It doesnt get any easier, I leave to go back to my sucky dungeon in hell in the morning. Im already in tears having to say good bye to my girl yet again, and with the added news I recieved on this trip, my heart is soo torn and hurting. I miss my girl being with me everyday, and its hard to sit alone waiting for the next time. Ive tried so hard not to slip back to old ways of dealing with pain, but idk if I can hold out much longer. Its too hard, I feel so useless and unimportant in the big picture. I love my girl and I hate I failed her and this situation is happening. its the best thing in the world to hear in the morning "Hi Daddy" from your little one....
so yesterday was my little Baby Bats Birthday she turned 2 years old and she is my little princess and Im so gld she came into my life. With all my mental issue, and insecurities I have dealing with most people I have none with her and I feel much better when she is with me. People complain about things like who is changing the diapers and stuff. Me I miss everything about being a daddy since she isnt with me everyday no more. Its probably the only good thing Ive done in my life is being her daddy..Happy Birthday my little punkin toot.
it seems when i feel shit is to the point i want to give up. more gets added to it. I feel pretty much about as crappy as I can feel anymore, and dont know why I bother when everything seems to just end up getting worse..
https://www.vampirerave.com/public_page.php?id=571
okay so he we are in the dark damp walls of a long deep cave. The air is cool and hazy, you are now entering the Batty Zone.
~play ominous music here~
We start this story in Dramaville, VR , a certain person with too much time on their hands sits at their computer all day, and used that computer to unleash their delusional reality on a social society. Little do they know the cyber door they opened has taken them too....TheBatty Zone.
cyber stalker: let me see who I can point my issues at today? Oh yes Ill get that one. Hey dumb ass why why dont you get a life and stop sitting on youre computer all day.
cyber stalker anonymously 1: hey bitch youre ugly
cyber stalker anonymously 2: get job bitch
cyber stalker anonymously 3: man everybody hates your ass
~cyber stalker sits in victims cam anonymously~
Victim: hey friend how are you?
Friend: Im okay how are you?
Cyber stalker anon: Victim youre a bitch and need a job, everybody hates you!
Victim: sorry Friend, Cyber Stalker is here.
Cyber stalker anon: Im not Cyber Stalker you bitch, shes in her own cam, she cant be here too, she has witnesses.
Victim: Ok Cyber Stalker I forgot you cant have more than one profile opened at a time, and only one cam too.
Cyber stalker anon: Damn right bitch get your facts straight you cant prove I was here.
Friend: Just turn them off ignore the coward.
Victim: Ok
~Later on this day after numerous journal comments and blocks and unfriending or down rates Cyber Bully is still at the computer~
Cyber Bully: I have to write a kismet about Victim being a bully. And post a journal about it too. What should I say? Hmmm.. I've been sitting here quietly minding my own business, but Victim started talking shit about me and is making people hate me. I will no longer sit here and take this abuse, I'm tired of being bullied.
~Cyber Bully quickly posts this to all her profiles and then anonymously attack there honot leaving the same hateful comment. She sits back perplexed wondering why people do not like her and why people do not believe her lies. Her eyes grow hazy from being on her computer all day a haze that haze taken her too......The Batty Zone
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Ooooo Shit!!! HAHAHAHA ^_^
Buuuuuuuuuurn ;)
This made me giggle like a school gurl. Well done Bats.
i thought it was funny...I should have paid attention a bit better to my spelling and a couple double words..lol
Im not sure how many people are having some sort of issues with VR, Ive heard a couple people having problems with accessing covens or mentorships. Problems with the coven/ mentorship forums being down. Im not having any of them problems, but I cant seem to get this damn mp3 file to delete from my profile storage any one else having a similar problem??
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I've received several acolyte questions but have not answered them. I'm leaving them for images of mooniepie because I honestly have no answer for these types of issues, but I have logged onto several of my accounts and I'm not having issues accessing any coven or mentorship forum...so, yeah, I'm clueless.
