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lately ive been feeling really suicidal because of the depression and lonelyness. i always find myself crawled up on my pillow every night crying. night after night im having horrific nightmares of dieing. on the vacations its worse. i spend my days in bed crying four hours until there is no tear left in me. i think maybe if i kill myself my problems will be solved. my friend cassey is telling me that i shouldnt do it. i dont know what to do. the emotional pain is so great that i am not able to feel physical pain(crying). i dont know what to do. someone please help me.