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so...you wanna know stuff about me, huh? well I suppose I could tell you some stuff about myself...and if you dont find this to be enough information to satisfy your information hunger then get off your lazy asses and ask already...

~well, for starters I try to be myself and not someone that I'm not (unlike some people that I know...) and I honestly don't give a rats ass about what people think of me and people tend to think of me as a bitch because of it.

~I have a tendency to think of myself as ugly and unwanted (which I have been proven right so many times before...atleast for being unwanted). from time to time I have trust issues and sometimes they get really serious...I have a problem with pushing away those I care about most. I can be quite mature for my age, but only when I feel it's necessary or when I just feel like being mature. I love to be by myself and sometimes I like to be with a group of friends but it all depends on my mood at the time.

~I've got quite a few friends that are gay and I love them to pieces.I think gay guys are the best...maybe it's cause I know they wont hurt me unlike a lot of these assholes who have enough balls to call themselves men when they act like children.

~I listen to practically all music with the exceptions of rap/hip-hop, religious music and country. I absolutely LOVE the music from Phantom of the Opera which I find kinda funny because I hate opera music...

~I can be quite a very paranoid person sometimes. I'm a major arachnaphobe (if that's spelled right XD). I'm one of the few girls that HATES chocolate...I'm lucky if I know two other girls that hate it...

~*~*~I am addicted to mountain dew.
~*~*~I smoke but I am trying to quit.
~*~*~I do not drink.
~*~*~I am currently having stomach issues, ended up going to the hospital the first time for it on 9/11 of all days.
~*~*~I love to draw and write poetry, although I still say I suck at both.

I shall put more up when I feel like it NOT when anyone else wants it...

Just a little something I had found from a friend...

[What is goth?]

This is probably the hardest question any goth could try and answer, one may as well ask 'what is society?' as it has so many facets it defies any definitive explanation.
Goth in its simplest form, is a subculture. A group of people who feel comfortable within each others company. There is no specific thing that defines what you need to do or be to fit into the goth scene (except of course the implied black clothing). People in the goth scene all have different musical tastes, follow different religions, have different occupations, hobbies, and fashion sense.

[Why do people become goths?]

Most goths become goths because they have been spurned by 'normal' society because the way they want to live their lives does not fit in with how most people are told to live theirs. Goths are free thinkers, people who do not accept the moral rules of society because they're told 'This is just how it is' or 'This is what God says!'. Rather goths tend to listen to what you have to say, and make up their own mind. This kind of free thinking and rejection of dogma earns only rejection in todays society.
However because of this rejection from 'normal' society, goths have banded together to associate with other free thinkers. This has a beneficial effect on both the individual and society as a whole. For the individual they have a sense of belonging, and friends they can associate with. For society it removes one more misfit filled with rage from society's streets.
This of course is not the case for all goths. Many goths today are goths for a variety of other reasons. They like the music, or the clubs are better, they have goth friends and joined in with them, or they just like staying up late nights and goths are the only ones awake to talk to.

[The gothic stereotype]

Many stereotypes of goths exist these days. It seems everyone has their own way to define 'what is goth'. From the stereotypes based on clothing to music right up to the stereotypes of all goths being satanists or part of some kind of cult. Categorically, all of these are false.
The goth scene is just as widely varied as society in general. There are many different professions represented in the scene, from highly skilled professionals like doctors and lawyers, to tradesman, to technically minded people to clerical workers. Many different musical tastes exist (and not all of them goth, there is a HUGE 80's following in the goth scene for some reason). The fashion varies vastly from goth to goth from the traditional flowing victorian style garments to the buckled and studded style regalia (also called industrial style, which is often closely related with goths, and have come to an understanding of co-existance, if uneasily at times).

[How do I get into goth?]

Goths tend to be accepting and open minded. Just turn up to a club or event wearing all black and your already in the goth scene. You'll pick it up as you go along (just a hint though, lay off the vampire comments!).
The gothic sense of humour is highly developed, and often leans toward the satirical. Quietly laughing at the more idiotic and less tolerant factions of society that seem to think yelling out of cars at us makes them cooler. Goths have learned to laugh at themselves and see society in a much different light. They have had to, and it is a trait most would not give up.
Goths have for the most part (not unanimously of course, but mostly) dropped all forms of prejudice. Noone is afraid within the goth scene to come out as being gay, and noone has to hide their religion for fear of scorn from their peers or zealots wanting to convert them from the arms of Satan. In fact because of these facts (and the general lack of prejudice) the goth scene has a large proportion of gays/bisexuals, and followers of non-mainstream religions and views. This of course is the most important aspect of gothdom, and why most goths became goths in the first place, tolerance.

[But they think weird!]