I'm not having this problem either. I've not ever heard of this. If I was you, I would message Cancer himself? Could be a technical glitch or something? I mean, I don't know much about computers, internet, servers and how they work. I do know that Cancer was doing stuff late as hell last night because he posted a SYSTEM message in the box. Maybe it has something to do with that? I know it can be kind of glitchy?
i had no issues accessing my coven either, I was actually editing a page in mine so Idk if my forums were ok or not...
My main issue is I uploaded a song trying to change my music last night, when I used it on my profile it said file was not found on server and my profile wouldnt show up..I went to delete the song from my storage and try a different one, and can not get the song file to delete, Ive hit that button at least 15 times, cleared my cache a couple times, even tried profile back ups, and that damn mp3 is still there and wont leave...lol
I believe the Forums issue was related to the new site. Cancer did say he was going to tackle that soon. The Main Forum was down for a bit around 3-4 am, as well as Coven Forums. Everything is back now, though.
I find it pretty funny that since making the top 10 in honor section all of a sudden I start getting hit by negative honor. Its funny because I have no issues with really anybody and the only one that leaves a name is the puppet distraction profile citizenx, an extra profile of someone worried about their main profile. Ive been here many years, and hear many stories. I watched trouble makers be protected by admins while cancer loses paying customers. Ive been blocked by armies of profiles owned by a few people for outting site trouble makers to who they were preying on. Even warned admins of a predator now in jail. The easiest assumption for negative honor is the fact someone in the top 10 is just mad I made it there and using there hidden profiles to knock me out. It doesnt really matter, I was never trying to get there. Others decided to get me there and there respect is worth more than the number just knowing they feel I deserved it.
Anyway than you to those who got me in the top 10 for a bit. I appreciate it. To those who dont like like it and have to play games, maybe be better friends to more people.
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You deserve to be on top because your one of very few that carry themselves honorably in daily life. Alot here need to put their grown up pants on. To many are petty... i will continue to give you all my honor. To those trying to knock you down. I will create profiles to simply give you honor . You are one of very few here that i love and trust. Your a amazing person that i feel blessed to have you in my life. To your negative seeking haters they can bite my white ass lol sincerly Ladybloodmoon.
haha Thank you Nikki, youve always had my back, and I always watch yours, and Ive act how I do in part to honor those I care about..I NEVER wanted my actions to come back on you or your coven. Thanks for being my best friend
Omg i am so giving you all my honer....no one touches my batty ...
it is funny as hell... they do me the same way. lol cracks me up every time too. lol
*shakes head*
Rise against.. Stay true and keep on being you.. :-)
Thanks guys!
yeah I heard you get hit hard Robin, some people are just so pathetic they have nothing better to do ten try to cause others grief...People take there status way to serious..honor dont even do anything, just a way of people showing that youre ok or youre trouble, some use all their profiles to put someone in the negative and then try to convince others (see hes bad everybody thinks so). pretty stupid and childish how so called adults act around here
It's about time someone else besides me pointed at this bullshit. And people can say "I don't care about that" all they want... But when I see later that they're giving multiple profile honors and have over 2000 honor themselves, that tells me not only do they CARE, they care VERY MUCH. I know what it takes to get to the top. I only did it to piss people off. I did it. I proved my point. It's a waste of time. I thought you deserved to be up there because you're not afraid to open your mouth when something isn't fair or right. Using your position as a way to bully others is not only distasteful, but disgraceful and disgusting. It's such a shame that members of our military who could have done something great with their life choose to dishonor and berate others and try to make them feel bad. That would be my best guess. ;)
like I said I didnt ask to be there, you wanted me there, other give me honor if they want to, and thats really all that matters, those people show they respect me, or like me, being in the top didnt matter to me, and you said once I got there Id start getting hit. and several of them in the top are friends of mine so that just makes the field smaller as to who is probably doing it...My profiles in use have pics of me on all of them, Im not sneaking around trying to pretend Im someone else. Im just here to talk to people and try to meet some new eople once in awhile.
Supposed to be about fun :D
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StrangeWings
16:54 Jan 20 2017
Sorry to hear this, I know the feeling. I sincerely wish the situation will get better and that you find a way to be with her. You are a great guy and very talented - don't give up hope and focus on better days yet to come!