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lovely lady, looking for the right people (or even the wrong ones!) to bump into. You are always welcome as long as you come with an open mind and an open heart.
I'm a practicing witch, have been for the last 11 years, though I haven't made as much progress as I would like. I'm a Gemini with a Scorpio rising and a Piscies moon, if that means anything to you. Lost in translation? I'm fiery, double headed, passionate, emotional, and hell bent on revenge when wronged.

~this song is the meaning of my current relationship

From the Edge of the Deep Green Sea by The Cure
every time we do this
i fall for her
wave after wave after wave
it's all for her
i know this can't be wrong i say
(and i'll lie to keep her happy)
as long as i know that you know
that today i belong
right here with you
right here with you...

and so we watch the sun come up
from the edge of the deep green sea
and she listens like her head's on fire
like she wants to believe in me
so i try
put your hands in the sky
surrender
remember
we'll be here forever
and we'll never say goodbye...

i've never been so
colourfully-see-through-head before
i've never been so
wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
and all i want is to keep it like this
you and me alone
a secret kiss
and don't go home
don't go away
don't let this end
please stay
not just for today

never never never never never let me go she says
hole me like this for a hundred thousand million days
but suddenly she slows
and looks down at my breaking face
why do you cry? what did i say?
but it's just rain i smile
brushing my tears away...

i wish i could just stop
i know another moment will break my heart
too many tears
too many times
too many years i've cried over you

how much more can we use it up?
drink it dry?
take this drug?
looking for something forever gone
but something
we will always want?

why why why are you letting me go? she says
i feel you pulling back
i feel you changing shape...
and just as i'm breaking free
she hangs herself in front of me
slips her dress like a flag to the floor
and hands in the sky
surrenders it all...

i whish i could just stop
i know another moment will break my heart
too many tears
too many times
too many years i've cried for you
it's always the same

wake up in the rain
head in pain
hung in shame
a different name
same old game
love in vain
and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
away from home again...



~this is how I see myself
I'm Only Happy When It Rains by Garbage

I’m only happy when it rains
I’m only happy when it’s complicated
And though I know you can’t appreciate it
I’m only happy when it rains

You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I’m only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me

I’m only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I’m only happy when it rains

I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn’t accidentally tell you that
I’m only happy when it rains

You’ll get the message by the time I’m through
When I complain about me and you
I’m only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down

You can keep me company
As long as you don’t care

I’m only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I’m riding high upon a deep depression
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me

I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me ...




~this is how i *sometimes* see my family

Just Like You by Three Days Grace

I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you

I could be fake
I could be stupid
You know I could be just like you

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

I could be cold
I could be ruthless
You know I could be just like you

I could be weak
I could be senseless
You know I could be just like you

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

On my own, cause I can’t take liven with you
I’m alone, so I won’t turn out like you
Want me to

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you




~this is how i feel about my daughter
Gold Dust by Tori Amos

sights and sounds
pull me back down
another year

I WAS HERE
I WAS HERE

whipping past
the reflecting pool
me and you
skipping school

and we make it up
as we go along
we make it up we
go along

you said -
you raced from langley -
pulling me underneath
a cherry blossom
canopy
-do i have-
of course i have,
beneath my raincoat,
i have your photographs.
and the sun on your
face
i'm freezing that frame

and somewhere alfie cries
and says "enjoy his every smile
you can see in the dark
through the eyes of laura mars"
how did it go so fast
you'll say
as we are looking
back
and then we'll
understand
we held gold dust
in our
hands

sights and sounds
pull me back down
another year

I WAS HERE
I WAS HERE

gaslights
glow in the street
(flickering past)
twilight held us
in her palm
as we walked along

and we make it up
as we go along
we make it up as we go along

letting names
hang in the
air
what color hair
(auburn crimson)
autumn knowingly
stared
and the day that
she came
i'm freezing that
frame
i'm freezing that frame

and somewhere alfie
smiles
and says "enjoy her
every cry
you can see in the
dark
through the eyes
of laura mars"

how did it go so
fast
you'll say as we are looking back
and then we'll understand
we held gold dust
in our
hands

in our
hands



~how I unfortunately feel about my best friend
Scars by Papa Roach

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I'll put all of the quizzes I take and other such nonsensical ramblings in my journal.

Looks: Curvy, voluptous, dark eyed angel in disguise. Purple hair (though it's red in the photo), piercings, killer attitude.

Likes: anything gothic, horror movies, spending time online, meeting new people, chatting.

Dislikes: narrowmindedness, being bored.

Favorite Foods: sushi, pasta, chinese

Favorite Music/Artists: Tori Amos, Sisters of Mercy, Claire Voyant, Icon of Coil, Poe, the list could go on and on

Movies: Meet the Feebles, Ever After, The Craft, Magnolia, The Boondock Saints, LOTR,



Aurelia trivia:
*My cat, Artemis, has a 6th toe that works like a thumb on her front paws.
*I still sleep with my childhood blanket and not afraid to admit it
*I'm obsessed with The Prydain Chronicles
*I never let anyone see me cry
*When the sky starts to fall, I'm the one running to help hold it back up
*My Goddess is Macha and my totem animal is the Raven
*ya govoryoo no ruskii. I speak Russian but I am not of Russian or Eastern European blood. not even the tiniest.
*I also know a little Gaelic and a little Welsh, both of which are my blood (though i don't really like to admit it)

Major Interests
~Astrology
~Paganism
~The Gothic Lifestyle
~my daughter
~my loving boyfriend
~web designing
~Ben and Jerry's Fossil Fuel ice cream
~Tori Amos
~piercings and tattoos
~pottery
~tarot cards
~faeries

A Note on my Spirituality
Yes, I prefer Spirituality as opposed to Religion. I am not a holy roller (Pagan or other wise). I am not Wiccan. I am a Witch. I dare to practise that which others do not. I have an interest and highest respect for sigils, veves, the goetia and the like. I've cobbled together something from various Pagan traditions and it seems to be working for me. I just wish that I wasn't so damn lazy. And now I'm forced to not be lazy. I am a member of the A.'.A.'.


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