Ah, but this is the beauty of goths. Most subjects that are taboo in 'normal' society are freely discussed and debated about. Death, religion, magick, mysticism, and many other topics that are only roached carefully outside of the gothic community. Most goths have realised that fear is only a reaction instilled in us by dogmatic propaganda, and once you realise there is nothing to fear from the topic, whats to stop you discussing it?
Goths often revel in the fear given to them by society as a whole. Often the behavior exhibited by society to them based on society's perception of them from stereotypes, rumour, etc are a constant source of entertainment. Of course, most of the rumours are totally unfounded, goths are people like everyone else, however when you already have a reputation, going for the shock factor is often far too tempting to see how much society at large is willing to believe (or deduce) with only a little encouragement.
This does not totally fall away once you get inside the scene unfortunately, and goths are all too often tempted to try for the shock factor within the scene (which turns out more tacky than shocking). Goths when you get down to it can be a rather pretentious bunch, trying for those extra 'goth points' on the gothier than thou scale, but it adds to the enjoyment.

[History of Goth]

Modern goth (ignoring where the name itself originally comes from) started in the early 80's as part of the punk subculture (which is itself was a rejection of most societal values, and anything considered part of the 'norm'). The phrase was coined by the band manager of Joy Division, Anthony H. Wilson, who described the band as 'Gothic compared with the pop mainstream'. The term stuck, and as punk eventually died, Goth survived and became its own subculture. The punk clothing and hairstyles mellowed, and the core 'rejection of society' attitude alone lived on in the gothic subculture. Over time this itself has been modified to be more of a 'no more blind acceptance of society's values' as opposed to rejection because it was there to be rejected (and because you could get away with it!).
Movies such as The Crow, and bands such as the Bauhaus helped establish the gothic image as dark, depressing, and even evil. As more and more 'dark' movies came out, numbers in the gothic subculture expanded, and there is now a gothic community in almost every major city around the world, and quite a number of towns have their own representative contingent. Nowdays there are more goth bands around than ever, and it has turned from an 80's phenomenon into a way of life for many people. Unlike the punk subculture that it spawned from, there even exists a class of mature goths, still following the scene around even past their 20's and into their 30's and beyond.

*About Me Personality Quiz*
What is your name?:	Deann
How old are you?:	17
When is your Birthday?:	august 10th
What is your zodiac sign?:	leo
Where were you born?:	marshall, MI
Where do you live now?:	battle creek, MI
What color eyes do you have?:	greenish
What color hair do you have?:	naturally dirty blonde
How tall are you?:	5' 4"
How much do you weigh? (Be Honest Ladies):	i think about 175...
What is your race?:	. . . .
What is your worst fear?:	spiders
Do you smoke?:	yes sometimes
Do you drink?:	nope
Do you cuss?:	yes...
Do you use drugs?:	nope
Have you ever or will you ever steal?:	used to...not anymore
Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?:	yes
Do you play in a band or play an instrument?:	nope
Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?:	gonna get a tattoo sometime soon
If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be?:	. . . .
Do you suffer from depression disorder?:	yes...too often
If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be?:	in the arms of the one i love ^_^
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?:	no but thought of it
Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?:	yes
What subculture do you belong too?:	???
Are you evil?:	whats it matter?
Do you believe that you can be possesed?:	sometimes
Are you a paranoid person?:	yes
Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?:	VERY rarely
Are you obsessive and/or compulsive?:	nope
Are you a violent person?:	sometimes
Do you take your anger out on other people?:	sometimes
Do you blame other people for your mistakes?:	no
What is your favorite game?:	not sure...i like too many of them
What is your favorite movie?:	i dont know
Who is your favorite band?:	i like too many to choose
What is your favorite song?:	im not sure
What kind of books and/or magazines do you read?:	mostly vampire/ghost stories
What is your favorite color?:	black, red, and blue
What is your favorite food?:	dont know
What is your favorite drink?:	unknown
Do you own a pari of converse?:	nope
Do you own a pair of dickies?:	nope
Would you ever kill yourself or someone else?:	yes
Are you a virgin?:	yes and proud of it
Are you kinky?:	why do you care???
Do you like biting?:	possibly
Do you masturbate?:	whats it matter if i do or not?
Do you watch pornography?:	nope
Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?:	not yet
Have you ever shaved your head in a socially unacceptable way?:	nope
Are you hyper active person?:	sometimes
Are you religious?:	fuck no
Do you have any self inflicted scars?:	yes
Does pain turn you on?:	sometimes
Do you stand for originality and creativity?:	yes
Do you like meeting new people?:	sometimes
What do you like most about life?:	my bf
What do you dislike most about life?:	too many things
Do you believe in love at first fright?:	yes
Have you ever pierced a body part yourself?:	nope
Have you ever had to beg for dinner money?:	nope
Do you own a car?:	yeah...2
Have you been to jail, yet?:	nope
Are your clothes held together with safety pins?:	some
Do you have actual scars from punk rock shows?:	nope
Have you ever vomit while making out?:	nope
Have you held a job for less than a day?:	nope
Do you own more than two pair of jeans?:	yes
Have you ever had to fuck stuff up for no good reason?:	yes
Have you ever been kicked out of your parents house?:	im glad i was kicked out
Have you ever been fired from your job because of your attitude?:	havent had one yet
Does the world piss you off?:	fuck yes...way TOO often
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Your Birthdate: August 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations.

You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you.

Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans.

You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot.

Your strength: Your ability to gain respect

Your weakness: Caring too much what others think

Your power color: Orange-red

Your power symbol: Letter X

Your power month: October

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