"And that's the way I roll."

COMMENTS

xRobin3x
01:51 Sep 14 2010

your good in love.

GoddessMoon
02:40 Sep 14 2010

Neal you are smarter then you realize everyone knows it and its just gonna take time for you to realize it too.stop being hard on yourself

XxTimaxX
04:07 Sep 14 2010

I think that you are extremely intelligent. Sometimes it take us longer to figure out exactly what we are good at, though.

I still haven't figured out what I'm good at.

Keep your chin up. Everything will work out.

WeepingxWillow
19:06 Sep 14 2010

Darlin you are smart just not in what you may have thought. I am stupid when it comes to coding HTML and all those other things too.I had to have help with all my profiles because I couldn't get the concept at all.

Please don't be so hard on yourself You are a good person and we all love you. Just keep trying and just because you failed one class don't give up on your dreams.

You are smart about how people feel and are a good person to talk to .

Please don;t give up my friend.

LittleIsisWaterlily
00:46 Sep 15 2010

let me ask you this love,

I know nothing about HTML 3Ds Max, and all that fun stuff, does that make me stupid?

No one in this world is stupid. I know how your feeling i feel the same, Just because some one know more about something does not make you stupid.

Your Smart Fizzy You give me advice and some times your the only one whose advise has made a difference. That take intelligence in my eyes.

CrimsonShadowWolf
01:14 Sep 15 2010

Everyone has a lack of intelligence in some way. There is always someone who can do something better than you. That doesnt make you stupid. If that was the cause. Then i would be REALLLLLLLY stupid. lol

Making yourself think about what you are good at, stops you from knowing what your good at. Same with everyone else.

You are very brilliant and intelligent man. remember that ^^

DestroyingAngel
10:21 Sep 15 2010

Neal,

You are absolutley brilliant! You better stop thinking otherwise too, dammit. Your mind is just perfect and one of the most beautiful things in this world. It's a gift! Cherish it! The bottom line is (or at least, I believe), That you are becoming discouraged because you have reached a few little mental blocks (because of life and your surroundings) and overlooking the things that are most important here. You are a clever writer, you're awsome at designing a great deal of things, You understand things that most other's dont (or coundn't possibly), you're a fantastic student and hey...You just flat out rock in the smarts department! Lol.

Neal, understand that you can do things that most others just cant. There are so many things that make you so very important and SMART!

Never never never alllow yourself to think otherwise, okay?

Now...you wanna see an example of stupid...*points to self and laughs*

C'mon Neal...you KNOW full well that you're smart and great at sooooo many things.

*huggggsss*

xXChaoticSymphonyXx
00:53 Sep 18 2010

Blah... your a bloody moron get over it -chuckles- J/K man. You know that there are always going to be things others are better at then you, just like there are things you do that are better then others...its a case by case way of life. You failed the class by what 1%. pfft. fuck um. Either way you will get done what you put your mind to, keep working on the models and the art and you will get better with the practice.

Keep it real.

ravenairsprite
18:50 Sep 19 2010

Ok Fizzy I don't know how many times I've told you you're smart. Guess I gotta say it again. YOU ARE SMART. So someone else may be smarter in one thing. Doesn't make you any less smart in another.

As for the TV trivia actually there are jobs out there that do require some of that knowledge. So again no fact is useless. People build webpages about this stuff ya know. How do you think things like Comic con came to exist?

borked
06:23 Sep 20 2010

Maybe you'll get to manage projects rather hands on modeling if modeling is not what you are cut out for. Or maybe your art is just not appreciated by your teachers. And there sure has been a lot of people who had to do stuff even though the couldn't sell it, even for bad marks. Vincent van Gogh, Rembrandt, ...

In the end it don't matter here. Here you have shown a different quality. You are brave. When everything gets thrown at you, you do your best to rise above it. That is how I think of you. And it makes you better than the modeler who can rotate a 4-dimensional tensor in their sleep.

So just keep doing what you have to do, and don't look back, because that's the way you roll :)

LadyZombie
05:52 Sep 21 2010

Personally, I would rather be a smart ass than just a smart person. Smart asses give color to the world :}

My baby sister had a baby.
21:20 Sep 13 2010
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My baby sister had a baby appoxamently 640am on 9/13 7 lbs, 7 oz, 22 1/4 in.

Wow just wow.

