By: Sean
Sail away to the dark side of the moon
Sail away to that sorrowful place to escape the burdens.
Sail away to be carried away on the black ship of unreality.
Die forever to live into your void of progress.
Crush everything in your heart
Destroy the life around you to live to die trying.
Sail away to find a burden to hope for.
Sail away when this world becomes older to pray down the Drums of Hades.
Bring down those ships of spite to kill sorrow and stop hope in its place.
Sail away to stop a heart to hide from the hope of everything
Sail away to hide away those crushed hopes of life eternal
Be damned in your unforgiveness
Bask in its eternal fires of bliss.
Sail to that dark side of the moon to realize your crushed life.
Realize that which was in front of you for so long to freeze it in place
Freeze e your hope to burdens
Sailing forever away in that dark ship to the beautiful dark side of your heart.
Crush it with a knife to the skin breaking forever your hearts blood.
Sail away in that dark ship lathered in bleeding hope,
Fleeting in its complexity.
Breathe away your last breath and let it take you away to the dark side of your moon
Let that dark light fill you to kill you forever inside to a husk.
Forever murder that hope, drown it in your desires.
Just drown in its hopeful light of nothing
To plunge naked in its cold waters.
Strip away your skin to feel the cold, dead breeze of hopelessness.
Let it carry you away on its tides.
Let that wave fall on you so no pain can come to your soul’s light.
Strip in front of what is in front of you to see what is truly inside yourself/
See the pain and lost hope you cause.
Never hoping never crying never living in the ships beautiful nothingness
I hate you but love you ship.
Just sail me away on your splendor so we can die tonight.
Just sail away on the tide of hell fire to take away our lives.
Take away what we so sought after.
Just take it all away to the drowning depths to burden us no more.
Kill the time we had to rewind it so nothing could happen.
Murder that hope inside us to take away our ships of flight floating inside.
Take away this pain that we feel murder it before we feel again.
Murder us inside.
Murder what we so sought after for so long.
Take me away ship of suicide
Take me away so nothing will be clearer than clear anymore.
We die to live but we need to live to die.
Hate us in our beauty’s darkness.
Sail away ship of creation
Never return us to what we sought for so long.
Burden us with that spiteful cleverness.
Sail away into the darkness light.
Sail me away on my death walk.
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This is a poem about child abuse and this was in the Sandbox I thought it would be nice to place it in here!! If you want to copy this and paste it in oyurs it would mean A LOT to me and the others that have sufford abuse.
She was only five
This is what happened
When she was alive...
Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic
Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair
She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound
Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endore
A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?
But she grabs her bear
And softly crys
She loves her parents
But they want her to die
She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,
"Please God, why is
My life always sinking? "
Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did
Then one night
Her mom came home high
And the poor child was beaten
As hours went by
Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made
She thrusted the blade
Right in her chest,
"You deserve to die
You worthless pest!"
The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dieing
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying
Police showed up
At the small little house
Then quickly barged in
Everything quiet as a mouse
One officer slowly
Opened a door
To find the little girl
Lieing on the floor
It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms
I was in the garage of my house and looking outside waiting and
watching as the door was open for all to see inside and that was what I was worried about. Because something was out there waiting
for that chance. So I turned around and said we should "Shut the
garage door before they see us." No one answered really because
they were focused on making something else but I was not sure what
it was, but it looked like weapons of some kind. AJ did come over
and asked me what I was watching for. I just told him, "I don't
know, but it's nothing good." AJ just patted me on the back and
went back to work. Then Max came over and asked the same, so I told
him the same because I had to answer to give him. So he kissed me,
full on the lips, and went back to work. They all continued their
work Anna, Kevin, AJ, Max, my sister. All were busy making
something. I just closed the door anyway. While I did I looked at
my friends and nothing fazed them at all really but they did look,
but briefly. My mum came home finally and park at a distance for my
dad to park in the drive and keep the cars blocking the drive for
whatever was out there watching them. She came just as the doors
were closing and I stopped the doors going down so my mum could get
through. She got through and said thank you then went to go inside
the house and I let the door go back down. Then all of a sudden my
dad comes out of the house in a robe and A LOT skinnier than
normal. He came out and asked why I had put the garage door down
and I told him they may be watching and it would give our numbers
away. My dad said that's what he wanted to trick them into thinking
they had many more numbers to work with. So he opened the other
garage door instead just to make me happy, then he went back
inside. It was dark out when everyone went to go inside, work done.
