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I am cold today...But on the inside. I am down. I want to cut. Take a blade and run it across my arm to see the blood. Watch it run down my arm. Let the coldness out. Let out what is inside. Make it better. I am cold..Even though my house is warm. I shiver from my coldness. I am down.



My dreams are haunting me. Making me think..Why are they the way they are..?Why must the things that are in them be there..? It drives me insane. Makes me want to cut out my brain. Find what is wrong. the things I see are not to my liking. They make me hurt. they amke me want to hurt. To see my own blood.



Warmth..I need to feel the warmth..I want to curl into a dark corner and cry. I want to get it out. Get out what is inside of me that is causing me this confussion and hurt. I want make the tears I am crying on the inside to come out.



I'm Cold today and I don't want to hurt..

There is darkness in us all. We all have a draker side. A side outside of the light. The darkness is not a bad thing. It is not evil it is just another side. I feel this side of me growing inside. I feel as if it is ready to come out. I know i have a dark side. I know not what it is like. It puzzles me, makes me worry. For I know not what it is like. What it can do. But I know that it is time for it to come out. It may change the person I am. The person all know me as, but I am willing to except that. It may be for my better or worse. I know not. But I feel that it needs to happen. The Darkness calls me. So I enter into it....