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Virusdamon



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† What is the difference between a dream and reality? †




† Is it the same between real and fake? †








My only wish

Was to be with you

My only wish

Was to see you happy

I walked away

And fulfilled your wish

By seeing how happy you were

Without me...








What do you have left in life when fate has abandoned you?







The Dark Light

What if two people fell in love, that were completly opposite, but entirely the same? What if one was dark, the other light? An Angel and a Demon? What if as they fell in love, the male saw light in the females eyes that pierced his own dark soul. Thinking she was his Angel. What if as they fell in love, the female saw light in the males eyes that pierced her own dark soul. Thinking he was her Angel. Each believing themselves to be the Demon, and their love to be their Angel. They become the Dark Light.







If only you could see



If only you could see

What is the true reality

Hidden by the mask shown

The emotions that remain unknown

But as long as you can’t find

That which is my own mind

And falsely believe this show

So your happiness may grow

I’ll be quite fine

Walking my invisible line

All this just for you

Though this reality won’t be true

As long as it seems alive

Then you will survive

Taking in the happiness as it seems

When in reality, it’s only a dream



~Caru



6/6/06





You are all hypocrites..











In the glow of the moon I see you

Standing there my guardian

Your white wings stretched

Protecting me



In the dark of the night I need you

Alone and helpless

Without sight

My blood running cold with fear



In the cold breeze of the forest I feel you

Sheltering me from the harsh world

Giving me a place to rest

To sleep in peace



Though how can I protect you my guardian?

I have no wings

I have nothing to give

Nothing compared to what you have given me



I am no savior for my guardian

I can only do one thing

Stay alive for my guardian

Show him that he has a purpose



Then maybe one day I can be his savior



~Caru

3/5/06









Follow the stars



When you've lost your way

Forget your fears

Follow the stars

Trust them



Don't be afraid to leave this world

I'll have your hand

You won't be lost

I am your Star Angel.



Just don’t let go

A star can’t be

Without it’s moon

Please stay



The stars watch over you

Lead you when you’re lost

Follow the stars

Trust them



Sometimes hidden in darkness

Feel me when you see them

You won’t be lost

I am your Star Angel



Ignore the stars

And they will fade

Without their moon

So please stay..



~Caru

4/22/06 ~Edited 5/13/06









A dream world



Take my hand

Let me lead you

Into your dream world

Escape from reality

Flee to fantasy

Capture hope

Just close your eyes

I am your dream world

Leave your body behind

You’ll need it no more

Let everything go

They’re only mistakes

Step into a new world

Step into my dream world

No pain, no feeling

A colored canvas

Of our painted picture

Step into this new world

Our dream world.



~Caru

4/23/06








Now before I say anything about myself I have to say this to see who has the balls to do it. If you meet me irl, the best way to catch my attention is just randomly come up and pet me. I am cat-like and love it, it's also very affectionate. Ahh.. I'll adore you if I don't know you, or even if I do, and you get up the courage to do that.


Now that's mainly to see if my actual friends read my profile and not just look at the pretty design.




Nick names:

Caru (What I go by. Carusima Hikura is the full name. Hecaru is another one.)

Kitten with the black wings.

Darkstar (A beautiful leader nickname by Ian.)

Ninja kitten.

ViRus (Virusdamon)

Star Angel (Sternengelin.)

Lil' evil resurrected kitty. o.O;






Now, I'd rather you read my whole profile before commenting or judging who I am and if you like me or not. I find it quite fond when people do take the time to read the entire thing since I didn't just write it for me to look at. Each and every word on this site means something, I'm not writing it just for pretty looks.


For you who do not recognize me by my picture, nor profile, my name is Danielle, or what most of you know me by is either Caru or ViRus. Only people who I am close to can call me Danielle, so don't you dare if you're not. I am 16. Do not judge by age, me or any other, because the age never determines the mind's state.






A couple of other sites of mine are:
http://carusimahikura.deviantart.com/. (My art site. Buy stuff when more is up for sale :3.)

http://vampirefreaks.com/u/Bite_Me_Til_Bled_Dry (My VampireFreaks site.)

http://www.xanga.com/We_Cry_Blood (My journal, even though my blogs have taken over that portion)




First, about myself.



My IQ has been tested twice. I received a 127 and a 142. Don't fuck with me, it's quite easy to out wit and decieve you.



I am Assassin ViRus. M'love is Assassin Quarantine.



