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Having an outsider's perspective can be quite refreshing.



It can also be frustrating when you see the same mistakes happening again, and again. Still responsibility should be placed on the individuals NOT making the change. At some point, if you truly want your world to be a better place, then you have to be the one to step up and be the change.

I'm going to stroll into work today :) I have a few things to pick up on the way, the bank to stop at and post office...



I can already tell it's a great day.

Not having proper working internet at home is seriously getting in the way of my studies and work (I have subscriptions to video training and other workshops that require active working internet).



Worst part is, I still have to wait until Sept 5. *sigh*

cutting sugar out of my diet is a bit... uncomfortable. However it was long over due, more over, with all the grains lately- I've been over doing it.



Meh.

The biggest "break through" does not happen in the big race. It happens on the morning where you want to quit. That moment unlike all the others, defines how you will race, live and your truth. You can

Today was a movie, followed by a three hour nap, some laundry, another movie, and four dog walks.



Good day- I don't know how long it's been since I've had a day of "nothing".



More of these are wanted in the very near future.

Continuation of the soap opera that life sometimes gives us:



So it seems the day after my visit with the police, the receptionist was fired. The same one that caused me to get fired. More over, one of the long standing practitioners who is a personal friend of the owner quit.



There is no gloating over this. This is simply bad.



And it's a place that I believed in so much that I spent 3 years there trying to grow and develop it. Yet, this is out of my influence and control, I know this.



I'm glad I'm not there, just hearing what is happening is stressful.



But things keep on the up and up. New referral today, from an MD no less. A working contract for 3 months at local PT clinic; where I can do private appointments.



It's been a great day and week (even the stressful points) now it's time to hit the laundry mat (my queen size feather mattress requires UBER machine!) and then movie and pup time.



Life is indeed great :)

Wow. So no internet for a week when at home.



More importantly, my previous employer called the cops on me last night. Had in interesting discussion with them this morning when they showed up at my work.



Seems someone broke into their server and pulled one of my long standing patient information. Only that client had contacted me as of the first of Aug, showed the officer that... and I had their complete patient file... with all the information he had on it. So I would do this WHY????



Honestly I don't know what to think, the more I start the more I realize they aren't worth it.



It's a good feeling honestly- a clearing. I have no issue that they didn't do me service and they weren't able to communicate with me well- or that our energies crossed and that the time had passed where we were a good fit.



Fair enough, but my life has moved on and I'm trying to make the most of what I have. I know there is another shift that I'm in the middle of- it's just about riding this wave.



Good things can be seen from the wave, and I'm hoping to arrange a breaking point that is relatively calm and more in alignment of what I am looking for in life.



Change, it's something that you embrace or fight; but it happens regardless.

How slow is my internet?



I pay for 3MBPS and right now we are at 3kbps...



In otherwords, dial up is faster. FMI (yes, you read that right. My life is great, fuck my internet- it needs some spunk)

I have been dealing with craptastic internet. So if I don't answer I'm at work or just got booted for the umpteenth million time. *sigh*

Throwing the beaver for my Weiner makes me happy.

And we've finished the Poker Run for this year.



I'm still seriously looking at a "re-brand". Some things are simply not worth "fighting" and would mean that others would have to change who they are, that's their business, not mine.



So looking at what worked, and what didn't... I'm not certain exactly how this will look or move forward.



Yes, I'm talking about removing Garry's name entirely from it.



Because at this point, it needs to not be just "us". Too many of "us" have conflicts, work, etc, and not enough of "us" are contributing through the year. But the day of- it is an onslaught of what "YOU SHOULD DO".



I spoke with the co-chair, and explained (she agreed) where she and I broke down with communication and where others; just did what they wanted, regardless of what we said/did. Not cool.



However, our two year total is at/just under $4,000; we tripled rider ship (double is standard), and did it with only the word of mouth we generated. Not too shabby.



But for next year, we need someone to take over the raffle table (will be easier as it can be set up the night before), the co-chair will tell the stops what to do (she told half, and the rest looked at me- that wasn't supposed to happen). And I will run around with head cut off again- LOL, not really, but my day is typically one of clarification (no matter HOW many times I went over things with everyone before), running around for "oh you needed this? I thought I didn't need to bring it if I didn't need it..." or, "hey, I have that prize, I forgot to get it to you by yesterday, can you come get it today?"....



Yes, those are real aspects that happened. I had to leave site 2x, simply because of lack of communication- and not answering the phones or text's that were sent trying to get clarification. It happens. Any time you have a large group of people, it can be a mess.



