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To live in a world of temptation

with one after another

trying to move you to commit a sin

somehting that yo udont deserve forgiveness for..

if you fall into temptation

like a fallen angle

you'll never find your way out

once you fall into DAMNATION

Your such a tease

im on my knees

im praying

im begging

just listen to waht im saying

im bleeding inside for...

this feeling

refuses to subside

my heartbeat quickens

my blood thickens

your words a million daggers entering my body





A ringing in my ears

knowing all of my fears

A heart breaking

my whole world shaking

such a sound

my smile collapses into a frown

as i blink

i break the link

i think

between you and i

Dont look in my eyes!

My love out of control

Flicker wne caought by the wind

MOmentarly lighting an area of dark

A flame dancing

Always fighting

Changin odds seeming to never be in its favor...

The cool wind plays with her hair

As a fall leaf swiftly hovers above the ground

light dances from the windows

slowly the morning dew fades

a tear desends from her cheek

as it hits the ground it seems to grow

more want to follow the path, the first one left

Small fingers...

those of a child wipe them aways

pickng her small body from the ground

she tries to see the beauty

that she knows surrounds her

back to the door

she closes her eyes wanting to rememvver

the days when she had no fears

except those of a child

careless worries, of the things that lurk in the dark

fr now her burdens have grown

her little shoulds seems to crumbe under the weight

at night her hands cover little ears

trying to hide from the angry voices

in a closet...

under a bed...

or in a little corner...

any where that she can be nothing to the world that surrounds her

unnoticed, unimportant

until the yelling ceases

and peace is restored, in the little house she is afaird to call...home...

to much to deal wiht

to much pain

to many endless days

Nights that seems to come and go

my memory bares no recolation of tehm

the candle that holds the flame

that my fingers dance across

the candles ficklers and goes out

at the same time myh undersanding of what

im dealing with seems to dissappear

as if the light of the candle fueled my understanding

its as if i have no way out

i reach for the nearest thing

a sharp tip

a smooth surface

i feel the energy as if it was released from the knife

A soft tikle

A little pain

I feel free

a cold trace of red flows down my arm

IT dances along my finger

on the carpet beneath

i deal with a little pain

while i am sent flying

Aways from my problems

this feeling becomes formilar to me

i crave to feel it

i havent lit my candle agian

i always want to feel free

you might never understand me

i dont but im okay with that

the blood runs once again

and i get to fly once more...

I was a child

Living in a constant nightmare

the kind of nightmare where you cant scream

you just go on

telling yourself your going to wake up

you never let yourself relize you never went to sleep

there were no words for hte pain I felt

In no way can i explain it

Let alone yours

It is a feeling as if...

YOu are so lost in a field

you feel sick

becasue of to many things kept inside

I'll never forget that night

the night that in more ways then one could have been the end

the memory is like an old movie

you can put it away

never paly it again

but you never forget it

you always relate things to it

other people cry when they hear of it

I cant cry

to many other feelings win over

Rage for one....

Hate for another...

the need for REVENGE, wins over all

i will never forget the cries for help i heard

I heard the cries more then once

ON the nights when no one was around

or so they thought

at those late hours when everyone was alseep

to wake up to hear your mother scream

that will never leave a childs memory

7, 15, 20 years could pass

and it wouldnt chang what happened all that time ago

I have to wait for the day that i can say i have woke from my nightmare....

The lights seem to go out

Please somebody, anybody

Find the swithc

turn them on

like a maze

My mind seems to run

IN tangled circles

They say the "switch" is at the end

Im starting to wonder

IS there an end?

An end to my problems

My confusion

all of this termoil

All of this time now

I believed

Now i wonder if I do

The darkness seems to me like a thick fog

So I cant see the end

So I turn and start to try to get through the maze again

so CONFUSED

i try to run

but where am i running

for htere is no end

everytime i try

there just seems to be more

So lost

Troubled is what they call me

It seems to have become a second name

I still run it seems to begin to clear up

still i wonder if i'll ever find the end