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Made ammends with my mother....though I wish it could have been under better circumstances (ones im not even ready to unload about on here). *sighs deeply*
The point is we are trying and I believe we'll have extreme up's and down's...but we refuse to lose each other. Now more than ever. I forgave my mom, and she forgave me too.
What Im really stoked about is my sister and I talking again. Looks like we both needed each other at the same exact time. Trippy we still do that lol. I wished ny nephew (my little dude too) a very happy birthday! My god...he turned 14yrs old!!! Just yesterday he was having me help him with his lego sets......now he knows sarcasim and shops for 'gothic items and especially clothes. Hmmmmm...*small laugh*
Come on, cant we go back to the lego's Christian? Aunt Diana feels old enough already lol.
*heads off to that giant blanket again and plans for another long lonley nap*
Hi, This reminds me of my own relationships with mom and Sister. I have often said #1 You can pick your friends, but not your family #2 If my sister was not my sister........she would NOT be a friend of mine. They seem rather contradictory statements but I have such a strong sense that family is FAMILY and must stick together. Forgiveness is a powerful tool for healing old wounds but not always the easiest to achieve for the wounded. I applaud your courage.
07:29 Feb 13 2010 Times Read: 776
I have always found that my muse is always music. Music is my one true
passion. My one true love. Listening to something usually inspires me to create. It's been my aid in creating art, helping me with severe writers block, Tension, frustration, anger and it has helped in so many other emotional releases as well. Happiness as well as inner pain, grieving the loss of somebody or something...and who hasn't been in the Saturday night situation of putting something on when you're in 'the mood' with somebody.
Maybe they're not the most heard of band, and perhaps it may not even be your type of thing. In any case, I find that I've been doing some serious thinking as I sit here and write. Whenever I have these little moments, my music player is on and this little dandy always seems to play as if on cue. Without fail for the past week it seems. I happen to think they're great (you might think they're crap though lol), check it on out...
Awsome Music Video, Excellent Director on this one...and yes, I believe that is Shirley Manson (lead singer of Garbage)
i feel the same way on that without music i would be lost it hold memories life and all we wish to enjoy . good inspiration as well . easy to relate to .
Hello Hunger, My Best Friend!
08:31 Feb 08 2010 Times Read: 800
Im freaking hungry! Freaking H U N G R Y!
I hate diets. I hate crash dieting even more. *sighs*
Yes, In my futuristic Eutopia.........Snickers Bars have more nutrition than a whole head of Broccoli. Fried Chicken has zero fat, zero calories and actually helps improve men's sex drive. Carbs never turn into sugar and milkshakes detoxify and cleanse your system. Yes...indeed. In my futuristic eutopia, so it is written, so shall it be!
Now...where's my bucket of KFC Boneless strips, dipping sauce and hugs, dammit?! lol.
I'm having another hard day here. Music doesn't sound the same....
Movies that were once my favorite aren't entertaining...
I missed a call from one of my dear friends.
It sucks when everything you've ever known and liked or loved doesn't hold that special place in your heart anymore. It sucks when your body is physically there, but emotionally/mentally........you might as well be a billion miles away from the room you are in.
It's just one of those sad/hard times to go through. The time when you can't do anything but hurt...or cry silently....and know that you are all alone. When I make crappy art I delete it or shove it in a place I call wreckage. My heart is in wreckage right now. I long and I miss. I am confused and I am hurt. I miss and I am lonely. Im trying to be strong and let everything unravel as it is supposed to....
It's hard. It sucks. It Hurts like hell and my eyes are swollen from crying. This isn't Drama. This is life....*sighs very sadly*
Patience. My virtue. One that just fucking sucks and seems to drag on forever. *cries* and just a week ago I was so happy.
I feel the sadness. I am not sure what yours is for. But sadness is all the same. Hurting, aching, death. I wish I could write my feelings out like this. If I described things more then people would not think I was a whore.
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SuicideDoll
11:35 Feb 20 2010
Glad to hear things are looking up : )
widowspeak
17:43 Mar 24 2010
Hi, This reminds me of my own relationships with mom and Sister. I have often said #1 You can pick your friends, but not your family #2 If my sister was not my sister........she would NOT be a friend of mine. They seem rather contradictory statements but I have such a strong sense that family is FAMILY and must stick together. Forgiveness is a powerful tool for healing old wounds but not always the easiest to achieve for the wounded. I applaud your courage.