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CISNI
Chaos Infinitus Semino Navitas Infinitum
Infinite Chaos breeds Infinite Energy.

AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL BS

Okay, a bit about me. My name is Alastor Darc, I'm well known amongst the Yahoo paganism rooms (alastor_darc). I am a Rosicrucian Qabalist (fancy term for a heretical Catholic who believes in and practices magik), but basically I study all religion and take away whatever truth I find. I work at the Caddillac Bar in Kemah as a server right now, and I absolutely love my job.

I am bisexual, I have a boyfriend and a girlfriend. I also have a baby girl, and her momma......well, long story short, she's a shallow self righteous money grubbing whore. I do enjoy my drugs. As to booze....well, I'm 21, enough said.

As far as why I'm on a vampyric community site, well honestly, I can't give a straight answer to that. I'm not a vampyre, although I do exhibit several of the qualities that would define a vampyre. Truth be told, I'm much more Lupine (Lycanthropic). No, I don't become a full wolf under the light of the moon, I simply have several personal habits, mood swings, and strong physical desires that are all reminiscent of lupine characteristics. When particularly lupine, I usually go by the name Lucian Grey-Wolfe. This name comes with a personality complete with a Coat of Arms. Maybe some here will get to know this personality a bit better, but it is usually reserved for friends.

Grey-Wolfe Coat of Arms

Speaking of personalities, may as well clue everyone in. I have many, many personalities, each seperate and distinct. The main personality is Alastor Darc (full name Alastor Morpheus Darcona), a dark warrior of vengeance, just kind of a crazy madman with firm belief in a handful of ideals. I also have my lupine side (Lucian Grey-Wolfe, Lord Lupinus), an angelic side (Aleister Phobos Darkholme), and a newly developed draconic side (Tamber Lynn Dreugan, and yes SHE is very much female). And introducing the newest member of the split psyche team: Vic Nine, 80's anarchist punk rocker. These comprise the major personalities, basically the only ones I bothered to name.

Well, after reading this ramble, I'm sure you think I'm totally schizo. You're probably right. Anyways, this will do for now. Peace out ya'll.

A couple of things I didn't mention above: I have 2 guardian spirits and a muse/guardian angel. My guardians are Morpheus, a white wolf; Leukos, a white dragon; and my muse is Lindsey Angelfire (in her angelic form, a girl of about 16; in her muse form, a raven). I am a Scorpio born year of the Tiger, and a true Scorpio Tiger in every aspect. I do believe heavily in Fate and Karma, especially as I have given control of my life's path to Fate. I'm always where I need to be, when I need to be. Not an easy life, but a satisfying one. I do have precognitive abilities, as well as empathic abilities, and I do a lot of purposeful astral projection, especially when I sleep.

I am a warrior by nature, and as such I seek the highest ideals of a warrior: peace and love. I cannot stand to see injustice, and am extremely vengeful. I am the son of the Archangel Uriel Aretziel, and a servant of the Archangel Mikhael Ashel. I do recognize the feminine within the Deity, if you were to ask me who I recognize as a goddess, I would have to give 2 names: Isis and Cerridwyn. I pay homage to the Egyptian gods (I have an ankh and the eye of Horus tattooed on my arms, I'm eventually going to have my entire upper body a tribute to the gods of Egypt), and to the Celtic pantheon as well (I'm of Scotch/Irish and Welsh descent).

Now to the mundane BS that is me: I'm 5'10", 130 lbs. soaking wet, brown eyes and dark brown hair that has strands of silver in it. I like dressing Goth, but I pretty much just dress however I feel (it's called functional schizophrenia). I listen to everything from Pink Floyd to Killswitch Engage to Sean Paul to Linkin Park to Enya to DJ Tiesto. I love to read and write (I write poetry and am currently working on a fantasy novel), I play chess, I love to go rock climbing, and....yeah.

Politically I call myself a Post-Anarchist Revolutionary Confederationalist. I believe that America is no longer a democracy, just a beaurocracy with a prettier name. Constitutional monarchy is the shit (go Britain), I hate the US government with a passion, and....yeah. As Benjamin Franklin said, "Those who would give up a little bit of freedom for a little bit of security deserve neither and will lose both." Anyway (upside down in the shower), if you didn't think I needed to be locked up in a padded cell before, I'm sure you do now. Peace ya'll.

****DISCLAIMER****

With regards to all the "you have been rated fairly" shit, I appreciate the fact that people on here want to be fair, etc.; but in my most humble opinion: fuck that shit. Fairness is a matter of perspective: what is fair to one is not to another. Don't like what I rated you, go ahead and be like TheBratPrince and rate me a 1 cuz I rate you a 7. My simple statement is: You have been rated, fairly or otherwise. I don't give a shit about what I'm rated, nor do I care if you like what I rate you. My decisions and opinions are completely arbitrary and subject to change without notice.