All just walked inside. I went straight to my room upstairs, but
the house was a little different than usual. It wasn't my house but
it sure was. It was bigger AND smaller inside. The couches were
HUGE. The upstairs was interesting too. The only big part was the
kitchen, that was not normal size. I go upstairs to find my cousins
Dustin and Derek sitting on my gigantic bed. IN my room that looked
small on the outside. Derek watched TV while Dustin played a video
game. I walked over and hopped on the bed to watch the video game.
And he was playing a game called Demon Stone. While I was watching
it I remembered my staff and I had to get it all of a sudden from
my cars trunk. So I went panic and ask them if they seen my car as
I look out the window because it was supposed to be just outside my
window. My cousins didn't know were my car was, but they insisted
that it should be right there and I kept saying it wasn't. So I just
went off downstairs to find the grown-ups talking about something.
As I entered they stopped talking and I asked where my car was at
and they said they had no idea it should be in the spot outside my
window. I told them it wasn't but they insisted again. So I just
went into the living room and jumped on the couch now seeming
"normal" size and peeked out the window. I saw nothing but the
neighbors preparing too, all for something, something that they all
were deeply afraid of. I decided to look out some more windows
around the room but none helped. I looked out at the window that
was next to the stairs, but found it was blocked by a red barn and
foliage from the trees surrounding the red barn. Then I moved over
to the window facing the driveway and found a storm coming all
clouding up. But no cars were out there. So I decided to go outside
and so I went to the backdoor and outside. I then heard noises of
people working outside our house. Clank. Clank. It was a loud sound
but almost a distant sound even though it was right up near the
house. I lightly moved to take a peak around the corner of the
house by the gate to find people working and driving giant metal
poles into the ground. I popped my head back in as fast as possible
because they were the ones that was terrorfiing everyone. I began
to get scared myself and ran to get behind the tree that wasn't
there before when I had looked outside that window. I ran straight
behind the small tree to hide from them. I kept hiding as they
moved on towards the front of the house. I made a break for it out
of the gated area in the backyard and moved to the next tree clear
to the side yard, next to the garage. I noticed the little red barn
was all gone including the trees that had surrounded it. I hid
behind that tree and then a man came around the corner then another
both were tall and skinny. I couldn't see their faces but they were
in deep conversation so I slipped to the next tree and hid behind
it. When I looked behind it to see if the men were still there I
stared straight at one of the men coming right for me and my hiding
spot. He had spotted me and now came to kill me. He smiled wickedly
and very mockingly sweet at me and said "I hate spruces always so
hard to kill around." He moved forward and I began to panic as he
kept smiling that smile until it turned into outright loathing and
hope of a good kill. He moved forward and struck the tree shaking it
while I was behind it. I scrambled back in utter terror now, mouth
and eyes wide. He struck the tree again and I ran as fast as I
could go and straight for the playground in the backyard. I
scrambled too fast and fell getting up again because I knew he was
behind me with that sword. I made it almost to the playground when
I was knocked flat on my back hard fast first into the ground. I
turned around quickly to see him descend his sword. When I turned
around his sword was raised and ready to cut down, but he hesitated
and said with pure happiness in his voice, full of malice, "Finally
I get to kill you." But as the sword was going down I made a dash
for the knife at his belt and stuck it into his gut. He staggered
back and fell on his knees, sword forgotten. I took the bloody
knife and stab him again out of fear. He collapsed and I ran as
fast from him as I possibly could toward the playground. I made it
to the playground wondering, still, where my car was that contained
my staff. I needed desperately to find my staff. I looked around to
try and see where my staff could be and I found no car, so there
was no staff. I knew my staff was my only defense against what was
to come next. But before it came another man walked in through the
gate by the house and through the gate I had raced through. No tree
was there anymore. He moved through the next gate into the rest of
the backyard. He began to look around for something, so I took it
upon myself to try and hide behind the playground because I knew I
couldn't make it to the prickly bush next to the playground were
cover was better. I looked over at the clouds and knew they had
stopped right where the clouds had wanted to all along. The sun was
still shining a little but not as bright as it was, it had dimmed
in that short of a time. I kept quivering in terror at the giant of
a man. He was fat and grotesque, with a malicious smile fast on his
face. He called out finally "I know where you are Sean. I can see
you." and as he said that last statement he turned his head and
looked straight at me, looked me straight in the eye. I was
terrorfid beyond reason. If I hadn't went to the bathroom when I
did I would have peed my pants. He continued his malicious,
murderous smile and started to walk forward slowly. As he was
coming up on the pool my resolve quickened and hardened. I had a
knife in my hand and he had nothing, I had thought, I can take him.
