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So its the 24th of June 2010, im still working in the dead end job, for ass holes that have no idea what i do for them, im still overweight, and pretty much drunk as i type this so all i all another fucked up day in the life of jono.



You ever think to your self TODAY!!!! is the day i change my life, but you actually don't change it you just carry on with same old fucking shit you did the other day is it my free will that wont allow me to change or am i just ok with the way i am.



Fuck me i have no clue any more, i wake up and im like oh fuck today is shit and before i even leave bed i know im right. Fucking hell my wrist is killing me seems every know an then i do believe i can make more of my life you know exercise a bit went on the punch bag to do some cardio guess what fucked my wrist lol. I still weight lifting that's one thing i do enjoy at the moment to bad my wrist is fucked cant lift the damn things atm.



So that's today, England got through the next round of the world cup i saw the second half due to wankers for bosses so not bad, i guess didn't think i was going to see any of it.



Only did enough work to get through the day lied to some customers i could of solved there problems but why should i fuck them, fucking idiots.



So writting random shit explaining my day to you all why the fuck am i doing this i dont fucking know just a random act of a guy that has no fucking idea what hes doing on a day to day basis lol.



So eat shit and die enjoy life world.

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DestroyingAngel
04:56 Jun 27 2010

Jon, Listen, stop worrying about your physical appearance because it is absolutley perfect as it is!!! I hear you loud and clear on the dead end jobs and wanting to have what the little kids call a 'do over' when it comes to life! Perhaps it is not time for your do over just yet. As you know me all too wel....I am the one that believes that AL THINGS HAPEN FOR A REASON. That the hands of fate or whatevere you wanna call it (destiny and so on) have better planned for you. Hnag in there, dude and KNOW that you are extremely special and dear to me!!! I am sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. Chin up, know that you are perfect as is and most importantly....BELIEVE THAT! We dont drop anchor over anything....no matter what. *hugs hard*

I too miss you so very much Jono......*hugs again*

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DestroyingAngel
04:58 Jun 27 2010

OH WOW!!!

*is sorry about all the damn typos too lmao embarassed*

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So arose today with a sense of good strangely enough haven't had that much often lately. Did the usual got up got dressed headed out to work. Bus fucking late so i was late that put a damner on my morning.



Got in sat down looked at my desk sighed and got on with it, strangely thou got a alot done not everything i wanted to get done just the things i needed to. Then low and behold a shit storm was brewing lol it seems no one actually fucking appreciates anything you these days oh they make you think they do but fucking hell there right behind you with a 6ft katana ready to jam it up your ass just when your ready to sit down and take a break.



My boss just doesn't want me to be happy im fucking sure of it im actually hoping the bitch gets in a head on collision and the fucking steering wheel goes through her fucking skull and that body she thinks is so beautiful goes flying through the windscreen rolling around and hitting the floor at 100mph fucking bitch.



You ever feel like that , that you wish someone would just fucking combust into flames for no fucking reason other than there complete fucking waste of human resource.



If there is an almighty then he made an all mighty fucking mistake giving that bitch a fucking mouth should of gave her an extra asshole where her mouth should be at least it would make sense the amount of bullshit that comes out of her.



Well enough of the rant, lol you may be able to tell i really don't like my boss :P



So i stopped work at 3pm watched the football on the computer fuck them, they can pay me to do fuck all since that's what they think i do all fucking day.



Got on the bus, saw an old friend (well lol used to be more but hey didn't work out) looking beautiful as she ever did, shared a cigarette with her. Had a chat added her to face book since i lost her old addy so the end of the day didn't finish to bad all in all just another fucking same old weird as shit fucking day.



And how was your guys days?

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DestroyingAngel
08:22 Jun 16 2010

*slaps knee roflmao* Wow Jono.....that was truly a GREAT description of what you hope for your boss. I was lmao. BTW if we shared a cigarette......*bites knuckles* Omg if we shared a cigarette......*gives the look*

Hey Jono....can I interest you in a smoke...FUCK THAT BITCH ON THE BUS! LMAO!!!

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So im English if you have not noticed so im loyal to my country so we play you United States tomorrow i hope your going to watch.



I love football and i love my country so if i say anything bad about America please remind your self its football related



So i am little happier today because mainly i watch South Africa play football and watching France now want those fucking Frogs to lose to Uruguay wankas so i love you all fuck the world and live as you die welcome and devastated remind your self love is fake and the world is real woot

So I am sitting here just looking at the keyboard thinking about what to write, what could i possibly say, will i type something profound or world changing or is it just more of the nonsense that seems to have engulfed my life.



Why is it when you get older that something changes in you, when your a kid you don't think about the future you don't think about the bad things in life you look at the world in wonder and awe. Then you get to the point where that cloud of what once intoxicating now sickens you to your stomach.



You actually see the world for what it really is, your soul is crushed smashed, pretty much destroyed because you realize that there's actually fuck all wondrous about life. Seriously who can wake up and actually say my life is everything I ever wanted it to be I wouldn't change a thing. Its bollocks pushed into our minds my Hollywood and books, the reason people write fiction books about love and happiness and make movies about the same is either money or they hate there own fucking lives so much that they have to make new one up to stop them selves from exploding from the thoughts that would eventually kill us.



But what about the rest of us, the ones that don't follow society the ones that don't want to be like all the rest, don't want to be part of a minority , Goth, emo, punk, chav, rapper people who are just them selves.



I mean I am probably not the only one who feels lost in life that I lost the map and took a wrong turn and now am walking through the desert with sand in all directions and no water, slowly dying and still for some reason still walking with false hope.



There isn't hope there's just existence without purpose. Existence without purpose is like walking in the dark without any reason why your there and no way out just eternal darkness.



Life is pain, does anyone really understand that life is torture were dying slowly everyday we try and tell each other that there's a reason and that there's something on the other side but this is just people who are afraid when nothing does come at the other side.



I guess the final cosmic joke in the universe is that when we die , we die and at last were free from this hell so many of us call life.



So if this all we have to do in life is die slowly and make kids who have to go through this that have to die them selves and they make kids who die, how can we force that on them. Life without purpose. Life without reason.

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SuicideDoll
21:43 Jun 09 2010

I really like this. While some may not wish to hear what you have to say here, I feel it is very thought-provoking and worth consideration.

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DestroyingAngel
08:12 Jun 14 2010

I can see where you are coming from in wiriting this, however.........I believe this isn't what you have learned. I believe it is what you are FEELING at this particular juncture of your life. There is perpose and there is reason but perhaps you aren't supposed to know of these reasons or the perpose just yet. *hugggsss*

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