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I asked both of my tarot decks what I can do to improve my current situation in life and get 9 of cups first pull after shuffling each...this card is supposed to mean wishes already fulfilled and happiness in life. I suppose I have to find my own meaning in this card, since pulling it from two different decks means it is obviously trying to tell me something.
I realize it may be trying to teach me gratitude but I am honestly finding it hard to be grateful for much lately. I will still write what I am grateful for. While the planets are aligned to fulfill a wish of mine, I will be sure to truly reflect on what I want so I can pursue it.