So I moved slowly, still quivering, around the playground to the
front of the slide and began to move forward toward the man, knife
at the ready. He just smiled wider and said, "I'm going to get you.
You can't stop me or us." His smile widened and he moved forward
again this time faster and faster until he was full out running like
the wind, literally. He came upon me too fast and out of nowhere
and took the knife right out of my hands. I managed to move before
he could grab me but I fell down instead. I turned to face him fast
to see him smiling the same smile he had on his face the whole
time. "I'm going to get you. You can't stop me. I finally have
you." he said with utter joy in his ominous voice, sweetly, almost.
He took up the knife and advanced upon me, but I scrambled up and
ran for my life again. He was fast on my heels. I kept moving,
darting left and right so I could get to the pool and have the pool
between us to try and buy myself time to figure something out. But
he blocked my path and swing the knife. I proved to be the faster this time and ducked just in time to hear it whistle over my head and I ran all the more faster towards the garage because they weren't allowed in the garage, or the house for that matter. I ran and ran only to find him next to me slicing my arm down the side, making it sting with pain. I began to screech as loud and full of terror as I possibly could "Mommy!" I then saw someone move out of the house stealthily as I spun to get free of the swinging knife next to me. When I spun I saw her run around to the far side of the barn and disappear. I then began to screech with the same terror in my voice the hole time I was screeching mommy, I screeched for my Aunt Julie. I only had to say her name once. The man grabbed me and was slicing my arm again, toying with me, when the woman I saw came. As the knife finally came stabbing at my side, while I was running again, the woman sliced down and took his knife arm clean off. He screamed and screamed and then I woke up to right about this "dream." The woman was my Aunt Julie, but it wasn't I can't really explain that bit, but that's what it was like. This "dream" was more than just a "dream" it scares me a little.
Why do people hurt each other when all they wanted was to be loved?
Why do the ones we love betray us when we would never betray them?
Nothing but pain is left,
Nothing but the pain of wanting to die is replaced with your heart.
Why do people we love want to bring us down and kill us from the inside out?
All is taken down with the power of words
All is taken to the heart like a three stared blade of corruption.
Why does it always hurt when all you wanted to do is help only to get put down?
What happens when there is nothing left but to die with all the pain and shame of your wallowing life.
What can you do when everything comes crashing down on top of your head crushing your spine with the hope of suicidal love.
Isn't it romantic that we wish to die in such a gory way?
Isn’t it romantic to be hurt by the ones you loved all along.
What happens when the lies surround you and take you on their tide?
Nothing but self-pity and shame to cover your tracks.
Nothing but the pain of a betrayal just to hurt.
Just to make you hurt.
What do you do when nothings left but the hope of suicide?
What do you do?
What happens when you’ve been hurt forever?
By: Sean
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Okay I am NOT new here! I just wanted to establish that I had to delete my account one time and now i have been given the freedom of choice and have come back to my dark world! MUHAHAHAHA LOL TEEHEE But anyhoo......I hope you enjoy my journal! I have some poems that I think are personal to me so I will post those in here the rest of the poems I will be posting in the normal poetry section. ENJOY!!!!!
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