I am masochistic and sadistic to a certain extent. Blood is absolutly adored. Although do not call me a vampire, because that is NOT my race.



I have 12 ear piercings, one center lip piercing, and two right eyebrow piercings. Soon to get two weaved on the back of my neck, my tongue, and a few more random ones in my ears. I design tattoos so I'll do my own, though my first is a barcode in between the two piercings that will go on the back of my neck.


My music choices? Mainly hard/metal/alt/gothic/industrial/Japanese rock. I am also a trance/techno/industrial/drum and bass/hardcore FREAK. :3 I love it, such soothing yet demonically erotic music.


Now the "extra" me.


Well, I am quite undefined because of what I withhold. I will not explain what "alts" are if you don't know, but I have 6 of them. In human terms it would be under psychotic rules as controlled Multiple Personality Disorder. If you wish to know anymore information on them, such as if they seem close to your alts then be my guest and ask me in person. Each of them I have given a name since they do not remember their own.


My main alt is Carusima Hikura: Information I have received on her, and that I am fine sharing on here, is that she is a halfbred demon. Born as a slave, then ruled her clan as queen.

Umi: A girl who died at too young of an age. She is currently 6-7 of what she remembers. It isn't known what she is.

Nariko: A male of an unknown age, older than Carusima. He is a pure bred demon, Carusima's old lover. He has a very masochistic and sadistic personality and is dangerous to people around him, including myself.

Blake: It isn't proven yet if he is an alt or just a personality. He has an unknown age and a gothic personality, 'tis where I get mine. Unknown what he is.

Teara: It isn't proven if he is an alt or a personality. He is of unknown age and is a cross-dresser.

Kuni: A sadistic boy of the age of 9-10. Don't let his age fool you, he is as smart as a 20 year old and uses it to his advantage. It is unknown what he is but it is known he is not human. He has his own energy. This is a warning from prior events, don't let him get into your mind.


Each have their own mind and personality. I can tell you one thing they all have in common though. They all don't like you.

I am bipolar. Bite me.

I am a halfbreed demon, obviously from Carusima, and if anyone has anything to say about that then I swear blood will be shed.


Going back to normal information...


I have been drawing anime, dark art, tattoos, fantasy and commitions since I first started drawing as a child. I do pencil, pen, paint, clay, craft, marker, acrilic and basic paint. I also CG (Coloring drawings using a computer graphics program) using Photoshop 7 and OpenCanvas. I am starting to do 3D designs for the games I am creating using Daz Studio. Flash is just for a little fun.



I write poetry and novels, mainly macabre/horror and fantasy.



I find it quite attracting as well when people actually care if you're suffering and take the time to help instead of just pass it by or think it's best to just leave you alone. I am not the kind of person to whine for help. If you ask, I will say no. To take care of someone is to force your help on them at just the right time to prove that you care. There is no other way.


I am also a gamer. I adore Role Play Games, which I am to create those. My favorites are the entire Final Fantasy Series, Diablo, Silent Hill series, and so much more.




This one is just for kicks. To see how many people understand what I need or want. Or even care. This site was mainly made since I don't like taking the time to teach someone about me in person and let them learn from their mistakes. You get to know me here the best. It's just how I am.



I have my many sides depending oh how close you are to me.

At first I am quiet and shy, getting to know who you are and if I can trust you or not.

Then as I slowly start to trust you I'll get more open, though keep who I am to myself because usually with people... they judge, and telling them about myself will drive them away from me.

As you become a close friend, because I don't have just 'friends' you are either considered a close friend or just an acquaintance, I open up alot more because I'm trusting you now. I try and get closer as well because I have a defensive natural from my demonical personality. The problem is I get defensive/jealous easily.

Though if you are a special one that I want to be closer.. I will try anyway to get you to talk about your problems, without bothering you, so I can help.

I'll hold you, let you hold me, take care of you and let you take care of me. I will not let anyone I do not like, in a way of falling in love with them, touch me more than a simple hug. Though there is a plus to people. If I fall for you the way you talk, the way you act, the things you like or attracted to I absorb out of habit. I will start to be what you want me to be more than I started out with just to please you. I am extremly defensive though. I will not let you do things that would jeperdise our relationship, and at times I might become a little too... clingy I guess? You have to understand that I've been hurt severe enough in the past that I have to take these precautions...