"Cuz that's the way I roll"

COMMENTS

BloodOfTheRose
21:23 Sep 13 2010

congrats Uncle Fiz!!! :D

Laila696
21:35 Sep 13 2010

aww coolio

better make sure you behave yourself around the baby lol

TheDarkWolfman
21:36 Sep 13 2010

Congrats to your sister and your family.

BloodLustLexie
21:41 Sep 13 2010

con gratz.. enjoy the new bundle!

Isis101
22:17 Sep 13 2010

Congrats!

ladySnowStrixx
22:42 Sep 13 2010

Congratulations uncle fiz

DestroyingAngel
09:46 Sep 15 2010

lol....Unkie Fiz...

Congats to you and your family! Awsome news! :P

Godzilla update 2012 will it fail my thoughts.
03:37 Sep 13 2010
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Godzilla.pdf

Cuz that's the way I roll.

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Happy B-day To my mom. Creator of the Fiz.
21:04 Sep 12 2010
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Today Is my mom's birthday. Happy Birthday Mommie.

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MDLIVE13
21:41 Sep 12 2010

Aww.. thats so cool bro! ;)

CholeBatsIsSick
23:15 Sep 12 2010

Happy Birthday Pictures, Images and Photos

CrimsonShadowFox
23:21 Sep 12 2010

Awww =D

GoddessMoon
23:34 Sep 12 2010

Hope your mom has a wonderful day

Happy B-day Star Trek
23:08 Sep 08 2010
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Space The final frontier

Ok no not going to do that this time.

But Star Trek first Premiered on TV today.

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BloodOfTheRose
19:57 Sep 09 2010

i didnt know that... cool!

Thank you and Ranting about my art lol
23:21 Sep 07 2010
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So Now that I have your attention. Spicing things up in the old journal. Artistic Section is getting more hits then a bdsm slave. Means people may be enjoying my artwork that I do. People have even asked me to do some mini art things for them. I'm proud to say they have displayed it. If you want to use my art, just be sure you put that I made it somewhere near it. I don't really mind if you do. Also you must have a space for it I ain't hosting it longer then two weeks. So that I can put even more stuff in.

Now for the better stuff I actually going to put myself out and say you want something done to a base image i'll see what I can do for you. All I expect for now is the credit. Depending on how time consuming the project is. I eventually want to sell my stuff for a nominal fee.

I do appreciate all you guys reading my journal just wish you would comment on something as you passed by. Right now only 2 images are up in my artistic section. As previously stated I do delete the images from my file storage. I need that space and as much as I can get. I feel if you haven't read my journal in 2 weeks time then you probably won't be.

People that do come here get to experience a different side of me that can't be done any other way then in a journal entry. Remember when I said things were about to get interesting. They are indeed interesting. They are continuing to flow in that generalize direction.

I'm actually hoping to work with other artist on some new ideas that may come out of an Art Jam session. "What's an Art Jam session?" Its where you jam to music and you think of cool stuff to do art to. I'm not saying my stuff's in any way shape or form good. Though I have liked pretty much everything I've done. Well that is with the exception of one thing that kept killing my art program. VENGEANCE WILL BE MINE! You will conform to your art brethren and be uberly cool. Thus says I.

Anyways, this is to say really to all you that read my journal. Thank you. A lot more to come. Even new stories soon.

COMMENTS

GoddessMoon
00:54 Sep 08 2010

Awesome Neal

ladySnowStrixx
18:53 Sep 08 2010

Congrats hon,

DestroyingAngel
08:21 Sep 09 2010

Wow man, they uh...do make decaf. Just sooo yanno lol. Thank you for the awsome entries we keep reading. All the spankin' new artsies you keep adding.

Oh look. Red font used in a journal. Nope. NEVER seen that before lmao...Noooo sir. :P

foxglove
21:28 Sep 09 2010

Very good journal entry. It has me heading over to the art area to check things out.

CrimsonShadowFox
23:10 Sep 12 2010

I display your artwork everyday im online =D Thanks for the bestest present ever!!!! I still love it ^^

Delorean (Back to the future)
03:53 Sep 05 2010
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While Driving I saw this

A fully decked out Time machine including the cali plates OUTOFTIME

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Bijou
04:48 Sep 05 2010

ok that is really bad ass.....I got a ride in a Delorean once. When I lived in the Florida Keys I was at a repair shop, and parked in front of the shop was a Delorean. Since I knew the owner of the shop he gave me a quick ride around the block in the car, it was pretty sweet. Apprently it belonged to some softwear programer who lived on one of the islands the rich lived on lol. But my favorite part was opening and closing the door.