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I don't remember ever feeling so lost, alone and hopeless... except maybe when my father died.



In essence... this loss is very much like the death of a loved one.



Things will never be right again. Never.

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Sinora
08:49 Jul 18 2009

*Hugs*.

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For my honey... my Henry... my husband in my heart... I will love you forever.

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"Unforgettable" ~Nat King Cole~



Unforgettable, thats what you are

Unforgettable though near or far

Like a song of love that clings to me

How the thought of you does things to me

Never before has someone been more



Unforgettable in every way

And forever more, thats how youll stay

Thats why, darling, its incredible

That someone so unforgettable

Thinks that I am unforgettable too



Unforgettable in every way

And forever more, thats how youll stay

Thats why, darling, its incredible

That someone so unforgettable

Thinks that I am unforgettable too

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ABHORASH
20:30 Feb 10 2019

I will love you forever, my brat.

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I love this song by Buckcherry...





Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away

I missed you and things weren't the same

'Cause everything inside it never comes out right

And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die



I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all things I said to you

And I know, I cant take it back.

I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds

And baby, the way you make my world go round

And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry



This time I think, I'm to blame

It's harder to get through the days

You get older and blame turns to shame

'Cause everything inside it never comes out right

And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die



I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all things I said to you

And I know, I cant take it back

I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds

And baby, the way you make my world go round

And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry



Every single day, I think about how we came all this way

The sleepless nights and the tears you cried

It's never too late to make it right

Oh yeah



Sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all things I said to you

And I know, I cant take it back

I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds

And baby, the way you make my world go round

And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

I guess I've reached the stage where I've accepted the fact that I can not control what's going on in my life right now. I wish I could change so many things, but I can't. All I can do is just go through the motions of my daily routine, and hope and pray that things will get better soon. Not so much better for me, but for the people I love. Me I don't particularly care about anymore. There are times when I'm actually happy for awhile... doing something I enjoy, taking my mind off certain realities. Then there are other times when I'm ready to be done with this world and all these feelings of hopelessness and despair. It's always worse at night... just before I go to bed... that's when everything seems to hit me again, all at once and with a vengeance. The last couple of nights it's not been so bad. As I said before, I believe I've reached the acceptance stage of the things I'm currently dealing with.

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eMetiB226
01:24 Jul 12 2009

you always have friends here willing to be there. ;)



just be careful using your yahoo....lol

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temptation101
03:00 Jul 12 2009

Chin up my sweet sistah, it will work itself out! :)



I know how you are feeling. If you ever need anything, please give me a call. I will do what I can for you.



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I'm tired of letting down people that I care about. I'm tired of hurting people that I love.

I'm tired of bringing bad luck into the lives of people that happen to come into my life.



All I have ever wanted to do was be a good person, to take care of the people I love and care about, and to eventually find happiness with a good man who will treat me right and will love me simply for who I am... faults and all. To grow old with him, and live out the rest of our lives together.



I'm not whining. I'm not trying to garner sympathy from anyone. I'm not looking for pity or anything even remotely like that. I just need to say these things, sometimes... to type them out, read them, then move on to something else and concentrate on things that take my mind off how much I don't want to be here anymore.



I need my "other half", my "better half", my "soul mate"... my reason for being. Without him, there's no point to anything in my world.

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Kyriele
05:03 Jul 05 2009

Ahhhh...my soul twin. You don't let anyone down. If their expectations did not match the outcome?? It's their disappointment...not owned by you, love.



We all get lonely. We all feel detached from everyone at some time...whether we're with our soul mate or not. It's like being in a crowded party when you suddenly feel completely alone...or worse than alone.



Talk all you need to :)

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eMetiB226
04:04 Jul 06 2009

I don't think you could let anyone down if you tried, my dear. You are a wonderful person, and what is happening that is beyond your control does not change that fact. You are not bad luck. You must stay strong. If not for you, then for him. Because you might possibly be the only person there for him, and he needs you. you have let no one down.



*hugs*

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I began sobbing uncontrollably last night, because I thought of where you were, and what you were having to deal with. I cried for about an hour, until I was too exhausted to cry anymore... and I went to bed, with saying "I love you so much, Henry" being the last thing I did before falling asleep. I was hoping you might somehow "hear" those words, and know that I was thinking about you.



Tonight, once again, I found myself crying so badly... missing you, worrying about you, wanting to hold you in my arms and comfort you from what you've gone through already and what is yet to happen to you. I want so much to make everything alright... to wish away all the bad things that are happening to you... to help you find a way out of this horrible situation, and to do everything I can to make you happy, for the rest of your life. You ARE my life. I don't know what I'm going to do without you... they can't take you away from me... it isn't fair... it isn't right.



My heart is breaking and I'm crying again. And this is how it will be, until you're back with me again... and then we'll be together forever, as husband and wife. There will never, EVER, be another man for me. You are THE ONE... and the only love of my life.



I love you, my Henry... so very much.

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ABHORASH
20:34 Feb 10 2019

I love you. I appreciate all you bring to my life. I've told you many many times that you are an extraordinary woman. I wish you could see the woman I see when I look at you.

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I don't know what I'm going to do, if things don't work out the way we both pray they will. How am I going to get along without you? What will be my reason for looking ahead to the future? Why are these terrible things constantly happening?? If these are tests, enough already!



If I could have but one wish granted, it would be for you, my honey... so you could have the chance to just live a normal, happy life.



I love you so much, and I'm hurting for you... I want a life with you, because without you I am nothing.



I love you... I miss you... I need you.

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ABHORASH
20:37 Feb 10 2019

I wish you would stop thinking so little of yourself. I havevto pay the piper. I love you and I will be back. I am yours, now and forever.

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