Then, if I become your love, you are my absolute everything. I would do anything you like. Cute adorable baby talk, playing certain games you like, or anything. Out of habit I will become more like you, more what you want just to make you happy.

I am loyal, protective, loving, emotional to that special person. But one thing you'll have to endure. I am submissive and you can scare me without even trying. Be careful. I am fragile at heart.




There is one thing I am looking for.

I am looking for my true love, my soulmate... That is all I want out of life. I don't care what I have to give up for it. My freedom, my life, my love, my heart, my body is all to the person who captures it.. and takes care of it.
Age does not matter to me since true love is not caged by a young or old age.

I want to find that soulmate who is perfect... who likes everything (Of course there are many exceptions, just being a little over dramatic here ^_^) I do, who is logical and intellectual. Who likes to write at times when they just feel like they have to. Who understand that I am a demon and nothing can change that. That they need to understand why I act the way I do and the things I need in order to survive.
Someone... who just won't... hurt me... I've suffered through enough of that...

My true love... My soulmate... My only one..




Is that not enough? Well out of boredom heres little things on my life :D



Stuffs updated 5-6-06

Name: Which one of my 7 names?

Birthday: January 3, 1990

Birthplace: Southern California, US.

Current Location: Unfortunatly the same place :/

Status: Hoping to make the right choice.

Eye Color: I was born with Hazel blue eyes though now they pertain a more hazel bright green with a couple of ligh ruby dots here and there now o.o.

Hair Color: Born with red/blonde hair, although now it's Vampire Red.

Height: 5'4"

Right Handed or Left Handed: Right for writing, both for everything else.

Your Heritage: Half British, half German (German Dutch).

The Shoes You Wore Today: My buckled gothic boots.

Your Weakness: How submissive and vulnerable I get when I love someone...

Your Fears: Chickens x.x; Needles. And having someone I love torn from me...

Your Perfect Pizza: Cold :3 Just cheese.

Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Getting atleast one of my CG's sold by a person other than family.

Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "lol" -.- It's now become a habit.

Thoughts First Waking Up: "Dammit, what was that dream about again!?"

Your Best Physical Feature: I hate all of me, but people say my eyes..

Your Bedtime: When I pass out. Normally 11-12.

Your Most Missed Memory: How it used to be... just everything...

Pepsi or Coke: Neither. Mountain Dew pwns all.

MacDonalds or Burger King: Neither. I hate fast food.

Single or Group Dates: Single, why the hell would I want the other girl eyeing my guy or the other way around?

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton hot tea.. the kind us British people drink xD

Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla.

Cappuccino or Coffee: -Crosses those out- Hot Chocolate ^_^

Do you Smoke: No, and I hate it when people do.

Do you Swear: Yes, When pissed.

Do you Sing: Yep.

Do you Shower Daily: Yep.

Have you Been in Love: I believe so, but how can you ever have been "in love" when they weren't your "True Love"?

Do you want to go to College: Art College.

Do you want to get Married: Definatly..

Do you belive in yourself: To be honest, I don't know wether I am me or just everyone else.

Do you get Motion Sickness: Sadly yes..

Do you think you are Attractive: A little?

Are you a Health Freak: Not really. I do prefer to eat good though over sweets.

Do you get along with your Parents: Hell no.

Do you like Thunderstorms: Yes! ^____^

Do you play an Instrument: I used play the drums a bit, can play the electric keyboard, and I am going to learn to play the Electric guitar soon as well as the Ocarina.

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Nope, I have a promise to a few.

In the past month have you Smoked: Hell no.

In the past month have you been on Drugs: Hell no. Not acceptable.

In the past month have you gone on a Date: Kind of.

In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yep.

In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No :/

In the past month have you eaten Sushi: It's nasty, so no.

In the past month have you been on Stage: Eee, no. But we watched a play?

In the past month have you been Dumped: No.

In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: TOO COLD.

In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Nope.

Ever been Drunk: Yep.

Ever been called a Tease: Yes xD. All the time ^_~

Ever been Beaten up: Nope, I have never lost.

Ever Shoplifted: Nope.

How do you want to Die: Slowly and painfully so everyone who hurt me can watch...

What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Computer Graphic and Game Designer

What country would you most like to Visit: Japan, London and most of all Ireland.

In a Boy/Girl.. (Though I have to put that this all doesn't matter, I don't really prefer anything.)
Favourite Eye Color: Red >3 -Smirks- In natural colors I would say a warm honey color or bright green.

