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There are so many different people driving me crazy! I am only 14!! Please!! Stop pressuring me! What did I ever do to deserve to be pressured like this?! So many people to make happy, so happy to please...Well NEWS FLASH!!! I AM NOT ALWAYS GOING TO BE HERE TO PLEASE YOU!!! My mother has taught me how to always respect people and to try my best to make myself proud of me. I try everyday to make everyone happy! EVERYONE!!!! Am I not doing good enough or what?! What does everyone except me to be... perfect?! I try so hard, I make a few mistakes and all of a sudden I am the bad person here!! Look I am sick and tired of being mistreated. I have always thought of myself as good and a hardworker. BUT NOT A SLAVE!!! People always want me to do there stuff for them, walk them, and baby them! Or I am the one being babied, or walked through. I HATE IT!! I am 14! I am just a teenager! I am barly a teenager!!! I want to make people happy, I want to make people proud! But I must not be doing such a good job since EVERYONE IS PRESSURING ME TO BE LITTLE MISS PERFECT!!! I am not the the worlds greatest mood, I am not the happiest person right Now. To tell the truth I feel pretty used, mistreated and I am fed up with it! I want to be one as people. I want to be treated as a person, a friend, a good person. but how can I also give that respect back when people use me? I am a child, I am to young, Your not good enough, I am to weak, I am a cry baby, I am a freak, I am worthless, I am a no one, I am nothing t o no one, Iam just a waste of life. Thats what I am told almost every singel day since I was at the age of 3. My parents are seperated because of me, my neice was took away becuase of me, My brother isnt aloud to be alone with me because of me, Neither is my father, also BECAUSE OF ME! LOOK I HAVE ALOT OF SHIT ON MY MIND RIGHT NOW. I was trying not to cuss but I am so UPSET!!! Why cant anyone just understand that?! I am dying on the inside and its like I try to pretend I am happy so no one thinks I am weak, think I am soft, think I am a "Cry-Baby." I want to be strong I want to be recognize. But I just really wish that people would just stop pressuring me. I know its life and I need to get used to it. But Please. Give me a break. I am still just a kid. I am still a teenager I am not fully grown up. I am sorry if I am not perfect but you know no one is. SO STOP PRESSURING ME PLEASE!!! Let me have a break, let me be who I want to be. I just want to be calm and happy. And right now My happiness level is 0%. My anger 15% My depression 85%. I am not asking for alot. I am just asking....to stop being pressure. Thanks so much for your time of reading....





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