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in times such as these an alternate life is somtimes nessacary a farcical existance during the acursed daylight hours but with the faiding light my inner darkness is let free the night is mine mortals beware

upon the night of my creation thousands of years ago and upon the first feading i rember the cries. i rember the blood how it warmed my undead body how it lit my soul afire my preys eyes wide with his dying breath i have never been so alive odd is it not that one must die in order to be truly alive

i am like a plague i spread darkness wherever i go so if you wish to embrace the dark my screename on aim is eternalcold7

i have this thing for duct tape yeah its so ...nice any way i decided the other day i would be so much more goth if i could because i love everything about it its just so ...expensive and im so poor :'(

somtimes i wonder why i just sit the rain streaming from the sky above brused and angry but im long past caring the cold bitter drops hide my tears the pain inside has consumed my soul the love that i once felt for you has fallen to a dark place now it festers and it has made me what i am this fucking world will pay now for what you have done live a life of a WHORE and die as one cold bitter and alone on the street USE ME NOT for the darkness has consumed me and all will end now one fear is left inside the pain that was once my sould i fear naught but the dawning sun make me whole again my love restore me from my abyss

the time is comin fast and my mind races now i can see the first pink glow of the sun from up here. the church's roof is slick from the nights rain and i shiver, a soft wind is lifting my cape that is mostly dry regardless of the rain i brush a strand of hair from my eye and finger the hilt of the dager that i braught to suit my final purpose the horizon is brighter now and the golden rays burn my eyes looking into the pink hued clouds bring all the pain rushing back the damp cold of the night had quelled it but it russhes back more violent than before i snatch the dagger from my belt and consider its length before plunging it into my broken heart with one last look at the sun i jump from the church a tear falls from my swolen eyes and i see it refract the light and it all seems to mock me but it dosent matter anymore my mind fades and it all ends as the ground rushes up on me

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it strikes me that i have never seen anything quite as beautifull as the young girls blood running down the drain. it seems she couldent take it anymore and fled with the knife. the cold tiled floor rushed up on me as a i fell the beauty of my loves death suddenly surpased by my fealing of loss.
the love i lost has driven be down
my only escape it seems lies under ground
the knife to my skin sets me free
warm red rushing blood from me
without my love i have naught left
with love lost i have nothing
fair thee well all


EVEN NOW I CAN HEAR THEM CLAWING DOWN TO DORE INTO MY MIND MY SANITY DRIPS AWAY AS SAND ON A WINDY DAY DOWN ON BENDED KNEE I BEG OF THEE OH LORD OF OBLIVION SET ME FREE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO TAKE THE VENGENCE ON THOSE WHO HAVE WRONGED ME AND CAST DOWN THSES INFERNAL DEAMONS THAT CLAW AT MY SOUL

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In the short gaps of the insanity i can feal it festering the long dampend knowledge that i am alone the voices have for the time faded and the silence shaters my ear drums like a cryistal goblet upon the flagstone chamber in wich i am traped. supresion of this fealing can only numb the pain a temporaty novacane to the spliting fealing of greif I KNOW NOW THAT THERE IS NO ESCAPING MY FATE it was sealed since my conception i will be alone untill the end of time i was damed with solitude once there was a love that sweled my heart near bursting but no fear crept into its knowing. i greadaly pulled more and more but this love it seems was not ment to be for she left me a shell of a man a cavern of emotional tourment. this is my final cry to all who read this contact me i wither with each pasing day the shunted fealing of loss from a once beautiful love has torn me please mend my heart or cast me down but this limbo must be broken for i can take it no more SET ME FREE

YOU ARE MY BEAUTIFUL MY LOVLY THE GIRL THAT I LONG FOR YOU ARE MY SUNRISE MY BIRD ON WING
YOU ARE MY NOTHING
------------------------------------------------------------tonight is the winterdance the dresses are beautifull and everyone is looking there best but not me i am dressed in sadness and pain face shining with tears why must this go on for so long this same circle of pain i just need it to be fucking over fuck this shit somone please help




I haven written poetry for real in more than a year i decied today to give it a try and see if i still had the heart for it this is what i came up with
My life has come
My life has gone
Rose like the sun fleeting like dawn

My tears have come
My tears have fell
A life once happy now damned to hell

A drop of blood
A life of pain
What do I care its all the same

A life has ended
A mother cries
This world is wrong when her son dies

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