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My mum terrorizes me to decide what and where I want to study. Well I dun wanna study at all, just make music and make tours with my band...but i know that i have too...

gosh...when I realize that now it's all about my life...and now I'll decide how my life will go further... geesh...i'm fuckin freakin scared... but... shhh! don't tell anybody!!! ;) it's a secret

Well it seems that everything is fine now :))

My Dog is back, I have 4 days off school, my bands concert is in about one week, Friday night I'll be partying, Monday school again..but hey it's 3 months left, I'll make it through somehow :))

So my headline today is circle, because it doesn't matter, we can not agree with the fact that history is a spiral, and our life a circle, it just happens.

There are times to cry, and times to laugh, times to pray and be worshiped.

At this moments my circle brought me to a new, full of light and beautiful moments place, now I'm happy

Thank You

Soooo...the day starts 'pretty good', I wake up and i get to know that one of my dogs has ranaway... ok...this is not the first time... so i get back from school he's still missing... i go for a search... i know where he goes when he's alone and so on...but I couldn't find him. Tho' I'm the only one in the family that always finds him...

so i try to stay calm and go out with my friend...

I come back...he's still missing. My grandpa went out with another dog for a walk and searched after the lost one...but he wasn't able to find him...

So I sit in my room chat with a friend and we're talking about my dog that he couldn't disappear just 'like that'. I go to my grandpa and ask him where did the dog runaway fro him...and he tells me that the place is near the street and the park...and where other neighborhood begins... so it's like...yeah... if he ran over the street or went to the other neighborhood then it's probably no chance to find him...

and that's not enough that g.dad was walking with a dog near a street, he didn't cared a lot when he runaway from him, and no he tells me that none needs those dogs. I FUCKING SAW HOW HE WAS BORN GREW UP AND LIVED WITH ME 6 YEARS AND NO ONE FUCKING CARES?!?!?!?

I swear at that moment I wanted my g.dad to be lost and not the dog...

And now I only think wasn't he hit by a car...isn't he alone, in the cold, has nothing to eat, nowhere to sleep... he never had spent a night outside alone...in the summer...and it's winter...it's freakin' cold... maybe some sick kids kicked him or i dunno what sick done to him... once he was lost...and he came back with a leg hurt it was all cut and bloody...sick people... I'd kill all of them with my own two arms who do harm to animals...

I can't deal with these thoughts no more...

My eyes are swollen...tho' I haven't been crying...