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Well... I can say that since the new moon, as the days go by, I increasingly become sight sensitive to light. The Sun and Florescent lights cause me migraines, feeling like something is drillilng it's way through the top of my head. Today, I woke up and immediately grabbed my sunglasses... I'm going to nail some blankets up over my windows.. Grr! At my workplace, it is lit with florescent lights and they don't allow sunglasses or a hood to be worn. Yay for irritability.

I just don't know what to do, or say... I'm in a confused state right now... and I don't really know who I am. But what I do know is that it is always changing. Just as soon as I get used to something, it, whatever it is, changes on me. Always changing inside and out. One would think that if it, whatever it is, changes, then it wasn't meant to be in the first place otherwise it would have remained permanent. I can be a Fickle person... and I can be VERY unsatisfied and not know how to approach necessary change. So, the Fickle is and permanence... forever changing my mind and always doubting. Myself and things outside of myself. I can be a critic.. mostly to myself.



The taproot to my Fear is Pride... I am a prideful individual, though I fight against it. Perhaps that is the reason that I am still somehow a prisoner of it. A prisoner of Fear because I fight Pride.... -sighs- So many thoughts whirling through my head and a lot of them are contradictions and don't seem to make any sense. They are going too fast to put them here. There they are and then WHOOSH! They're gone.

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Severus
09:10 Sep 09 2013

A seed starts in the ground and rises towards its fate. It grows and eventually flowers. A rose is always a rose even when it only looks like a common seed.

You are what lies within you and life doesn't give challenges for which you can not face. Whether good or bad everthing in your life at that moment is there for the reason of helping you rise to your fate.

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