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15:27 Feb 08 2012
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Life is full of thoughts and choices. Wake up and think and choose properly.

when you wake up in the morning and start to complain "Oh crap, its already morning?" and return back hugging your pillows and wish to stay in bed cuddled up in your sheets and your hair so scruffy, outside your house other things are happening like people who already been woke up hours ago and been working several hours to get some dollar or a decent penny in their pockets, others are begging to be given some real employment or any kind of work and they will do it as long it pays enough to have a bread and be able also to have some water or milk enough for the day to carry on.

You are living in New York City or other big city all you see is movement, busy life and people walking fast, those who are homeless and ask for money, pick pockets who walk fast and steal fast from the pockets or bags of people without the money's real owner realize unless there is someone real sharp noticing everything and stop one of them. Its a crime indeed pick pocketing but some of these don't have a job or have no choice but to obey the real boss who sends them doing it or they will be beaten to death or even left hungry in the cold or hot street till they get what they need to get back and remain alive.

You may have a life full of problems but outside your shell, in the city have more problems then you think.

There are also territories with gangs made from the age of teenagers who run or stay and fight with fist, kicking and also carrying guns and other weapons. We judge them bad enough but if you were in their position for some years would you still judge them? They formed a gang, becoming criminals by starting the being beaten ritual. If the girl or the guy is strong enough to stay still and strong or even have the capacity to fight them back and win you are part of them and if not and end up in hospital or dead by mistake of one or two of them hitting you on most vital place of your body then you are out. Yet lucky if you make it alive but not part of them.

being part of the gang many teens would think they are cool like guys but from other certain points of view, other people call them degenerated, criminal, someone to stay away from or you will end up in trouble or dead or reputation totally fucked up. Gangs many of them end up on drugs too. Buyers or sellers. Stealing from shops and even robbing from the cash. Beating some school studs or girls and even being raped if the female refuse. Illegal alcohol for those under 18 for those who are in Europe or in certain countries not in Europe and for USA under 21. Secret meetings when to attack the other gangs and territory to conquer or revenge both is wrong. if someone gets killed even if you are underage yet you committed a crime. Even if it was accidental its a crime. You want to change your life? there you go. its a real good thing. But first you have to pay for what you have done. Confess free willing to the police and it will not be easy and they won't let you go fast but you might be free in less years if you do. If not you will have more severe punishment.

But If you do apart you paid for what you have done and also bear with some mental, emotional and physical pain, cause you know? In prison life ain't an easy one at all. many get raped there no matter what gender you are. Or by a corrupted motherfucker who wanna jag his boner on you or by your jailhouse mate, you might also be bullied and forced to do things unless you get on the goodside of someone from law like security or mate who will protect you.

You will hear stories and shit. You will hear cries or suicides from the prison itself. Standing by the rules, if not gonna get into trouble. Terrible and awful food. and if you work into the prison kitchen you might know what the bloody fuck they are cooking and feed to the prisoners and make you loose appetite.

You will get bored too if you dont make a hobby from that shabby cold cell. Reading, or painting or working in the prison like cleaning and stuff might help passing the time without even noticing and might have also good impression. Not getting into the fights and trouble is hard yet booooooooooooooring but you might get out faster, and have more chance to go on a train or another country where no one knows your story or your history or face (if you committed small crimes like stealing or buying drugs) and make a new life. Changing name and have a new page.

while you are waking up again you won't say oh crap its already morning words but say lets wake up. Its a new day and get to work to earn some good or get some new lessons of the day that will help my life now and if not now it will serve me for the future.

That is how its supposed to be. But of course that is my very point of view and not everyone will agree to it.

while you are waking up you might think that i had a weird dream about gangs and stuff but if I dont wanna end up like that then I better move my butt and see what good I can get from this day.

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