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okay...its monday...that s just yucky.



Haven't had practice for a while. My bass player's wife's grandmother died.



I might be getting another car. A '95 camaro...it belongs to a guy I have a crush on.....thats scary i know



I am getting 2 more horses this weekend. A stud and a filly. They are free...so that s good. I just have to train them...



I started playing a new video game...Shin Megumi Tensi. Its really interesting...:)

I'm boring myself now. Bye Bye

I quit my job. I couldn't stand my boss cursing me and making me carry heavy things. I'm a girl for Christ's sake. I shouldn't have to carry 100lb boxes while the boys stand around and my boss plays video games. That and the fact that my paycheck was 5 days late.



I put my mom's mother's day gift on layaway. It was a pair of diamond and gold earrings. she's asked for a pair for 10 years and I finally saved the money and got them :) at least I did something right.



I have had a freakin headache for 2 days now. It hurts sooo bad...I think my head is going to explode. I haven't had one like this since the hemorrage that I had.



Band practice has been good. I'm still with it. I'm going backstage to meet Seether and Crossfade in June with the band Alter. ITs good having friends.

Another werid guy asked me out. thats 25 so far. Why can't there be any nice guys???



Oh well...I guess I am ment to be alone...Sigh

I am finally doing good. For once. I have been very busy. Band practice, working...yeah...I have a new guitar too...An Ibanez Iceman. I got traded in my bass. It was messing up a whole lot. I am looking at a Gibson or an Ibanez bass. I am happy with my guitar.

My voice is starting to hurt from doing high pitch vocals...! its fun.



Okay I am repeating myself. I am going now..!

I don't know why..but i have been very depressed lately. I have no energy, and I either want to hurt someone or be held by someone...if not both...I have began distancing myself.

Everyone is so iritating. I have been dealing with everyone's problems, and no one wants to listen to mine. I don't even have a shoulder to cry on, if I did cry.

It really sucks. My last boyfriend really hurt me. I didn't love him, but i think that it was definatley an odd relationship. I don't even think about him, but I don't want to go to anyone else. I can't find anyone around here.

No one here actually understands what its like to be different. My friends say they do, but I know that they don't. They don't even listen.

Then my boss, cusses me out. My BOSS!!!...I dont' know what in the hell to do.

I don't want to be here anymore. I don't like being like this. Someone, anyone, HELP ME!!!!!!!!