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"Ahhh well I can tell you the online persona is the same person I am off now how I got to be that person is a little less simple. This is probably going to be TMI but don't say I didn't warn you :P

I was born and raised in Alaska until my parents divorce which eventually landed us in Eastern Washington where I quickly became the girl that was always in trouble at home and in school, for....talking too much, maybe more like talking back at home, imagine that *winks*. I remember in Kindergarden being made to sit in front of the class with what was called the "mums rag" (I think this was my teachers rendition of 'mums the word') placed under my chin and tied on top of my head to keep me from being able to open my mouth. Good lord. This happened at least once a week. Shameless I was. I guess some things never change hehe.

Things weren't always easy at home I won't go into the ugliness of it all, and after a few Foster homes I ended out on my own at age 15. Bounced around until I found myself homeless and pregnant at age 17, got married then divorced by age 19 with two children and no clue as to what I was doing. So I did something smart and constructive for the first time in my life and enrolled in College. I majored in Business Administration, minored in Art History.

I come from a family of artists, my mother was incredibly talented, her paintings and murals were things of great beauty, she could capture the very essence of her subjects, they came alive under her hand. My aunt owned an art gallery and was a painter as well. So it was only natural that I would pick up the brush, the charcoal, the clay, other such mediums. I was fortunate enough to work for a renowned artist, Ralph Crawford, I started off modeling and moved to pewter, making our own paper for sculpted paintings and then bronze. It was an inspiring time in my life.

After a few kids later and a second marriage all that kind of fell apart. In 2004 I had a major stroke. I was in the ICU for several weeks. Paralyzed on my right side, no ability to move, no language (Aphasia), I had lost my vocabulary entirely. I had to learn how to walk and talk all over again. But a fighter and after many hours of sweat and tears I pulled through. I never regained full use of my right hand so now I am a lefty and you know why I'm not the fastest typer HA!

I'm not telling you these things to pity me nor to garnish attention. It's to show you a little glimpse of what molded who I am today. The controversial Pandora of VR, I'm argumentive, stubborn and passionate. Some will say I am difficult. I speak my mind and tell it like it is. I refuse to conform to someone elses beliefs or give up my own just to comply. Not gonna happen.

I am flawed in so many ways and I am continuosly learning lifes little lessons. I'm an uber girly-girl, pink is my favorite color you can tell by looking in my closet, all three of them lol, I am a make-up whore, Sephora owns me at this point I think heh and I don't own a single pair of sweats or T-shirts. I love deeply and I laugh loudly, isn't that what this life is about? What I am saying is that in the end I am TRUE TO MYSELF. And that gives me some comfort".

"Well that depends on what we are talking about there missy, *looks over at Pinja* hush you :P

I'm pretty much an open book. Sometimes that's a good thing, other times, ehhh not so much. My trusting nature has gotten me in trouble more times than I can say. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. Sometimes I wish I were more guarded but then I wouldn't be me".

"WHAT" else would be books. I read every single day. I love to curl up on the corner of the couch, maybe a glass of chardonnay, soft music in the background and a really good book in my hands. I get to live in someone elses creation for awhile and everything else around me just fades away.

"WHO" is even easier. My five wonderful children. I have four boys and one daughter. It wasn't easy raising all of those children and mostly on my own, there were some tough times but we all managed to live through it all and I'm pretty proud of how they turned out. They are all grown up and on their own save my youngest who is just about 11 *wipes brow*. I also have five equally wonderful grandchildren. I'm blessed ♥.

Can't forget my romeo now can we? Most of you know the story and maybe more than you would like to know lol. ThePinja and I met on VR, long lingering conversations into the wee hours on the phone and a month later we met in person. It was fireworks, in more ways than one *See rollercoaster reference. Then my romeo made a big decision, quit his job, packed up his things and said his goodbyes, to move in with me in another state. We have had some major crisis in our relationship, I won't sugarcoat it and I have written about it freely in my Journal. Right now we are just taking things one day at a time".

"Oh PAGAN such a naughteh naughteh girl, why I have no idea what you are referring to? *bats eyes*. There is nothing slow about me or what I like for the record lol. Slow is just too tame for me. My life has been one big roller coaster, the anticipation, the fear, the thrill, the let down, just to do it all over again".

"Lord knows I have had all kinds of personalities in my Coven, diversity is a given here, I am very forthright and I think that helps my members to just be themselves. CCD thrives on an environment where anything goes and I do mean anything hehe. Your point of view is welcome here just give it with a good dose of respect. We want members that are a lil' crazy and you can't be uptight that's for sure :)

"Actually I put the bug in his ear when I saw that a possible opening was coming up I dropped him a message letting him know that I would be honored to be considered for the position. And voila'.

I can't tell you how much I love being a Procurator. Maybe the fact that between all of my profiles I have added over 7000 items to the Database myself since being a member here gives an indication *smiles*. The Database is a treasure trove, it's exciting to get to see all the new things firsthand that members submit. I have added new authors to my "must reads" this way and have purchased some pretty cool items listed there. So keep em' coming guys!"

"Honestly, it took me awhile to learn this but leveling up shouldn't become all you think or worry about here. I fell into that trap for some time, mostly because of my competitive nature and tunnel vision. Nothing wrong with leveling just remember to take the time to have fun and get to know the other members, try to stay positive to get the most out of the site. Enjoy being around others of like-mindedness.

Now, with that aside I'd reccomend rating ALL the databases, members forget that there are three different Databases you can rate, it gives you rates, pages viewed and time spent. Database submissions are now worth double and are the basis of the Dark Network. Rate profiles and ports, once again you get rates, time and pages plus most members will return the rate. Just stay active and it will come".