I am an asshole, and do not give a fuck. I am a proud member of everything FTW!!! You probably will not like my attitude at some point. Ask me if I give a shit. I am sarcastic and caustic, especially towards the people I like the most. Don't like it....tough shit. Quit being an emo assed whiny douchehole.

I do use adult language in my profile and in my journal. I do so on MySpace as well, so don't chide me for it, or I will unload my vocabulary on you. I am an adult, and still a free citizen of the US. This country has not become quite so convoluted as to dare deny me my right to free speech. Give them some time, and I'm sure they will. Until then.....FUCK YOU.

I do not give out spells/readings/potions online. If you are truly interested in learning more about magik or religion, message me and I will gladly point you in the right direction. I do not have time or respect for fluffy playgans, so don't even bother me.

PROUD ASSISTANT COVEN MASTER OF THE COVEN OF THE DEMENTED MYSTICAL MINDS

POETRY / QUOTES

Breathe deep the gathering gloom,
Watch lights fade from every room.
Bedsitter people look back and lament,
Another day's useless energy spent.
Impassioned lovers wrestle as one,
Lonely man cries for love and has none.
New mother picks up and suckles her son,
Senior citizens wish they were young.
Cold hearted orb that rules the night,
Removes the colours from our sight.
Red is gray and yellow white,
But we decide which is right.

And which is an illusion?

~The Moody Blues
Nights in White Satin
Days of Future Passed

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

~Edgar Allen Poe
A Dream Within A Dream

This day is call'd the feast of Crispian.
He that outlives this day, and comes safe home,
Will stand a tip-toe when this day is nam'd,
And rouse him at the name of Crispian.
He that shall live this day, and see old age,
Will yearly on the vigil feast his neighbours,
And say 'To-morrow is Saint Crispian.'
Then will he strip his sleeve and show his scars,
And say 'These wounds I had on Crispian's day.'
Old men forget; yet all shall be forgot,
But he'll remember, with advantages,
What feats he did that day. Then shall our names,
Familiar in his mouth as household words-
Harry the King, Bedford and Exeter,
Warwick and Talbot, Salisbury and Gloucester-
Be in their flowing cups freshly rememb'red.
This story shall the good man teach his son;
And Crispin Crispian shall ne'er go by,
From this day to the ending of the world,
But we in it shall be remembered-
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
For he to-day that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother; be he ne'er so vile,
This day shall gentle his condition;
And gentlemen in England now-a-bed
Shall think themselves accurs'd they were not here,
And hold their manhoods cheap whiles any speaks
That fought with us upon Saint Crispin's day.

~William Shakespeare
Henry V
Act 4, Scene 3

Capital is dead labor, which, vampire-like, lives only by sucking living labor, and lives the more, the more labor it sucks. Capital is money, capital is commodities. By virtue of it being value, it has acquired the occult ability to add value to itself. It brings forth living offspring, or, at the least, lays golden eggs. Capital is reckless of the health or length of life of the laborer, unless under compulsion from society. Capitalist production, therefore, develops technology, and the combining together of various processes into a social whole, only by sapping the original sources of all wealth - the soil and the labourer.

~Karl Marx
The Communist Manifesto

Whoever appeals to the law against his fellow man is either a fool or a coward. Whoever cannot take care of himself without that law is both. For a wounded man shall say to his assailant, "If I live, I will kill you. If I die, you are forgiven." Such is the Rule of Honor.

~Lamb of God
Omerta
Ashes of the Wake

RELIGION

Sleep is the best meditation.

Dalai Lama

The tao that can be told
is not the eternal Tao
The name that can be named
is not the eternal Name.

The unnamable is the eternally real.
Naming is the origin
of all particular things.

Free from desire, you realize the mystery.
Caught in desire, you see only the manifestations.

Yet mystery and manifestations
arise from the same source.
This source is called darkness.

Darkness within darkness.
The gateway to all understanding.

~Tao te Ching
Chapter 1
Lao Tzu

Ten are the numbers of the ineffable Sephiroth, ten and not nine, ten and not eleven. Learn this wisdom, and be wise in the understanding of it, investigate these numbers, and draw knowledge from them, fix the design in its purity, and pass from it to its Creator seated on his throne.

These Ten Numbers, beyond the Infinite one, have the boundless realms, boundless origin and end, an abyss of good and one of evil, boundless height and depth, East and West, North and South, and the one only God and king, faithful forever seated on his throne, shall rule over all, forever and ever.

~The Sefer Yetzirah
Chapter 1
Verses 4,5

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