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I stand out on the porch looking out at the night sky watching as the shadow's make their mark upon the world i take a long deep breath enjoying the fresh air hitting my face i softly mumble to myself..come and make your mark upon me cause you do not scare me anymore I been waiting for this my whole damn life.
i stand there waiting for along time well they make a long circle in the night sky heading towards where i was standing..i just stand still as the shadow's enter's my body and make my soul dark and cold i started to not feel anything all i could do was stand there.
my eye's turned a blood red and my hands starts to shake and i just stared into the night without blinking i finally snaped out of it and screamed into the night..you finally made your damn mark upon my soul (what now?)

I been sitting here with my damn lag put up cause i fell on the ground as i was heading home from the store that's when my lag went from under me and i fell right straight to the ground it hurts so bad i cried all the way home hoping i dont fall again well crossing the damn street ugh.
the snow was falling hard to michigan weather really does suck that is why i cant wait to get the hell out of here and start a new chapter in my damn life which i need to i had alot of shit happen to me here in this damn state that i just want to forget and just move on with my life.

it's now 2/27/2020 yesterday was my daughter's birthday i cant believe she's 24 years old now and has 2 sons and soon to be married where has time gone it seems like just yesterday i had her wow 24 years has gone and pass.
yeah her and i might not talk anymore cause of the shit her dad and his damn mom has put into her head about me which i find bullshit its all his damn falt that she was even taken from me the first place hench the reason i dont like him or his damn mom i reather bypass them by all cause.
marring him was the bigest mistake i have ever made in my damn life he never even treated me good after i had our daughter that's when things went bad between him and i when he divorced me it was the day i jumped for joy cause i was rid of his damn ass.
i was able to do what i want after the divorce i even got my life back together and on track again cause when i married his ass my life went down hill i was so missable cause he never even allowed me to hang with my bestfriend cause he did'nt like her at the time.
but after we been divorced for a year or so he ended up with my bestfriend and they got married which only lasted 7 months cause she could'nt handle how he acted at times i even tried to worn her about him but she had to learn for herself how he really was.
and then he added me on facebook and tried to talk me into going back to him to work things out and he even said that he was sorry for the way he treated me back when we were married i could'nt believe he had the damn nerve to even attemp asking me to be with him again after the way he lied to the damn state about me so faith could be taken from me and handed off to his mom so she could adopt her which she did so i heard.
he knew how much i loved my daughter and would never harm an hair on her cause i was the one who got up with her when she cried or needed fed and changed i think no i know i was a good mom to her i even tried telling her the truth when i last saw her and my grandson danny but she reather believe the lies then her own mom.

when i last saw my ex-husband again on facebook i ended up telling him that i would never ever go back with him reather he was the last man on earth i told him that he was nothing but a low life piece of shit that dont know how to treat a woman the way she should be treated.
there is no way i would be with a man that has no money or a place of his own he even went around on facebook asking other wemen to take him in even though he has no way to help them with bills and rent or even food for the house.
i also told him that i really enjoy being single and able to do whatever i want without being told what i can or cant do like he use to do to me back then he was really mean to me and i really dont need that in my life right now.
and after i got done with what i had to say to him
he called me a damn cold hearted bitch cause i told him also that no one would ever go out with him cause he's poor and no woman would want to live like that ever.

do i sound mean for what i said to him?
was it wrong of me to be like this?
cause to be honest i felt good to say what i always wanted to say to him

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EntwinedPassion
14:06 Feb 27 2020

I m so happy I hope she had a great day after all is only once a year yep. I know what is like. My childern are grown too lol.

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DarkenPath
16:00 Feb 27 2020

lol

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I'm sitting here playing black ops4 drinking coffee and trying to relax before i head off to bed i been on skype with lana..(yes i said lana)we talk everyday cause that's what bestfriends do they stick together no matter what happens.
I will always be by her side no matter what we have known eachother since highschool (20+years) wow that's along time to know someone..that's show how good of a friend i really am.
lana and i might have our ups and downs at times but we always end up making up at the end she's more like a sister then a friend that is how close we are (we never give up on eachother)
even when i have a bad day she never gives up on me she stays by my side through it all.

thanks for being there for me sis

I'm not a bad person!
yes im friends with lana always have been and there is nothing going to change that no matter what
you can think what you want cause i really dont give a damn what you think of me anymore i'm done caring its time for me to turn into a cold hearted bitch and not care about people anymore or what they have to say.
when we were last in the damn call with your group you did'nt bring up that your mom had cancer so lana had no clue about that cause all you said is that she was sick and anyways lana is half deaf so she might of not heard it fully and no im not sticking up for lana im just stating the truth.
(and sometimes the damn truth hurts)
i know about cancer and how it feels to have a love one sick with it my dad had it and it killed him within months.

im sorry that your mom is sick and i hope she heals enough to live a full life

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SpecialMonkey
00:35 Feb 26 2020

Bullshit Heather want to know why......I have mentioned it several times over the time knowing you and that bitch that she has cancer why must you both fucking lie.....do you think people believe you?

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DarkenPath
00:46 Feb 26 2020

to be honest with you cat i really dont care if anyone believes me or not..cause i know for a damn fact i dont lie..you might think differant of me but i dont really care what you think of me to be honest.

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SpecialMonkey
00:47 Feb 26 2020

You both fucking lie.....This is not the first, second, or even the third time my mom and her having cancer has been mentioned. It is not my fault you both have the brains of retarded goldfish

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SpecialMonkey
00:48 Feb 26 2020

Also if you continue to you I have no issue giving you the same punishment that Lana will receive on any damn account I find of hers

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SpecialMonkey
00:50 Feb 26 2020

* I meant if you continue to lie not what I just typed

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I woke up in the middle of the night hearing a loud knock on the wall all i could do was lay there without making a sound i heard it again this time even louder then before.
i got out of bed making my way to the bedroom door i heard loud footsteps outside the door
my heart started pounding really fast cause there were no where for me to go cause the footsteps gotten even closer.
i spoken softly..what do you want from me? we want you is what we want..i opened the door just to find no one there so i ran as fast as i could just to get out of the house before they could get me.

