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my name is John

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name is john i thought of myself last year see my life and death and it was sad i turned buddhist at the end zen buddhist/neo pagan and yes i learned my spirit loves to go to the world so i kinda keep to myself cause i like that so i dont give a shit so yea


This anime is one of my favs i seen all of them and its a good meaning in them so yea lol so is this one they both have great story lines and i love them for that


















yes as you can guess i love playing devil may cry also i love ninja and fantasy so yea lol






The 3 new pics i just added are just alot of wat i have been going through i have been dealing with my personal demons lately so yea thats why you see those images



















i putting new pics up that explain me in general



























yea i kno its wierd but its a good song even when you cant sleep it helps lol

Goo Goo Dolls- Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Verse 2

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Verse 3

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am





alright i kno i have acted wierd lately lol sorry my life has been hard lately but now im back to normal it took some time but im great again lol anyways i had alot to deal with and i finaly got throught so anyways more about me well idk wat i can say im about to be 24 oh and i do smoke i smoke weed sometimes and k2 aswell its cool but i dont do it alot just to enjoy life so more you kno lol but anyways if you want to ask me any more things then mssg me some stuff i dont get into unless i feel i can trust you so keep that in mind lol any how hope you enjoy my profile lol

This song reminds me of wat my little one and i went through with her mom its

Eminem--Mockingbird

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me...

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone, but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it, we gonna do it
Lainnie uncle's crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up as daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over
and that's what destiny is,
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby,
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back when you and daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Trying to start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
Onto Chalmers in a flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just triks me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainnie I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah,
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
and make him eat every carat
don't fuck with dad (haha)

I would do anything to make me little girl smile again i kno that its hard for her but i hope she understands why i gave her up to be rasade by two poeple that can help her more this is why i dont talk much im very silent i speak with the dead now so i dont think she would like her daddy saying that to her but i dont talk cause what do words mean when your heart was torn to shrads its hard enough that the economy sucks now i have to worry about the stupid girl asking me for help when all i wanted was a family and i got one that got ripped apart from the seems of my heart thats all i have to say deeply you hell spawn::


TheSpawnOfkillingchaos

On my own

I walk alone
Think of home
Memories of long ago
No one knows, I lost my soul long ago

Lied too much
She said that she's had enough
Am I too much?
She said that she's had enough

Standing on my own
Remembering the one, I left at home
Forget about the life, I used to know
Forget about the one, I left at home

I need to run far away
Can't go back to that place
Like she told me
I'm just a big disgrace

Lied too much
She said that she's had enough
Am I too much?
She said that she's had enough

Standing on my own
Remembering the one, I left at home
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Forget about the life, I used to know
Forget about the one, I left at home

So now I'm standing here alone
I'm learning how to live life on my own

Lied too much
I think that I've had enough
Am I too much?
She said that she's had enough

I'm standing on my own
Remembering the one, I left at home
Forget about the life, I used to know
Forget about the one, I left at home

So now I'm standing here alone
I'm learning how to live life on my own
Forget about the past, I'll never know
Forget about the one, I left at home