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The Day After Valentine's
13:47 Feb 15 2006
Times Read: 759

I am not much for the mushy stuff, but am not used to being absolutely alone. I have always had at least friends with me partying . But hey thats the price I have to pay.

Wish this divorce will hurry up and be done with. I have plans and i am ready to do them. I am getting sick of waiting.

07:49 Feb 13 2006
Times Read: 761

I am here. Where are you?
13:32 Feb 01 2006
Times Read: 768


If you see these friends of mine please tell them that I am looking for them. Thanks

What life is this?
13:20 Feb 01 2006
Times Read: 770

I cannot fathom the things I put up with all in the name of peace. Between my ex and guys who do not understand anything I say to parents and my House to my friends and family. I survived when I died. I came back. I arose again and again. I begin to feel again and now my heart wants to close itself. Why hasn't it? I ask myself a lot lately. I know that my brother Raziel has helped me more than I will tell him. He has been ther for me in ways that I cannot describe to those who have their dragon asleep and dormant inside. I have learned a lot and I hate that I am not more helpful to you. I thank my Lord for sharing his pains and trials with me and has shown me that this family isn't perfect but still very special. To my Lady who has stood by watching and listening and always looking. You are a great person and are always there. I am lost yet I know that I will never be found. My Darkness haunts me and keeps me in a void. I cannot continue to fight the same battle raging for years but I will not break to give my enemy satisfaction. I will continue onward until I die and stay dead. A cat who has lost 3 lives and still got 6 to go. ^^ O bah v.v My smile is a lie.

Thank you my brother. May we forever continue to help one another.

What family is perfect?
13:06 Feb 01 2006
Times Read: 771


Family can be our worst enemy at times. We tend to want to appease them before thinking and in that we do things we regret. I feel sad that my House, my family looked short to it themselves. I wish I can erase the mistakes made and make my Lord himself again. But I know that no matter what I say or do, I cannot correct what was made before me. Here is what my Lord says of his pain that my family caused. No House is perfect, even one that you start.



TO ALL OF NOCTEM AETERNUS!!!!!!!!!!

04:21:25 - Dec 29 2005

Times Read: 53



I sit here and think of what it is to love someone and bring them into your family no make a family with them, then push them out cause the family hates them. you try and tell the fam that we are going to fight but we make up, cause we are family. but to no end I still sit alone. I made this family to have others like me around. yet I still sit alone. I pushed her away cause they were upset with her and that made me upset with her what A FUCKING ass I am. I let my own children brake up my family. YALL ALL FAIL TO SEE! she is part of me as I am part of all of you with her gone she takes the best part of me with her....

my softer side the side that kept you all alive.

I fliped on her for you all! how can you say you love me yet you's push a part of me out?

you's put her down infront of me knowing it hurts me.. she is a dam good fucking person I took out all on her when you's fucked up who got it the worse? she did some of you knew what yous did should have gotten you's killed but yet yous say all the times she pissed me off and she was still part of the house? how can you's say that when you all have fucked up and I still held you in my arms? she got us the place she got us the ultilitys she did all that for you's not cause you's asked her to but cause we are family that is what family is about and you know what she is back if any of you's say anything ill to or about her you are out I don't care who it is do you understand me! I am not loseing the first part of this for one who is new or has not done as much for the house like the pillars of our house says we come from all walks of life we must respect that and if you can't GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE HEART AND LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!! WE ALL LET HER DOWN WE LET HER FALL!!!!!!!!!!



M'Lord. stay strong for we are weak to our humanity.