I have put up with enough bullshit to last a damn lifetime i had just about enough i'm done dealing with this shit
i have enough drama at home to deal with i do not need anything i will be ignoring everyone that pulls any shit with me

so if you dare bring any drama to my damn door i will be blocking anyone who starts shit with me


your's truly
DarkenPath

she takes a sharp knife and sits in a dark corner by herself and begains to rock back and forth holding the knife to her weist and begains to carve within her skin feeling no pain the blood starts to drip from her arm.
she watches as the blood falls to the hard wood floor as she keeps rocking she mumbles to herself..why do i have to live this missable life? i never wanted this for myself or anyone else
she feels the hot tears coming from her eyes she takes the back of her hand and wipes the tears away
no one was ever there for her she was always alone they all left her along time ago never caring about how she felt
she looks at the blood on the floor she then slowly stands up and heads to the bathroom and grabs a towel and wipes the blood from her weist and looks at the small cut..how can a small cut like this bleed so much blood she wonders to herself?
she has always hated everything about her damn life.
but she knew from the start that she had no other choice but to live the life that she was given even though she found out years ago that she had many mental health issures that had to be delt with.

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IvysxHaven
11:33 Feb 20 2020

I used to think like this, now I see life as a challenge not only to overcome but to find purpose and meaning even in the worst of times. There is always light even in the darkness, even if it illuminates from within, something we all have.

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DarkenPath
11:53 Feb 20 2020

i do agree with you on that even though i sometimes feel like there is darkness near me all the time but i always deal with it in someways.

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1.what's your name? you can call me darken i dont give out my real name on the net

2.how old are you? you never ask a woman her age im old enough to know better

3.where you from? well i'm from michigan but my mom moved me all over the state as a young girl

4.do you have any kids? yes i have a daughter she's going to be 24 this month

5.are your parents alive? no they both passed away
my mom passed cause of drinking and my dad passed from cancer

6.do you have any sister's or brother's? yes i have a brother from my dad's side

7.what's your favorite color? purple and black

8.what's your favorite music? well i like alot of music to much to list here

9.what's your favorite movie?thirteen ghots and alot more that i just cant remember

10.do you play games? yes im a big time gamer chick i really enjoy sitting here playing my games it helps me relax when i have a bad day or night

11.do you have any mental promblems? yes i do

12.are you dating? no i'm single and happy being so i been hurt to many times to even think about dating anyone

13.do you have anyone that likes you? yes but only as a friend though cause im just not ready to date.

14.do you live alone or with someone? i live with my aunt judy in a 2 bedroom apartment

15.how many times have you had a brake down cause of your mental issures? well i had many brake downs but not infront of anyone

16.do you have any friends? yes i have a bestfriend i known since high school

17.do you smoke? yeah i smoke both weed and newports

18.how long have you been on VR? about 10 years now off and on

19.are you les or bi? well im bi but i mostly like guys right now

20. have you ever kissed a girl? umm yes i have and i liked it alot even though she just wanted me to get to my ex thank god he broke up with me along time ago.

21.have you ever done a girl before? umm why would you even ask me that its alittle personal dont ya think?

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IvysxHaven
11:27 Feb 20 2020

Thank you for sharing very honest and open questions and answers.

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DarkenPath
13:38 Feb 20 2020

your welcome..i like to be an open book when it comes to telling people about myself..yeah its really hard for me to speak about myself like i did

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It's been awhile since i been on this account thought i would level up here a little bit..been busy with doing laundry the past few days which really sucks big time.
there has been alot of stress going on in my life lately cant seem to calm down my thinking it's always happening sometimes it drives me crazy as hell.
my aunt and i will be moving to my other aunt's in apirl cant wait cause we can start saving some money yeah i miss the apt it was my home for going on 5 years now.

I been feeling off since yesterday cause i dont have my meds right now cause its in my aunts car
right now i feel like going off on everyone for no reason at all.
so right now im not talking to anyone not even on skype i just want to be alone so i can get my thoughts together and get my meds back from my aunt and take it so that only means i have to wait for it to kick in.
my mind is going crazy right now none stop spinning always thinking and wanting to find something to do to keep my mind and body busy just keep from going crazy out of my mind.

closes my eyes and takes a deep breath allowing my mind and body to relax and then my mind starts to take over allowing me to see differant places within my mind my body begains to relax alittle more as i starts to travel into other places.
lastnight i did that and ended up infront of an old building it looked like its been closed for a decade it seems like it could be haunted or something like that my mind would'nt allow me to travel inside the building to check it out.
but i'm gonna try it again tonight im hoping i will be able to travel inside the building to check it out it looks intresting though.

I seem to be awake during the day
but i never go outside unless i really have to
which sucks cause the weather is really cold
i reather stay in doors where it's nice and warm
and i can play my games and rate on VR as much as i can even though i find it hard to do sometimes i fight the deep feelings that i sometimes get my during mind sometimes plays tricks on me to the point where i go crazy i want to scream but nothing comes out.
what can i do
where can i go
whom can run to
i know i need help but where can i find it
i try to run but the more i run the fearther
everything seems to be
i try to reachout for a hand but everyone seems to be to far away for me.
i try to speak but nothing comes out
all i could do is stare into the distance
where everyone stands so far away
help me please
oh please take my hand
and lead me into the sunset