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Current mood: indifferent





AHHH I just want to tear myself apart right now. For many reason but one I have feelings for a boy.....that should say enough..."Bad! Bad! back in your coner bitch!" *huddles off into a corner, sits and waits* Wft? Waiting isn't going to get me shit. There are two people that I like and neither of them seem to be coming down my alley anytime soon. I just don't want to be the one getting fucked on the side. You know a last resort. Sorry man I don't do that. But I would like for the "him" to hear a specific song by Lifehouse.....no it's fucking not there main song....It's a song that not too man people have heard of...which is cool because it's a masterpiece. And it's cool to find a couple masterpieces that no ones heard of so when you're listening to it and there like "damn that's a good song" and you'll be like "Yeah I know" sorry some dry humor for you. But it's such a good feeling. They don't know who it is and you bring it into there lives. It's beautiful. Damn man I got to go to sleep...it's fucking 6:03 am. shit. I did however become a coven member today. And I have created a second myspace..know lets see who can find it first...lol





Could you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Singing

Current mood: hopeful





Something hidden so to speak.



I don't think I want to live with Dave anymore....I'm just getting a really bad feeling about everything.



so, SO If Chris and Rachel want to be together thats perfectly fine.......I just don't wanna be the third one getting fucked on the side. I do want to be with him..but if he's happy with someone else that's fine too.



I just want everything to go back to the way it was before I left for the Army......I feel so stupid. For not being able to finish my term....It was a big step and I failed. Everything was in place...I was happy before I left.



My mind is swerving...



Latley I've been feeling very femmy and worthless. Yes man! I need to have my own flowing space soon or I'm going to freak!

Current mood: thoughtful





Well.. well well....you finally get what you want and then you try and try and it seems to blow up in your face. You do one thing that makes you so happy with someone that makes you happy and then somehow fills you full of doubt. I don't know weather I should give up or keep trying. but either way...I'm really hoping to get into Stout. I really hoping to make everything wokr out right. I feel like nothings in place and everything is wrong. I really wish I never left for the army. My life was perfect to what it usually is now a days. I had a nice paying job, I had a stable place to live with the nessecities that I need, I was with the most perfect person that I absolutly yearn for, I had a vehicle. I was in touch with most of my friends. Ahhck I'm just bitching. It's going good. I'm still trying to get my Father's cd back. If I can't get it back within the next month I'm going to burn the damn cd and draw the album cover some how. Hopfully the water will get fixed in my new place. My roomate says by the end of the month but I hope it's sooner. I hope to move my stuff in soon and go to where ever I need to go to get some food stamps and fill out more applications to get a job. And maybe once I put soem money away my roomire and I can get a car. cool cool. I want a truck. Or my dream car and 996 GT3 Shelby Mustang, convertable with a tan top, a silver jade green for the body with some black, purple and white designs that I hope to create on it, with black leather interior and blue lights, Blue lights underneath the chasssis. Beautiful....ha orgasmic. lol..Like I said Dream Car. Never will have but it's nice to fantisize about. Either way I hope to fidn out the solution to this new mess in my head soon. Yey! good luck man!







"Watch me lose her....It's almost like losing myself....She said "Kill me Faster!"