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What I Wanted

7-20-10


I thought I wanted to be a singer
But then I realized how much I'd have to change
I thought I wanted to be thinner
but I nearly killed myself trying to get there
I thought I wanted to be an actress
maybe someday I'll learn how to lie
I thought I fell in love a few times
you live, you learn, you cry

I wanted to be something special
Make people think, reach their hearts
their souls, their minds
I wanted you to know my name
and see me as something greater
because no one ever did before


I thought I wanted fame and fortune
then I realized the best things in life
can't be bought with money
I thought I wanted an audience
but I got hurt,
because I don't do well with judgment

I still want to be a writer
because alone, with a pen
no one can steal my words
or even have to see them
I still just want to be loved,
appreciated, understood


I thought I wanted to blend in
then I realized I was born to stand out
I thought I wanted to prove something
then I realized I'm ok as I am

I still just want to be happy
live life in the real world
and worlds of my own
I still just want you to see me
as unique, fun and kind
and loving...

Because to love and be loved
is what I want most of all...