Next year: One person for ride, One for raffle/prizes (this is more a day of position unless we get someone willing to do it year round- we did have someone, but they dropped out in June without telling us that is what they were doing), One for bikes (if we do that) and then I get to round up sponsors, and answer their questions/flow etc. I figure each one of these will need one other helper so that is six people we need. More if we add other areas. For stops, we will need 8 people; and if we do bikes, then add 8 more. However, those are typically people who just come and "go".



Part of what happened is our person who did the raffle, is rather persistent (which is good) but with the lower number of people at Rocky's this year, it ended up turning pushy (IMO- and it was towards family and friends who went out of their way to come and support. That is an issue I have). More over, we have to be "ok" with making less if there are less people. We KNEW going in this year, that we wouldn't have the "draw" because our primary sponsors didn't even post our posters.



We need that support more than any other if you ask me. That where "word of mouth" truly comes from. I can only do so much, as can the other 5-6 that are part of the committee. And I know for certain that they don't do as much (face it, for me to survive in business I have to talk about it ALL the time, to EVERYONE. They view that as pushy, I view it as day to day ~Now reconsider my statement about our raffle person, they were doing what was needed, but for what the majority of us want- it was just a touch too much. Trust me, we all did "too much" at one point or another this weekend.



Massage and Acupuncture did well, we pulled between 7-10% of the total amount (not too shabby for only being there 2 hours). And it was a fun day. That is what this is all about, fun and raising money.



We need to step away from "greed" and let it be what it will be, which it could be- letting it go. I'm good with that.



But I'm truly grateful for all that have helped and supported this. Hopefully whatever I do next year, has enough heart to gain that support (that or that you simply love me enough) lol :)



Great wrap up, now to get my "life" in order.

I am two days before the Poker Run, and ACK I have way too much to do! If I'm here I'm just popping in.



See you on the flip side (Sunday Pm or Monday).



www.freakpokerrun.com for what we're doing;



My personal fundraising page is: this goes directly to charity and if you're in Canada you can get a tax receipt for $20+



http://my.e2rm.com/personalPage.aspx?registrationID=1958924



Wish us luck!

Irony?



Yup that's life. I'm moved to tears this morning by a picture a classmate of mine and Marie's posted. Last week she was diagnosed with a form of Leukaemia. Funny part is, her acupuncture practise is focused on cancer treatment.



Now her colleagues are treating her.



Some days it simply hits harder than others, this week it is no wonder why.



Still no use crying over life, better use is to make differences where you can and improve on things as you're able.



This week is a reminder of why I really like this fundraiser, as small as it is. I know what we are doing is helping the patients, not the big pharma, or others- but those in need.



Perspective.

So I went to go see Wolverine this afternoon. Meh. I kinda wish I had gone to a friends to watch the Doctor instead. However it's done and well... meh.



I did my carpets today and I finished some of my laundry.



Tomorrow is the Acupuncture by donation day, I'm hoping to bring in $100 for the fund we'll see how many people show up. I'm so behind on everything I'm not wanting to do anything. So tonight, games and a book since I don't get another day "off" till next week.



Here we go!

Iced coffee and ice cream, followed by steak and potato salad. Yup summer meals.

Holy craptastic internet.



I finally called the company as there was NADDA with connection last night to this morning. I don't pay to sit without an ability to get online.



So I might be silent this week, if they can't fix the connection. Also it's one week to the poker run- so last chance to donate coffee money (heh i'm a brat)



and wish us well :)

Really?



Why do men think it's;



1. ok to send a friend sexual innuendo that isn't really innuendo when they are in a relationship with another woman.



2. complimentary to tell me you'd leave your gf for me.



3. ok to look at me like I'm a meal.



Hint: It's not, and any of the above do nothing to turning me on, in fact they do the opposite, the make me dislike you immensely. Want to get a woman's attention:



1. love the woman you're with. Yes, we as other women will be a tad envious and view you as more attractive.



2. don't just say something to make someone feel good, say something you mean. We'll hear the sincerity and appreciate what was said.



3. respect me as a person, I'm far more willing to fall into certain roles when I know the person I'm with above all else respects me. It's called trust, and nothing is going to happen with out it.

So my internet connection at home has been "poopy" in a big way. Seems the construction and the rain the last couple of days really ruined it. Today so far, it's working and it isn't nearly as slow... *crossing fingers* because let me tell you it's annoying!

You speak as if a measure of a woman is in her looks.



You think you understand the breadth of honour, while your words are vile.



You taunt and "Call people out" because you know you can hurt them.



You push buttons that show your utter lack of understanding, empathy or decency.



Yet you think all of these actions make you better, when they show you to be without self esteem aside from the misogynistic views you have bought into.



I don't have to judge, for the measure you hold others to, you will never attain.