Favourite Hair Color: Prefer black. Though natural light browns are the most beautiful.

Short or Long Hair: Long of course.

Height: Between 5'5"-6'2" Taller is alright, but I can't kiss 'em when I want though ;__;

Weight: Slim like me. Not MY weight though!

Best Clothing Style: Gothic/punker/vampiric or Renaissance ^_^

Number of Drugs I have taken: None bitch.

Number of CDs I own: Too many to count.

Number of Piercings: 15 at present.

Number of Tattoos: None just yet

Number of things in my Past I Regret: Infinite.



I am interested in people who can sit down with me and have an intellectual and logical conversation or arguement, even if it's on the most random of things.

I love the Renaissance period and anyone who has a Renaissance personality or visual style quickly becomes someone of my interest.

I love blood. Blood is also a beautiful form of art when it's spread across the body... or walls :3



For a random list of things Caru likes...



I have an obsession with safety pins...

Stickers ^_^

Kittys

DDR

Role Play Games (Final Fantasy Series)

Monster/Rockstar Energy Drinks

Blood Raven and Carrie are my ultimate best friends

My grandma's tea

Red eyes

Guys with make-up

Any type of gems...

Green starburst, yum

POCKY! (Japanese candy for those who don't know)

Spikes, chains, studs, shiny objects.

My swords... other peoples swords :D

Painting, drawing, any type of art media form.

Writing

Sunsets

Lolita designed clothing

Butterscotch!

The abnormal.

Black

Ruby

Long hair

I can't live without my laptop or atleast a computer :3



Things Caru doesn't like or detests...



I am not interested in you.

Girls

People with "Kat/Cat" anywhere in their name x.x;

Veggies

Pringles chips.

Country and rap music

People who judge just by looking at you

When my things break :/

Artist and writers block

Dreams that someone else can draw or write before you can

Change

Dirty blood

Unkept/unclean people

Being alone somewhere other than my house x.x;

Pink

When you download music that works but then your computer won't play it -.-

People who cheat/play/lie and have no remorse

Whores


People who hit on me when I'm taken, or m'love

Dyslexic moments

People touching my nose..

People who rush my artwork

Getting stuck on games

Lustful people

Humans


People who act like humans (or like 'everyone' else)

Anime in English

Having to wait another year before I can move

People who kick up my anxiety

People who talk behind your back

Secrets

Pain over the past that will never go away..



Anime:

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Ai Yori Aoshi

Alichino

Angel Sanctuary

Ayashi no Ceres

Bleach

Blood (Movie)

Chobits

Death Note.

Demon Diary

D.N.Angel

Elfen Lied

Final Fantasy (Unlimited and other)

Gravitation

Hellsing

Lenore (Comic)

Naruto

Spiral

Spirited Away (Movie)

Star Ocean EX

Tokyo Mew Mew

Vampire Hunter D(Movie)

Witch Hunter Robin

Yami No Matsuei

My music is updated constantly.



This is updated constantly.



311

3 Against 1 (Local Band)

Aesthetic Perfection

AFI

Alice Cooper

A Perfect Circle

Apocalyptica

Apoptygma Berzerk

Assemblage 23

Atreyu

Black Tape For A Blue Girl

Brand New

BT

Chevelle

Children of Bodom

CKY

Coldplay

Collective

Combichrist

Covenant

Cradle of Filth

Damage Plan

Das Ich

Dieselboy

Disturbed

The Dreaming (Local Band)

Drowning Pool

Enigma

Evanescence

Fear Factory

Flight Risk (Local Band)

Flogging Molly XD Irish rock pwns

Godsmack

HIM

Icon of Coil

Imperative Reaction

Infected Mushroom

In Ruin (So damn hard and awesome. Local band)

Korn (Favorite)

Manson

Massive Attack

Mindless Self Indulgence

Mudvayne

Neophyte

NIN

Particle Son

Powerman 5000 (Local Band)

Professional Murder Music

Psyclon Nine

Rage Against

Rammstein

Rob Zombie

Seether

Skinny Puppy

Slipknot

Soman

Static-X

System of a Down

Taking Back Sunday

Terrorfakt

ThEnd (Local Band)

Tool

Velvet Acid Christ

VNV Nation

Wolfsheim

Yellowcard

Zebrahead



And more.


My beautiful blades ^-^ Too bad the picture came out so horrible.

The first picture is me and my used to be master River. The last one is me and my beloved Blood Raven ^_^



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