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Early March 2009, my fifth month of being pregnant. My belly is getting so big! Last month when I got home from from Virginia, Mom took me to see my ob/gyn. I'm having a little girl. and she's due in mid July. I'm going to name her Alexa Marie. I wonder what she'll look like? I wonder which of the men who raped me is the father? I feel so ugly, even though Brian has been real good to me. I wish he was the father of my little girl.. I don't know really what to say about being pregnant. I have a lot of conflicting emotions. On one hand I have this baby growing inside me and on the other hand, I didn't ask to get impregnated by the man who kidnapped and raped me.

Why is it that to start at the beginning of a blog, you have to scroll all the fucking way to the bottom and work your way up?!!! Therefore, I have transferred the majority of my blog to the story pages in REVERSE order. That is to say that the beginning starts at the fucking top, where it should be in the first goddamn place. In order to keep the blog going in what I regard as the proper sequence and order, I will from time to time, transfer the whole thing from section to section. What can I say, I like order...my way! Enjoy.







Arielle